Welcome To My Deep 3AM Thoughts

Me.

 I wanted to get this on here before I forget it once more. 

 I like elephants. I like them because, they are emotional, can communicate, and are capable of having best friends. Once that bond is created, they don't leave each other. 

 I like my coffee to be a medium dark roast from Starbucks with a touch of white chocolate mocha creamer. That is if I make it at home. 

 My coffee order is a venti white chocolate mocha iced coffee with four shots of espresso added, no whip. I prefer Starbucks over anywhere else. 

 I am a sucker for Christmas lights any time of the year. I keep mine up year round because I find them dainty and cute. 

 I have vegan tendencies. I will eat like a true vegan for a couple of weeks until I can no longer say no to the cravings of meat. 

 I like my steak medium rare.  

 I hate loud people. Not because they are loud but, because they make my anxiety shoot sky high. 

 I hate people who send food back when there is nothing wrong with it. 

 I like to read but not in complete silence. 

 I hate summer. 

 And while I complain about snow, I would rather have it freezing while I have seven layers of clothes and blankets on top of me instead of being hot. 

 I hate sleeping alone. I do it, but when I am comfortable enough to ask for the company, I try not to lose it. 

 My favorite color is blue. Not cliche blue. Turquoise, navy, light, sky, lapis, stone, berry, teal, blue. All shades... Blue. 

 I like long drives but only if I have a destination. Otherwise, I would rather be sleeping. My dreams are far more adventurous. 

 I hate loving people. I hate caring for someone other than myself. I can promise myself to always stay, to always be there. Can you promise me that? No, you can't. 

 I prefer being alone but, I hate being left alone by those who know I don't like being alone when I am alone. Confusing, I know. 

 Music is nice, I love it. but I don't enjoy blasting it until my ear drums are bursting. Unless I am in need of screaming, then the music goes as loud as it can. 

 I love nature. It speaks to me and if you are quiet enough, it will speak to you, too. 

 Family does not come first in my book. 

 I have never seen Hocus Pocus. 

 I am quiet but, my mind races all day long. It never stops. 

 I have lucid drams more times than I care to experience. 

 I want someone to know all of these little details about me without wanting to have sex. I want someone to know me outside of Netflix and chill. I want a love that is far more greater than a "bomb ass" one night stand. 

 I am fragile yet, I will break your heart.