Welcome To My Deep 3AM Thoughts

You Deserve Happiness.

 I am not sure needs this read tonight. The girl I was eight months ago did. So, I hope whoever this reaches, is okay. 

 If he is not texting you, put your phone down. Go for a drive. Go for a walk. Collect your thoughts. 

 If he is not calling you back or answering your calls, stop calling. Don't text him. Don't tell him you miss him. He knows that. He knows what he is doing. Go talk to someone else who could give you the time you crave. 

 He knows he's ignoring you. He knows that you are trying to reach out. He doesn't want to talk to you. 

 And, that's his loss. 

 I am sure that you'd be willing to set the whole world on fire for him. I am more than positive that you love him so much, you'd lose yourself just so he can feel the entirety of your soul being dedicated to him. I am certain that you would move mountains just for a one worded text from him. But, we cannot keep doing that. So, I need you to cut the rope. The sad but honest truth is that he is a coward. He would rather you deal with his emotions on top of yours and figure out that it's over. He doesn't have the guts to do it because, he can't look you in the eye as he causes your pain. 

 He is the one who would put a knife into your back as you're facing away from him but, never while you are looking in his eyes. And you deserve more. 

 You deserve someone who laughs with you at your corny jokes. You deserve someone who would take you to old style diners and order you chocolate chip pancakes and coffee. You deserve someone who will hold your hand in public no matter how sweaty your palms are. You deserve someone whose going to watch all of your favorite movies even though they probably make you cry. 

 There are so many people on this planet and you just have to believe that your one person, your soulmate, is out there and they dream of you. Stop letting boys who ghost you or lie to you about where they are get you down. Someone who loves you and wants to spend time with you will not make you wait weeks at a time for a single text. Someone who adores you will never make you wait for that one phone call. Find the person who is obsessed with your laugh and will do anything to keep you laughing or smiling. Find someone who is interested in being in your life full time. 

 It is so hard to hear. It is so hard to do. It is so hard to let go. But, you deserve happiness. 

 Please go find it. 

 There's bars, restaurants, clubs, coffee shops, book stores, libraries, parks, arcades, beaches, trails. 

 Take yourself out on dates until you find someone who doesn't mind spending all of their extra unoccupied time with you. But, wouldn't mind you being around while they are busy. 

 It is hard to let go. 

 It is even harder waiting for someone who wants nothing to do with you.