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Productivity!

So I watched this video while I was resting (Gee, I had time for rest. It was right after an exhausting and super hard exam. I need something to get that out of my mind.)

And guess what? It just inspired me.

Not that I label myself like Kat (the booktuber), who can't even get up the bed because the force of it was just too strong. I'm that kind of person who just always gets up and do things. But I can't really label myself as the very-productive-person, because most of the time my attention just wander somewhere...

(I have very low attention span, mind you. If I get focused with minimal distractions, that means I'm ultimately serious. Really serious.)

Although I sometimes say to people that I'm lazy, in reality (and upon realization), I'm not. I'm the kind of person who gets the job done on time most of the time. Of course, I cram. I procrastinate. Most of the time I do that because I lacked time (and yes, because it is really hard that I need to allot more time for it.)

It is very rare for me to do things because I'm lazy. If that ever happens, it meant that I was unmotivated on that particular task. Or if I'm too tired because I overworked myself.

And yes, you can call me a workaholic.

I believe it's just in my nature to be always productive. That my hands better got to do something good. I get bored easily--as in. I needed tasks in order to occupy my mind. Writing sometimes helps, although it had become a stress-reliever rather than a task itself. I needed more that could bring me stress.

It's weird for me that I look for stress itself. In my organization, when I was about to pick a committee to be a head on, I picked the busiest, most time consuming, and tiring work. But I didn't get that position. Instead, they gave me a much harder position. I still am thinking if I regret this decision. As of now, why would I? I enjoy organizing for an event. It makes me think that I am always doing something productive.

Of course, it had a lot of trade-off. First of all was sleep. Or taking the time to rest to be more  That was one I sacrificed in order to balance my academics while organizing a big event. Second was money. I need to eat a lot, mostly because of stress (but I'm always hungry). Third was time itself.

Going back to the idea of productivity.

I do think that you could be unproductive for a day, especially when you're really tired and you need to rest. There's a lot of pressure inside me and to other people on evaluating their day being unproductive. But isn't it a productive task to rest?

Of course, that reason could not be always true. Sometimes it comes off as an excuse. Let's say you had a lot of rest already. Get you ass up! Do something! Don't reason out that you're resting again. There a really thin line between resting and being lazy, so be wary.

The reward system is effective, in my opinion. For example, you just got finished on a hard exam. I bought myself some food and went back to my dormitory to watch food and booktube videos as rewards. It was a a gesture for doing something good, or a pat in a back, or saying that I did a good job.

Or sometimes, when I feel really good, I buy a book. Or travel somewhere, maybe in a mall or a park, if I got the money.

These little rewards build my morale in order to keep me moving. To keep myself on the track. To not lose that mindset of productivity. Because there's always a tendency that when something does not pay off, or the trade-off between my efforts and the result isn't balanced, I get tired. Unmotivated.

And of course, enjoy every single thing you do! If things get boring (in my case, always), turn things around. When the task involves people, I talk to them. Maybe learn a thing or two about them. Or if I'm alone, I put on my earphones and listen to some pop songs that I'd sing and dance along.

(Try the Disney playlist. It is really effective. I recommend the Frozen OST, of course.)

And as a reminder for me as well, don't pressure yourself too much. Every single thing you do contributes to something bigger. Just wait for it.