I Can't Let You Go

Tearing apart

"I can't believe it," Lola told her. They were both sitting in their own apartment and they were talking online. 
"If you can't believe it, imagine what I felt." Emilia sighed. "It was like ... I would have included to some fucked up dramedy. It was nonsense and... I think I still couldn't believe it fully." she lowered her head. 
"Can't it be some ... plan of her? She faked a pregnancy for fuck sake. She is capable of everything to ruin you two." Lola tried to be sane.
"She wanted me to see me with my own eyes. That is sure. She knew I only believe it if... I see it with my own eyes. Probably that is why she wrote that message from Kit's phone." Emilia bit her lower lip.
"Gurl. For fuck sake I should be there with you."
"No. No." Em shook her head. "Don't worry about me. I ... turn my nervousness into something new. I start to write."
"What?" Lola frowned.
"You have to wait. You'll be the first who can see it after I am finished." Emilia smiled but it was so clear that was not an honest smile. She was hurt. She felt betrayed. She needed time to heal. She needed time to process the scene she saw with her own eyes. She waved bye to Lola and switched back the windows on her screen, and continued to write her new story. A story about a woman superhero. She needed to be strong. She won't sink because of him. That was sure. He did not deserve to pay any attention to him. After a dialogue, she checked her phone. Another missed call. Kitten. She should rename him. After that thought she did it. She wrote his name to Kit Harington and pushed the save button. She was not ready for his apology. She did not want to hear it. There is always a reason why he does things. She felt that she couldn't handle more of Kit's mess. She turned back to her computer and sank into work.

A COUPLE OF DAYS EARLIER

Come over. I miss you. She's gone. 

The SMS arrived on her phone early in the morning. She was not sure that is a good idea, but she missed him. The whole situation was a mess, and she wants nothing more than just to hug him, kiss him, and believe everything is going to be okay. In the past few days, she doubts that. She doubted they'll ever get over Rose's drama. She glanced at Ted who was sitting next to her on the bed. 
"What do you think?" she raised a brow and dialed Kit's number, but no one answered. "Weird." she narrowed her eyes but her heart was stronger than her mind. She stood up, get dressed and not half an hour later she was ready to leave. She caressed Teddy's head, put a mask on, and after she looked around she walked towards Kit's home on the streets. The streets were empty, the virus was still there. Not too many people risked that. A couple of minutes later she arrived and knocked, but there was no answer. She searched the keys in her bag and opened the door. The silence was huge in the house. She looked around. It looked messy. As if they had some party and had not been cleaned since then. She narrowed her eyes and after she looked around downstairs, she took a step on the stairs towards his bedroom. Quietly. Something was not right. She felt it. She felt in her gut and yet she was there. What if it was not Kit who sent the message? She placed her hand on the handle of the door and took a deep breath. She opened it. 

She forgot to breathe and she was close to fainting. The view in the bedroom totally shocked her and she freezes. Kit was lying in the bed, almost totally naked. There were two empty bottles around him. Whisky bottles. One was on the counter, the other was on the ground. He looked totally knocked out, but the worst in the whole situation was... he was not alone. Rose was there too. Without clothes. 
"Emilia. So you got my message." a satisfied smile appeared on Rose's face. "I know he always finds some explanation, so I thought... it is better if you see with your own eyes." she placed his fingers to Kit's arm and caressed it. "You know him when he is drunk." Rose continued "He has... " she giggled a bit "no limits. He did not have any limits yesterday either." she kept talking and she glanced at Emilia again, meanwhile her hand sliding under the blanket on Kit's body. Emilia was still in shock. She tried to convince herself it is just a nightmare and she is going to wake up soon. It must be just some nightmare. It can't be the reality. Not after... not after everything they went through. She felt how her heart was beating in her throat. 
"I hope it helps for you to... Move on." Rose added "Goodbye Emilia."