Welcome To My Deep 3AM Thoughts

Hey, Listen.

 From experience, I can tell you it's never going to be perfect. You will almost never get it to be just how you want it and that's okay. You may not realize it but, you've made it another day. Your soul survived it. And you're still breathing, which means there's still hope for you. It's not ideal. Depression and every other demon that weighs heavy and lives in your head rent free, is not ideal. But guess what? You're stronger. You're wiser. And you're a lot more tough than what people make you out to be. You're going to be okay. Just take baby step, one day at a time and rebuild what you can. 

 Rebuild that foundation. Rebuild that love. Rebuild that relationship. Rebuild that bond. Just rebuild what you can. Keep an open mind, will you? Things change, chances come, opportunity arises, you have a new advantage each day that passes. 

 Yes, it's hard right now and it feels like you're starting over, again. Trust me, I have restarted my reputation so many times, and I still have a dark history. That's okay. It doesn't define me. And yours, won't define you. This is your life. You're allowed to call the shots and you can decide who gets a free ride next to you. You get to decide who needs to prove themselves to you. You get to decide who isn't worth your love or effort. Choose wisely. You are far too young to burn out. You are far too young to be cold. You don't deserve to be this way. Not yet. You deserve to experience the sweetness and newness in life. In many ways you are still a child. You have so much to enjoy, you know? Friendships from everyone. Travel. Love. Networking. Bonding. And more importantly, happiness. 

 You're too pure. 

 I hope your life falls in the places you need it to. I hope you're okay. And not just emotionally. I hope you are okay. Your well being, mentally, physically, I hope you are stable and happy. I hope at some point you can wake up each day, refreshed, rested, and nourished. I hope you can blossom into the person you not only want to be but, the one you're meant to be. Life is wild and tricky and messy and so confusing but, it's also beautiful and you never know how things can turn out. Be good to yourself. 

 You deserve it.