Welcome To My Deep 3AM Thoughts

Memories.

 I don't have anything motivational. 

 However, I do have something meaningful. 

 I still think about the phone call that changed everything between us. I still remember the excitement in your voice when you heard me on the other end. I remember how fast we clicked after months of not talking. I remember smiling so hard, it was actually painful. I remember how that same night, everything between us shifted to a deeper level. I remember the first 24 hours we spent on the phone and how excited you were. 

 You were the one who wanted more. You're the one who couldn't stay away from me. 

 I remember the first "I love you." 

 It was right before I left you for a three day camping trip. I said it by accident but, I truly meant it and I couldn't hold it in anymore. 

 I remember the first kiss through the phone and the very start of "one more" after that. And "one more" usually meant 10 more. I remember the first FaceTime call. The one I was on for two seconds because I was insecure. They slowly became an every night thing. I remember the night of actually falling asleep next to you. It was so quiet but I felt so at peace. I remember how you's sing softly to me or you'd let Family Guy play in the background until neither one of us laughed. 

 I remember the way you said I was beautiful after I became so vulnerable to you. No one has ever sounded so sincere like you did.

 I remember the way you looked at me. The way you looked into my eyes as our songs played in the background. I used to fuss and whine but oh.. what I'd give to have another moment like that with you. 

 I remember how at peace you were when we would watch little snippets of your favorite show together. 

 I remember how excited you were to introduce me to your sister and your father. I'll never forget your father's sweetest hello. 

 I will never forget the times we would play GTA on the playstation and came up with our own "pinky promise" code. 

 I remember that's how we locked things in. With a pinky promise. 

 These memories just won't fade. You're my one. I'm not going to make it without you and all of these feelings are still there. 

 My feelings for you won't fade. I don't want them to.  

 I love you.