December 8, 2020.
I'm letting you go because, I can't hold on anymore, I have left you messages and calls and you are still silent. I can't take it anymore.
Some people are not meant to be held on to and I am slowly realizing that maybe you were not meant to be tied to me forever. Whatever that means.
I have waited since September for things to get better and truth be told, I don't mind waiting longer. But, if I am honest I don't think I can face another anniversary or holiday without you, knowing we had plans.
Today I packed up the things I had in place of your memory.
A teddy bear; For all of your hoodies, so I could cuddle with it.
A necklace with your initials; It was holding place for the necklace you wanted to give me. Looking back, I am glad you kept it.
Anything sloth related; I will never get invested like that ever again.
Congratulations.
It has been two years and this is where it ends. I have no idea what was real and what was fake.
I will never watch Family Guy again. I will never listen to Kane Brown if I can help it. And I don't believe in pinky promises anymore.
I'm done trusting people.
I still love you. I love you and I am letting you go. I loved you more. I love you enough to let you go and be happy with someone else.
I hope you find someone and love them the way I love you.
You are the guy I will tell my kids about when they cry over their first heartbreak.
All I wanted was you.
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