I Can't Let You Go

Mother

"You get cold." his mom was standing behind him in the garden. He was walking around outside in the snow, in a shirt, after Rose gave them her precious gift. His mom was holding his jacket in her arms, and put it to his back. Her hand remained on his shoulder for a minute. Kit took and caressed it. 
"You know ... you can tell me everything. Right?" she stated quietly. 
He just nodded, but did not turn to her direction. His eyes were staring the dark in front of him. He wanted to see the light, but there were no light. Just snow, darkness and Rose. That was his future. Nothing more. Emilia made it clear, if Rose is really pregnant, she is done, because she won't destroy a child life. No matter how they are gonna suffer, no matter what they feel for each other. A child is more important than anyone. Even if it is not hers. 
"Kit." his mom tried again. He felt how he became more weak. He turned to her and there were tears in his eyes. He placed his arms around her neck and hugged her. 
"Son." his mom was heartbroken. Seeing her son in that mood was one thing she never wanted.
"I can't do this. I just can't." he tried to breath and form words but that was harder than he thought.

Emilia was laying on the couch. Her brother, and their family went home after the Christmas dinner. Her mom was sitting next to her, and they were watching Love Actually movie on TV. Em was checking her phone every minute. 
"He'll call you when he can"
"What?" Em looked to her mother.
"Kit. You are waiting for his call, no?"
"I just... have a bad feeling, and... I hate I can't talk with him."
"Rose is there right?"
"Yeah, with her big announcement about her pregnancy." she rolled her eyes.
"Are you sure she is not ... pregnant?" 
"After she called Charlie, and did some investigation about me and Kit? Yeah, I cannot be more sure." Em answered. 
She leaned to her mothers shoulders, and she placed her arms around her. 
"You were not a problematic teen, it seems, now you have to fight with all the drama you have missed." Jenny tried to joke.
"It is not funny." 
"I know. I just ... I wish I could help, but this is a thing, what only you two can solve. Especially him. What... I have to ask it... what you're gonna do if she is ... pregnant?"
"Leave him to live his life with her. That is the smart choice." Em answered quietly.
"Smart. Yes. And I should say you are right about it. But... do you think it is the right choice for their child? Grow up in a family... where the parents ... don't wanna be together? Just remain together because of the child? Those are the most toxic family relationships. And I would go further... where parents hate each other. Feel anger towards each other. Kit will move on. If not with you, with anyone else. Maybe years later. Maybe he'll never be able to forget you. He is in love with you since... the first moment, or... for years. And his feelings did not changed. No matter how many times you refused him."
"I did not refuse him.. he and I... we..."
"You hooked up many times. I know it."
"How?" Em smiled a bit.
"I know you darling. And I know when you are ... into someone. I just don't get it, why you never accepted it. Why you always sent him away. Why you... not tried with him."
"Because I was selfish. Because I thought we ... cannot manage it to work. We were ... far away from each other in the most of the year. I ... we couldn't have been loyal to each other. We were just in our twenties, and ... I did not want to live my love life in front of the cameras and the paparazzis. You know what I mean? Being Kit Harington's girlfriend... is not the name... not the title what I wanted. I always wanted more. To be known by ... myself. My name. And we were so good friends." Emilia tried to explain. 
"You'll always be good friends as I see."
"No. If we cannot figure out how to solve this... this time ... this thing... our friendship won't survive. Now... we put it... all or nothing. And I don't want nothing."
"Then, think about what I told you. Noble choice is not always the best one." Jenny closed the conversation and gave a kiss to her daughters head. "Hot cocoa?"
"Always" Em laughed and sat up on the bed. Her mom's word was racing in her mind. Maybe she was right. The noble choice is not always the best one, but they were talking about Rose. And she was ready for anything to keep her title. As Kit Harington's fiance... or wife.