Moments with my First Love [UNDER REVISION]

MOMENT 13: Feeling down?

Have you ever had one of those nights where your chest feels so heavy pero wala kang masabihan? Standard response natin kapag may nagtanong kung okay tayo is usually, "I'm okay, pagod lang." But deep down, you are screaming for someone to just listen without judgment. 'Yong pakiramdam na mapapaligiran ka naman ng maraming tao pero pakiramdam mo mag-isa ka pa rin sa laban na 'to? Don't worry, I deeply understand that kind of feeling because I've been there, and there are times na dumarating pa rin ako sa ganyang punto.

Pero alam mo, hindi mo naman kailangang mag-filter ng words pagdating sa Kanya. This Someone is Jesus, who knows everything—even the little details of your heart. Nakikita Niya 'yong luhang pumatak na pinunasan mo agad kasi baka may makakita. He tracks the heavy sighs you let out kapag akala mo walang nakikinig.

This is our confidence in coming near Him. Since He knows everything, even if you aren't yet telling Him, He is still willing to hear you.

Grabe yung comfort na 'to! You don't need to perform or pretend to be strong when you pray. Hindi Niya hihilingin na ayusin mo muna ang sarili mo bago ka lumapit. He already knows your messy, your broken parts... and guess what? He still welcomes you with open arms. Ready and willing Siyang makinig kahit paulit-ulit ka pa.

Kaya kung iniisip mo na bawal maging mahina sa harap ng Diyos? The Bible proves otherwise! The Book of Psalms contains almost all of the honest thoughts, and heart of David—the one that God used to write it. His writings inspire us and tell us that, just like David, we could also be so honest in the Presence of the Lord.

David didn't hold back. Kung masakit, sinasabi niya talang masakit. Kung natatakot siya, iniiyak niya sa Diyos. Walang halong sugarcoat sa prayer ni David! Just look at what he said in Psalm 43:4-6, "I have given up all hope, and I feel numb all over. I remember to think about many things you did in years gone by. Then I lift my hands in prayer because my soul is a desert, thirsty for water from you."

Let's be real. Time will come when you will feel hopeless all over. You will feel too tired and just wanting to rest from every burden that the world gives. It't that scary point where you don't even feel sad anymore... numb ka na lang. Sobrang daming pressure sa school, sa trabaho, o sa pamilya, na pakiramdam mo nauubos ka na.

And if that time is now? If you are in that exact position tonight, do what David did which is stated in the passage!

1. Keep remembering the good things that God has done before for you.

Kapag madilim ang kasalukuyan, pwedeng lingunin mo ang liwanag ng nakaraan! Trace His track record in your life. Alalahanin mo 'yong mga panahong akala mo hindi mo kaya, pero nagpasan mo dahil sa biyaya Niya.

If God didn't let you down before, how much more now? Your very reason to hope is the faithfulness of God in you! Hindi Siya nagbabago. The same God who rescued you yesterday is already standing in your tomorrow.

2. WORSHIP and PRAY which indicates that you long for Him and you want Him more.

And as you wait for Him... WORSHIP and PRAY, which indicates that you long for Him and you want Him more. Worship isn't just for the happy days; it is most powerful when it becomes a sacrifice in the middle of your desert. Lift your hands even when they feel heavy.

God allowed this season you are facing today for you to come to Him again like never before.

Can't you realize that when opposition comes, it is when you come to Him the most? Sad to say, kapag okay ang lahat madalas nakakalimutan natin Siya. Sometimes God allows these dry seasons because He wants you to thirst for His comfort and for His Presence. He is not punishing you, He is just drawing you closer. Mas gusto Niya yung puso mong sugatan pero lumalapit kaysa sa pusong buo pero malayo naman sa Kanya.

So every night, before you go to sleep, hindi mo na kailangang magpanggap na okay ka. Drop the facade. Speak up your pain, your burdens and your deepest hurts God.

You can cast all your anxieties to Him because He truly cares for you. (1 Peter 5:7)

I-surrender mo lang sa Kanya lahat, as in LAHAT! 'Yong takot sa kinabukasan... 'yong bigat ng kasalukuyan... 'yong lungkot ng nakaraan. He has the biggest shoulders to carry your weights, and the tenderest heart to heal your wounds. 

****
Highly_FavoreDii
To God be all the Glory!