🖤 LOVING THE TWISTED 🖤

Chapter 35: He Must Be Fine

03 years later....

It was hard. Hard without Gulf beside him specially because he knows that there is no chance for him to hold the boy within his arms again and that hurts.

Images of Gulf's laugh, his cheekiness and his smile and cheerfulness was on display in front of Mew's eyes. His rants, naggings and whinings echoed in his ears and dwelled in his soul day and night. It was painful at first but now it has become a habit and he indulged himself in those memories whenever he missed his baby.

If you ask him whether he regrets sending Gulf away.... though he do regret it a bit, still he knew that is exactly how he will react even if it happened again because what Gulf did was not something a person can bear easily. But if you ask him if he really wanted to do that... he will say no without a flip second.

He never wanted it to happen, he never wanted to leave Gulf alone or yet hurt him. But that is what happened and that was what he ended up doing.

What has happened has happened and he cannot change it and thinking about the possibilities of how things might have been different was also useless because it was all in the past and no one can do anything about it.

Mew was still the same, with the smoking of the cigarette and staring and longing at the long away scenery, exhaling the pain inside him.

Bright and Win had tried a numerous times to find Gulf but all those times, they ended up being disappointed and even the week before, Mile had sent a special reinforcement in disguise in search for Gulf but they came back empty handed after four days.

Mew was healed but he is scarred and he was sure he will be like that for the rest of his life time. He can no longer love anyone else because he still loves the man from years ago and he thought it would be unfair to anyone to have a second place in his heart. So he was living with regret and pain but he was happy and contented of how things are now.

After all... crying for years about his loss had made his heart numb already.

He smiled as he sighed and threw his cigarette away and if his baby was here, he might have nagged Mew about smoking but now... Mew wanted an addiction, a distraction to get his mind away from Gulf.

His eyes fixed on the photos hung on the walls and his mouth immediately crept into a wider smile as he went and sat on his working desk.

The princes are supposed to have a meeting about improving their reinforcements for possible war in the future.

They have been in a silent war with Crescent all this time and it was not much long until they faced a real and bloody one. Three years ago, Win decided not to kill Trevin as he may come handy in the future and all of them agreed on it. So currently, the second in command of Crescent is imprisoned in the dungeons like a dog for good.

Mew to that moment could not believe that his delicate baby is the third Heir of Crescent and when thinking about it, still, something pinched in his heart.

Bright once had to knock some sense to him by explaining the real reason behind Gulf's treason and when Mew heard that Gulf did it for his protection, he almost grew traumatic out of pain. It was Max and Tul who kept him under control and told him that Gulf would never want Mew to suffer.

Now Mew understood a lot of things he did not quite grasp back in the years. Gulf's cold behaviour when he first saw him in the intiation and his breakdown at the end of the loyalty test.... it occurred to him that the breakdown was Gulf's turning point.

He had pushed Gulf so much to the limits that the boy somehow burst out which was tangled inside him

Then he remember how different and how warm Gulf was once he woke up after that and now only he realize that was when Gulf started his life as a normal person. Gulf finally felt secured and cared instead of toughness and pain and that moulded Gulf to the baby he loved.