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Z : Realita Hidup

05. Realita Hidup

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Aku butuh seseorang yang mengerti keadaanku bukan seseorang yang hanya memelukku tapi sama sekali tidak mengetahui perasaanku.

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Zeline memasuki rumahnya dengan keadaan lesu. Sungguh ia tak ingin pulang kerumah. "Baru pulang, Zeline?"

Zeline menoleh. Ayahnya sangat berubah setelah mengenal Tante Wina dan Zeline sangat membenci itu. "Hm."

"Kamu lihat Zeline, nilai kamu sangat anjlok. Jangan bangga dengan otak bodohmu itu Zeline. Lihat Alysa. Diam di rumah dan belajar. Bukan kelayapan dan pulang larut malam seperti ini. Jadilah seperti Alysa, Zeline!"

"Zeline bukan Alysa, yah. Zeline ya Zeline. Zeline bisa sukses dengan cara Zeline sendiri. Dan apa ayah lupa? Dulu ayah selalu dukung Zeline apapun yang Zeline lakukan. Dan mungkin sekarang Zeline nggak kenal sama ayah lagi. Ayah lebih sering membedakan daripada mengapresiasi. Raga ayah memang sama hanya saja sifatnya yang berbeda."

Zeline buru-buru berlari memasuki kamarnya menyembunyikan air mata yang hendak saja menetes. Zeline akui Zeline cengeng. Sangat cengeng bahkan. Zeline duduk di balkon kamarnya. "Kenapa sih harus Alysa? Ayah dan Keano milih Alysa? Siapa lagi yang bakal ninggalin gue demi gadis itu?"

Zeline hanya diam menatap langit malam. Pandangannya kosong menerawang ke depan. "Gue butuh seseorang yang mengerti perasaan gue. Gue butuh orang yang mengerti keadaan gue. Gue nggak butuh seseorang yang hanya peduli sesaat lalu pergi. Gue butuh seseorang itu siapapun," lirih Zeline menunduk.

Zeline menutup matanya membiarkan air matanya mengalir membasahi kedua pipinya. Zeline mengambil gitar dan mulai memetik senar gitar yang dipegangnya.

(Someone You Loved, Lewis Capaldi)

I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to save me
This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy
I need somebody to heal
Somebody to know
Somebody to have
Somebody to hold
It's easy to say
But it's never the same
I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain

Now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to
This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you
Now, I need somebody to know
Somebody to heal
Somebody to have
Just to know how it feels
It's easy to say but it's never the same
I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape

Now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

And I tend to close my eyes when it hurts sometimes
I fall into your arms
I'll be safe in your sound 'til I come back around

For now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

But now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved