I Can't Let You Go

Are you Sure?

They fucked for hours. In front of the window, in the couch, in the sofa, and they ended up in the huge, rounded bed. They lost control, and did not care anything else, just themselves. That was what they deserved, that was what they needed. Em cuddled him, and her head was leaning on his chest. He was caressing her naked back and arms with his fingers. 

"I am glad, you ... decided to come here" he stated and gave a kiss to her head. 
"Me too." Em answered and stroking his chest. 
They both know they are not in the end of the mess. It is just the beginning. It will be even harder from now, but they loved each other.
"So... what are we going to do?" Em sighed. She had to ask the question. She couldn't turn her mind out for long. She knows they are in danger - they reputation and name are in danger - and what they are doing now is one of the most irresponsible thing what they could do. 
"We have to ... be careful. More careful, then we ever were."
"She... came to my house. After you left her there." Emilia started.
"I know. Jack told me." he nodded "I am sorry about it."
"It is not your fault. And... it is quite understandable. She is hurt. And... she is not an idiot, no matter what we think. And... she would never accept you and me... together."
"Sooner or later she has to." he answered calmly.
"You know she won't. Never." Em raised her head. "Ahm..." she wanted to ask it, but hesitated. She did not want to ruin the moment, but she also felt, she had to know. She had to know the full truth. Kit caressed her cheek, while Em gave a kiss to his hand. 
"I have no secrets from you Em. You know it."
"I know. I just... I am not sure, I wanna hear the answer." she admitted. 
"Why I think... why I am sure, she is pregnant? That is the question?" he tried to smile to her, to made her feel better, but it did not help. She just nodded, but avoided to look into his eyes. He raised her head by her chin.
"Promise me you won't leave me here if I tell you." He asked her softly. She did not answer just staring him. Her eyes were sad. Kit knew he had to be honest with her. Lies won't help. No matter what her reaction will be. He loved her more than just lie to her.
"Earlier she throw a pregnancy test to my face. A positive one. I know it not means anything... I mean ... I did not pay too much attention to it."
"You did not tell me." Em frowned.
"No. Because I did not want you to... freak out." He admitted.
"I... " she took a deep breath "okay that not means it is hers. I can get one in an hour if I want." She put the blanket around her body and sat up on the bed. "But I am sure that is not all."
"No. No it is not." Kit also sat up and leaned to the bed headboards. He lowered his head and remained in silence.
"Kit?"
He stood up and walked to his bag. Em was staring him and she did not understand. He pulled an envelope from the bag and handed it to Emilia.
"What's this?" She shook her head, while he sat back next to her. Emilia opened it and she blocked a bit. Her hands were shaking. Kit put his hand to hers to reassure her but he felt that maybe too much for her. The ultrasound picture ... is something what cannot be a lie. Emilia couldn't take her eyes off of the picture.
"Did She go to the doctor with you?" She asked calmly.
"No. She just gave it to us. To me and to all the family. As Christmas present."
"So she went to the doctor alone? After she told you she is not willing to go any other doctor than hers?"
"Maybe it is from New York and she planned this all time long." Kit beat the wall with his head.
"No. No it is recent. Look" Em showed it to him "93 days. You told me ... she got pregnant or at least she told you she got pregnant on September. After the... " she took a deep breath" after the Emmys."
"I don't really understand what are you trying to say." Kit raised his eyebrow.

Em almost jumped up from the bed. The blanket fall down from her body. She was totally naked and beautiful. She stood in front of Kit with the picture on her hand.
"Kit just think please!" She started. She was so confident and her mood ... changed. "Why she did not go to the doctor with you? Why she refused to go with you if she went alone? If it is really your child... she easily could go with you and... " Em stopped when he saw Kits eyes were exploring her body. "Kit? Do you even hear what I am saying?"
"It is hard to concentrate your words when you standing here without any clothes Clarke." He nodded towards her with his head.
Em smiled a bit and pulled the blanket from the bed and put around to her body. "Better?"
"So you are... saying... this is fake too?" Kit turned back to the topic.
"I don't know for sure. But... can be. It is clear... she is playing dirty way." Em continued.
"Okay. How can be sure?"
She had no answer for this question. She ... had no idea she is right or those are just her wishes. She walked back to the bed and sat down. Kit leaned to her and gave a little kiss to her shoulder.
"She is over three months." Em told quietly "if it is true... soon it has to be seen. She should gain weight and her belly must grows. I... it has to be seen if it is real. She cannot fake it much more longer."
"And if it is fake..." he continued.
"Then a miscarriage is coming." She sighed and turned to him over her shoulder.
"We have to wait." Kit nodded.
"We have to wait." Em agreed and faked a smile.
"Come here." He grabbed her and pulled her back to his arms. He gave a kiss to her forehead and squeeze her.
"Stay with me?" He asked almost shyly. He was afraid of her answer.
"Forever." She whispered "does forever work for you?" She looked to his eyes. Kit did not answered just kissed her fully lips. Forever is the only thing what works for him. With his Emilia.

"Yes. Thanks. Yeah it is good to know... " Emilia woke up in the morning for his voice. He was talking on phone and walking around. He was naked. He was never bashful. Not in front of her. Now it was Em who was exploring his perfect muscles. His arms... and that fucking perfect butt. She smiled a bit and bitten her lip. And that man is hers. And he wants to spend his life with her. And that man would do anything to keep her save even if he is messy sometimes or act like an idiot. Why the hell she did not realize it earlier. When Rose was not in the picture. That would be... better. But they were idiots. Especially her. Kit was clearly in love with her for a long time. How many people told her and she always just laughed about it. Meanwhile she was in love with him too... all this time.
"Sure. Love ya too." Kit put down the phone.
"Your other lover?" Em asked him with a smile.
"Yeah. You better go because she'll be here soon." He answered with a smirk on his face.
"If you want me to." She sat up on the bed but before she could get up Kit jumped there and pulled her back. She was under him immediately and his lips pressed against hers.
"Do you have to work?" He asked.
"No." She shook her head.
"Any important meeting?"
"Ahm..." she acted like she was thinking. "Nope.
"Okay then... you are not going anywhere Clarke" he smiled and caressed her cheek. They both laughed. Finally. For a moment they forgot the mess around them. He kissed her again.
"It was my mom." Kit told her. "In the phone."
"It is good to know at least you are not hiding from her."
"That was rude." Kit frowned.
"No." She shrugged her shoulders "just the truth."
"Are you still mad at me?" He raised his eyebrow.
"I understand why you did that but I still hate it." She admitted.
"I am so sorry." He was smiling at her and his hands were sliding towards to her pussy.
"Hey Harington! Wasn't it enough tonight?"
"I never get enough of you" his hands stopped on her belly. "She left. She went back to NYC."
"That is weird. How..."
"Mom. She talked with her. She... is playing the understanding parent. She acts like she ... is on her side." He explained.
"Your mom is the biggest player I swear." Em couldn't believe what he just said "does she..."
"Yes. She knows everything" he nodded.
"And?"
"Isn't it obvious? She loves you. Just as her son."
"You love me just the way your mother does?" She raised her eyebrow.
"Maybe a bit more." He answered with a laugh.
"A bit?"
"You are my life Clarke."
"I recommend it Harington." Her real smiles comes out and that was one of the best things what Kit loved to see. He leaned closer to her and softly kissed her lips. Now it was her who pulled him close and thrust her tongue to his mouth and danced a passionate tango with his. His hand finally slide towards from her belly to her pussy and without any hesitations his fingers were in her.

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Kit stepped out from the bathroom in the afternoon. Em was almost ready to leave. She was fully dressed and she was checking herself in the mirror. 
"Where are you going?" Kit stopped behind her and placed his arms around her body.
"You make me wet." Em smiled.
"That is one of my favorite thing to do." he answered with a small laugh. Emilia turned to him and placed her arms around his neck. 
"I go home."
"Why?"
"Because you have to leave. You have the play, and believe it or not, I also have some work to do." she made the situation clear.
"It is not a smart move to leave the hotel together." Kit tried everything to keep her there.
"Well, this is why I leave now...  you just have to go an hour later, if I am right." Em caressed his cheek and gave a small kiss to his lips.
"How can I convince you... to stay here? Just for tonight?" he sighed.
"I really need to go. I have some kind of deadline... I have to finish something in my laptop and... I totally forget it." Em explained.
"This is just an excuse and we both know it." Kit raised his eyebrow.
"Harington! You called me a liar?" Em laughed.
"I have a laptop there." he nodded towards to the desk "You can use it. Just for one more night Em. I ... still have no idea, when I can see you again if you leave. And... I don't want you to leave."
"We cannot hide here much more longer, you know that right?" Em still hugging him and they were staring each other. They were happy to be together in that moment, but they can't forget the mess outside this hotel room. 
"Just one more night and we figure out ... the continue." Kit looked at her with his brown puppy eyes. Em did not answer just leaned to his face, and kissed his lips. 
"That is a yes?" Kit smiled and placed his forehead to hers.
"That is a maybe." She laughed. 
"I have to... get ready..."
"Just go." Em whispered. 
"Do not try to escape while I am in the other room."  Kit gave a kiss to her forehead.
"I cannot promise anything Harington. You better get used to it." Em was teasing him and put down her bag, back to the sofa. She took a deep breath and sat to the desk and opened the laptop.