I Can't Let You Go

Bar

"Okay, we should go shopping." Emilia shook the milk but it was almost empty. 
"Yeah, the past few days were kinda chaotic." Kit laughed a bit, and Em poured a tiny slip of milk to his mug, then hers. 
"I would not say that." She giggled and sat next to him. "I mean I had several appearances but you could have gone shopping." she teased him. 
"I did." Kit slip into his coffee. "But since we spent the past few days in my flat..." he raised a brow. "The milk is there. Not here," he added.
"Fair enough." Em nodded and she drank into her mug too. "So? What are you hiding from me?" 
"I am not hiding anything. The event ended quite early. And..." Kit started.
"But you arrived home quite late." Emilia reminded him.
"Yeah. Yeah, I did." 

AFTER THE EVENT WITH ROSE - LONDON

"So." Rose placed her hand on his shoulder when they arrived back at the car. "Don't you wanna tell me what is going on?"
"Why do you care so much? To be honest I am not interested in your sarcastic comments." Kit sighed.
"I really care about you. Even if I am angry with you. Despite the thing... you almost did with me last time. I..."
"I did nothing." Kit answered a bit too loudly. 
"Ahm..." Portia interrupted them. "I think I catch a cab. Rose..." she pulled her away from Kit for a moment and they were whispering about something. Kit waited. He felt the plan works. Rose caught the bait. "Bye Kit. I am glad to see you" she waved after a minute to him and walked closer to the road to catch a taxi. 
"I thought we are going to take her home." Kit stated.
"She thinks... I ... should put aside my bad side." Rose smiled at him. "And I promise I will. I won't say any bitchy comments, but I really want to know what is wrong. If you want to tell me." she raised her eyes at him. Kit knew it is just a play from her side. A role, to get him back, to know more, what is going on between him and Emilia, but that is what he wanted. "There is a bar. In the next corner." she continued and looked towards the place. "We should drink beer or wine. Or something." 
"Water is enough for me." Kit showed her to go and he followed her.

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"You went to a bar with her?" Emilia kind of freak out.
"It was your idea." Kit leaned back on the chair. "I did not have a chance to tell her anything during the event, so that was the best chance. Did I do wrong?" he raised a brow and looking at her questioningly. 
"I  hate when you around her." she lowered her head. 
"Em." He placed his hand to her hand on the table. "If you think we shouldn't do it... I..."
"I still think it is the best chance to force her to move on." she turned her palm to his hand and took it. "I just hate it. I ... worry about you. She has the worst impact on you." 
"And you have the best impact on me." he caressed her hand with his finger. "That is more important." 
"Ahm... so... you went to that bar." she took a deep breath. "And... "

AT THE BAR  WITH ROSE - LONDON

"Are you sure you don't want to drink something stronger?" Rose asked him after they ordered a glass of wine and a glass of water. 
"No. It will be fine for me." 
"I am not going to tell her. I promise. You deserve a night out. Without her rules." Rose tried to convince him.
"No." Kit raised his palms and showed he doesn't need any alcohol "Not because of her but because of myself. I ... know I would easily get used to drinking again, and I am feeling much better now."
"At least in this thing. Because as I see you have other problems." 
"I still did not mind that we ended that thing between us. Between you and me. Do not misunderstand this." Kit made it clear at the beginning. "We... could not have been happy. Together. I am sure of it. I know it is hard to hear, but I think this from the bottom of my heart." he raised his eyes at her, and she pulled a face. It was clear his words hurt her. "I am sorry, I did not want to ... hurt your feelings but I want to be honest this time. Before you think this talk means something more."
"At least now you are honest with me." Rose sighed. 
"Lies just makes things worse. Just like this secret relationship with her." he lowered his voice and looked around. He just wanted to be sure, no one is eavesdropping on them. "we ... she and I ... we were much better as just friends."
"You mean fuck buddies." Rose couldn't miss this chance to made a comment.
"I thought you promised me that you won't make comments like this." Kit raised a brow. 
"Sorry. It is ... you have no idea how it hurts me. That you and her... meanwhile we were..." she was staring at the table.
"No. We have never fucked with each other while I was with you. Except for one time at the Emmys. I ... fucked with others that is true. I had some affairs." Kit swallowed "But not with her. And you know about all of those." 
"Honesty not always good." She cleared her throat. 
"That is the truth. Even if we don't want to talk about it. I am that type and you were right about... Emilia doesn't treat it ... like you did. She doesn't accept that I... "
"That you need to fuck other women for some mystical reason?" she finished his sentence. 
"Maybe one day I'll stop with it. I did not cheat on her... ahm... but she doesn't trust me. And that is understandable, but it freaks me out. And because of that I want to run away, I want to escape." he explained. 
"You should. She wants to control you. She always wanted to control you. You were just... too blind to see it."
"Maybe you are right." Kit nodded. "And to be honest, I am glad because you and I can talk like adults now. Without a fight." 
"Maybe sometime if you finally made an adult decision we can have some normal relationship," Rose added.
"As friends." Kit cleared the topic. "I ... right now I want to leave the past behind. You ... maybe we all should do the same. The show is over, we don't have to spend days, weeks, months... together all the time. So maybe it is a new chance for all of us to start a new life." 
"So are you going to breaking up with her?" she got to the point and she was staring at him.

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"Em what is it?" he saw in her face that his words hurt her. The events that happened last night. "Em?" he placed his hand to her face.
"I am fine." she nodded and kissed his palm. "It is just... it is scary. How... real it sounds. The things you've told her."
"I tried to handle it as a role. A role that I hate, but I had to say those things. I had to make her believe that is the truth. You know none of my words..."
I know." she smiled but there was so much sadness in her eyes. 
"It wore me. Those things I've said. I hated it. I couldn't think about anything else, just maybe that helps us to have a future together. Like you said." Kit tried to calm her. "Come here." he pulled her closer to his arms, and she sat on his lap. They were hugging each other in silence for long minutes. He kissed her forehead, and he was squeezing her close. "We don't have to talk about it," he whispered to her and caressing her back. 
"No. No, I ... I need to know." she swallowed and raised her eyes at him. "When... what happened after that?" 
"Nothing. Really." He shrugged his shoulders. "I've told her... that we probably end this thing between us, because it doesn't work in the way we thought, and ... it will be good for us, that we both have to work and move on. She seemed she accepted it, but it is sure that she'll keep her eyes on us. Can we stop talking about this? I mean it ruins your mood, it ruins my mood, and I don't want this. I just want to have some breakfast with my love, and enjoy the day." 
"Yeah. Me too." she finally smiled a bit. They leaned to each other to exchange a kiss, but the doorbell rang. 
"Waiting for someone?" Kit raised a brow.
"No. No, or at least I don't know." She pulled herself up from his lap and adjusted her shirt. "Just stay here," she asked him and walked to the entrance.

"Thank God you are here." Lola stormed inside at the minute she opened the door. "You... I wanted to come over yesterday night, but it was too late, but I needed to come here." she blurted. "I ... I have to tell you something. And you won't be happy about it. I... you..."
"Lola, what the hell is going on?" Emilia frowned. She did not understand.
"Ahm... Don't you wanna sit down?" 
"Are you pregnant?" Emilia raised a brow and crossed her arms.
"No. No. Of course not. It is not... I... saw something last night. Someone. And... you need to know about it. I ... Gosh." she rolled her eyes and hesitated. "I ... fuck I hate that I have to be the one who destroys your happiness." she was walking up and down. 
"Lola! Just spit it out. You're making me nervous." Emilia asked her friend. 
"Kit was with Rose yesterday. I saw them in a bar. Together. Alone. They were chatting so ... intimately and... it seemed they had a date or something, but that is sure it was him, and he was with her. That is so sure." she was talking so quickly, and Emilia had no chance to stop her. "Probably he is cheating on you, but you should ask him, because that is so nonsense, and I did not want to go closer because..."
"Hi, Lola." Kit stepped out of the kitchen when he heard her voice.
"Hi." Lola looked at him then turned back to Emilia. "because he could have recognized me but..." suddenly she stopped. Kit was leaning at the doorway and smiling, and Emilia was smiling at her too. 
"Good to know that you have that good friend." Kit admitted. 
"Don't deny that I am telling the truth. You were there," she told to Kit. "Emilia, he was there. I saw it. You should ask him."
"Anything else that you wanna tell me?" Emilia tried to hold back her laughter. 
"So now I am the bad guy? Great." Lola spread her arms, but Em stepped to her friend and hugged her.
"You are the greatest friend I ever had," she told her and gave a kiss to her face. "And I know you only tell those things because you love me and cares about me." she giggled. 
"What the hell is going on?" Lola frowned.
"I know about it. They met and go to the bar, because ... " She glanced at Kit. "We have to change our warfare against Rose. No matter how much time passed, she did not move on and we ... figured out something that could help." she took a deep breath.
"Or not. I still think it is not a good idea, but maybe Lola can change your mind." Kit stepped closer and raised his eyes at the girl. "Anyway I had no idea that you hate me that much." he tried to joke with her. 
"It's not about hate, I like you Harington, but... she is my sister, not you." she placed her arms around Emilia. "And if you ever hurt her, I'll be the one who is taking revenge on you," she warned him. 
"How could I risk that?" he stretched his hand towards Emilia, and pulled her to his arms, and kissed her lips so quickly. 
"So... " Lola spread her arms. "What is that great plan?"