Welcome To My Deep 3AM Thoughts

Dear, Twin Flame.

 Funny, I miss you extra tonight. I'm craving your embrace more than anything right now. It's been a rough few days... it's been a rough week. 

 Okay, you caught me. It's been a rough year. I need you. Funny enough though, I have no idea who you are. So, I thought I'd write you something I can carry with me until we finally meet. 

 I want you to be happy. 

 In everything you do. 

 It's all I want for you. 

 Happiness. 

 I want that for you because, I'm currently learning how to simply be happy and trust me, it's the hardest thing I've had to relearn this year. I've had it, lost it, had it again, and for some strange reason, I've lost it again. You'd think by now I would be some pro at getting it back but, not this time. I'm currently dealing with loss. So, I hope you're happy. Always. Because if you're my twin flame, I never want you to experience pain. 

 If I've already met you, I'm sorry we were right for each other at the wrong time. Just know, I'm a ride until we die girl. And while I suffer all these issues and mental problems, how I feel about you will never change. And if I left you for some reason, trust me when I say this; I am trying to find my way back to you. I am ready for you but, it seems like life and the universe may have other plans for us right now. This isn't ideal. 

 I'm ready to be in your presence. I'm ready to feel you next to me and hear your heart beating. I'm ready for your troubles and what you bring into my life. Baggage and all. 

 Maybe I need to close a few more doors to make room for you. Maybe I need to grow a little more. 

 If we haven't met yet; Hi, I'm Sarah. 

 I promise to love you unconditionally and let you have the last slice of pizza and I'll give up coffee for you. I will fight for you like no other has, as long as you don't get overly jealous and force people out of my life. I'll let you play games on your gaming system all day as long as I can watch. Unfortunately, I can be a bit of a spoiled brat but, I promise to give back what I receive, always. I'll fight for you. I'm not the prettiest girl you'll ever meet but, my loyalty runs deep and you'll never question where you stand in my life. 

 Come home.  

 I miss you. 

 I'm waiting. 

 I'm ready for you.