I Can't Let You Go

Manipulate

"I can't imagine you ... drinking that much. You almost never drunk." Kit placed a glass of water in front of her. They were still sitting in the kitchen. Talking. About the MS Event. Emilia looked as if she was ashamed of it. 
"Don't say so." Em grabbed the glass and stared it. "I hated myself the next day. I was the one who... condemned you and on the first night, that I have to spend with her... I got drunk. Ironic, isn't it?" 
"No. She ... brought out the worst from the people." Kit tried to calm her down. "She has... talent for that." 
"Anyway, I had enough ... I did not want to be afraid of her, so I walked to her." Em continued.

MS Charity Event  - Days Earlier

"Oh, are you still here? I thought you left." Rose stated sardonically.
"Can we talk anywhere, in private?" Emilia was purposeful. 
"This is an event Emilia. We cannot just disappear" She shook her head.
"Rose, now," Em told her and she clearly doesn't accept any no for an answer. Rose glanced at her sister, and they all walked to a more silent part of the building. 

"It was enough of the game." Em looked around and get to the point immediately. "What do you want?"
"What?"
"I know if we can make a deal that is quite beneficial for you, you won't act like a bitch. I want to know what do you want. And do not tell me you want him back, because we both know that is not true. You don't love him, you don't need him. You only need his name, so..." Emilia spread her arms. "What do you want?"
"Hard question." Rose looked at her sister.
"That is your last chance, I won't ask it again. You can go to the journalists, and do a scandal. It will backlash on you. If you want this, go and do this. I won't back you up. I told you several times and I meant it. I had enough of your games, and pity lies. Now you can tell me what you want and we can make a deal, tomorrow we'll sign it in a contract, and everyone is going to be happy. Of course, if you can handle this as an adult."

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"She agreed to work together, and we signed this the next day." Emilia slid an envelope to Kit. "You have to appear with her one more time, this year, nothing more." 
"And you?" Kit asked her while he was opening it. 
"I'll go shopping with her, travel with her, talk about her at my upcoming interviews. I might have to invite her to my family Christmas dinner too." she rolled her eyes and she was talking so sarcastic. 
"I am not sure I deserve this." Kit ran through the contract with his eyes. 
"Me neither." Emilia sighed and she was playing with her rings. "Anyway." Emilia swallowed a big one "She went back to Scotland after that day. She'll stay there for the next couple of weeks. She gave me your keys, and when she is back in London, she is going to stay with her sister. Portia. If she screws up this agreement, I will be the one who opens up for the press. Not just about us, but about her drug and alcohol problems too, not to mention her family mess." Emilia stood up and walked to the dishwasher. She placed the glass to it. 
"Those things she ... told you... about me. I ... would never hurt you Em. I hope you know it." he was staring at her with his big brown puppy eyes. 
"You've... never been a role model of loyalty... she is right in this." she lowered her head.
"Maybe I never had a reason for it." he stood up and went closer to her. 
"You were in a relationship with her." Em did not look at him. "When people are in a relationship... they strive for... I don't know. To not hurt the other. And you did. You've hurt her many times." she kept her eyes on the dishes.
"That is my past." he took her hand. Slowly. So gently. "And you are my future."
"Did she ... she told me you've cheated her many times. Is it true?" Emilia turned to him. "And please just... do not lie to me." she placed her hand to his chest. 
"I did. Even with you." 
"I am not talking about us. But with other girls. Did you?" Em sighed.
"I did and I am not proud of it. Sometimes I just wanted her to... disappear from my life. I've cheated her, and I was honest with her. I told her what I've done, but ... she just cried, yelled with me, then always came back. She always forgives me." he explained and took her hand on his chest.
"I won't" Emilia raised her eyes at him and stared deep at his eyes. 
"You are the woman with whom I want to be with since I know you. Do you think I would ever cheat you, Clarke?" he placed his hand to her cheek.
"Just do not disappoint me. I... I've never done things for anyone... that I did for you. I... " she tried to find the words.
"You never loved anyone as you love me, and me neither." Kit finished her sentence.
"And you don't even want to have sex with me." she sighed and she kept her eyes on his face. 
"What?" Kit shocked.
"I paid quite a lot for this lingerie and you don't even notice." she opened her robe, and she was clearly disappointed. "I imagined this day ... differently." she closed the robe on her body. 
"You better not spend too much time with Rose. She has no good effect on you." Kit shook his head and smiled then he leaned closer to her neck. "I cannot think anything else, just you and how I am going to rip off this little silk from your body." he groaned to her ears.
"Lace, not silk." Emilia placed her arm around his neck and he grabbed her by her waist. Raised her up and placed her to the counter. 
"No matter how you call it. It ends up in the trash anyway." there was a smirk on his face and Emilia felt how his fingers trying to find the way to her sex. 
"Kit." she moaned when she felt how his fingers started to caress her clit. Through her lingerie. She grabbed his wrist. "I thought you don't want to... " she tried to talk but his fingers moving faster, "I thought... "
"Shut up Clarke." he almost ordered her and he ripped the patent and leaned to her sex. "I want to lick you out." not a moment later his tongue found his clit and it was moving speedily and Emilia forgot everything. 
"Oh fuck" she moaned and her fingers ran in his hair. She grabbed his locks, and she did not want anything else, just him. To give her pleasure. She deserved it. 

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"Hope you are satisfied." Kit climbed down from her and he barely could breathe. "Even your lingerie survived it." he laughed a bit. 
"I've missed you." she turned to him and pulled the blanket to her body. She was naked, and she had no idea when he rid her of those lace clothes. She lost her mind in the kitchen, she only knew since that moment when he started to lick her out, he gave her pleasure again and again in many different ways. Kit placed his arms around her and kissed her lips. 
"What did I swear to you? Two days of pleasure together?" he smiled.
"Wish I could stay," Em answered and sighed. "But tomorrow I have a meeting."
"Don't you want to resign it?" Kit wipe a lock away from her face. 
"I can't. It is important." 
"Well... I am not going anywhere. If you want to come back... you know where you can find me." 
"Now I can come here anytime I want?" Emilia raised her eyebrow.
"I am sorry. I ... Just understand, I wouldn't have thought that you can handle Rose that easy. I mean..."
"I've told you. I won't let her ruin our relationship. And to be honest ... it might be beneficial. She is your public girlfriend, and we can be together without the press in our wake." Em shrugged her shoulder
"Do you want this?" Kit frowned. "Hiding and ... be together as a secret couple? 
"We don't have too much choice." she lowered her head "We both know we can't be together ... officially. Not even if you break up with her. the press would... destroy us."
"Sure." he sat up on the bed and his mood changed. He was serious and his mind was racing "And... what is next?"
"What do you mean?" Emilia squeezed the blanket to her chest. 
"If I understand well... you'll act as you are her best friend. Sooner or later I'm going to break up with her, publicly. And then? How do you want to do this? If you are her best friend?"
"I wanted to solve this for now. For the present." she sat up too, and she knew he is right.
"She is still playing with us, and you easily manipulated by her, just like me." he stood up from the bed, and he was nervous. "There is no escape for us Em. Don't you see?"
"Maybe you should be more grateful." she made a face then she stood up from the bed and started to search her clothes. 
"Emilia, I did not mean..." Kit took a deep breath. 
"Yeah, I've already heard it many times," she stated and rolled her eyes. "You know what, I can't solve this alone. I did everything to change the current situation, I did everything to keep her away from you and sorry, maybe I did not think about the far future, but I had no better idea, but of course, Mr. Harington probably has a better solution for this too." she turned to him meanwhile she turned on her bra. "Do it. If you are that clever, and you have a solution for everything, do it Kit." she spread her arms, then turned her back at him again and grabbed her shirt from the sofa. 

"What are you doing?" Kit rolled his eyes and took a step closer. "Em."
"I go home. Maybe you should sleep because you are unbearable." she grabbed her pants too and pulled it on to her body. 
"It is not good for us when we spend that much time separated." Kit frowned. 
"No. What is not good for us, is when you questioning me, and the things I've done for you." she wanted to get out of the room but Kit stopped her. 
"I know you went through hell." Kit stated.
"Doesn't seem too." Em sighed and she was mad at him. "You think I want this? It would be so much easier to leave you behind, and everything we have. Not risking my life and my reputation for you. Clearly, you don't appreciate it."
"I did not say that." he squeezed her arm. "I don't want to fight with you. I am so glad you are here with me Clarke."
"I want to go home." she was staring his hand on her arm. 
"This is your home." he pulled her back to his arms. "Emilia, I love you. And I just... want to see things clearly. It is not against you." he tried to make her understand. "And I sleep much better when you are around." he smiled a bit and caressed her cheek. 
"I don't know how we're gonna solve it, but... we'll figure this out. I am sure. She ... just have to find someone, to move on. It won't be easy, but... " she explained. "she can't manipulate me. I can see through her games and all her ideas. I know it .... can make things worse for us, but we'll find a... way. Now it was the best solution. Our best chance." she sighed.
"I know." he placed his arms around her. "And I cannot be grateful enough." he kissed her forehead.