Welcome To My Deep 3AM Thoughts

You.

 Hey, you. 

 Yeah, you. 

 The one that just got the news today. The one that feels like it's never ending. The one who thinks this was the last time.  

 Yeah, I'm talking to you. It's going to be okay. I say this from experience. I'm almost 22 years old and I've had my share of heartbreak. So, please trust me when I say this. 

 It's going to be okay. 

 I won't lie to you, it's hard the first couple of weeks, maybe even the first month. For me, it carried over into nine long months. Listen, it takes time. You have to treat this as if it was an open wound. Your heart hurts right now. So heal it. 

 I promise to not lie. I didn't heal completely sober. If I have to be completely honest, sometimes the pain is still there. It comes in waves. It's okay if the process is slow. 

 I did what I had to do to forget the pain existed. It's okay if you're smoking until your lungs burn and its okay if you're drinking to pass out just to wake up and do it over again. At some point, we all hit rock bottom. The point is, we all have our vices when it comes to  moving on or living with pain in our hearts. Such a strong muscle, so easy to break. 

 Don't be ashamed. You're not going to stay like this forever. One day you will wake up and it won't hurt as much. I'm a pretty pessimistic person and didn't think I'd see the day; Until I did. His name didn't hurt me anymore. You'll get through this. 

 Just keep fighting your battles. Talk to as many people as you can. Even if talking isn't something you want to do, find someone to confide in. You need someone. 

 There are no rules here. You don't have to be sober. You don't have to have morals. In a process like this, you do what you need to do just to feel something, anything. It's a sign you're still alive. Even when you thought you'd die without this person. You'll get through it. It might not be today or next week or three months from now but you will get through this phase of your life. You'll grow. Let this shape you into someone new. Embrace it and see where you'll end up. It hurts like hell but I promise you, its worth it.