I Can't Let You Go

Reunited

"Are you sure it is a good idea? If someone..." Emilia asked Kit while he pulled her close and placed her arms around her. The towel fell off from her body.
"I don't care what is a good idea and what is not" he pressed his lips to her lips and kissed her passionately. He missed her and she missed him. The past few days were crazy and they had no idea when they can be together. They argued in the phone and both of them hated it. They did not want to, but everyone was against them, even the world was against them and they just had enough of everything. Meanwhile, that passionate kiss Kit grabbed her by her butt and raised her up to his lap. Walked to the closest table in the room and his hands were exploring her beautiful body. She did not resist, she did not want to resist. She wanted him so badly...

TWO DAYS EARLIER

"So I don't think it is a good idea to go there," he told her on the phone. After Rose blackmailed him, he had no idea what to do, but he definitely did not want to cause more mess. 
"Now you do exactly what she wants," Em answered.
"I want to protect you... us. I know she meant it. If I go there, she'll send the paps there, and then we are busted. I don't want it."
"So you just stay in New York with her" Em sighed.
"Not with her. I am in a hotel. What the management booked for us. Everyone is going to stay here when arrives. Even you. When you arrive." 
"Great." 
"Emilia, what is wrong? You wanted me to not risk anything. We knew it will be hard and..."
"Yeah. But seeing the tweets about you always around at a bar, can't help to calm me down." she finally spits it out. 
"It was a messy period okay. That is all. But I am okay."
"Are you?" Em asked back.
"Kit... we've done this before. You do nothing else in the past few days, then partying and drinking. And we both know where it goes." she placed her face to her hand.
"Sure, and I am not even working or do promotion. Seriously Emilia? I go from interviews with interviews, and it is a sin if I wanna drink a beer?" he raised his voice.
"I did not say that I..."
"You did. You just told me that I do nothing else just drinking. I did not expect this from you."
"Just don't be offended, please. Do you think it is easy for me?" she took a deep breath.
"You, Lena, Peter ... all of you show a big fuck you to the promotion and I have to do all of it, what you don't want to do. Because you don't like the final season. I don't like it either, but I have this fucking screwed up period because of you. So at least I thought you give me some support." he answered, and there was no kindness in his voice.
"Okay, just stop. You should've said no if you want to. It was your choice to do it."
"You know it was not." he sounded offensive. "I had no choice in it, because Rose, David, and Dan decided it without me, and you just leave it to them."
"I did not... okay, we should finish this. Call me when you don't blame me for all your problems in your life." she was mad and just had enough.
"Or you can call me when you do not freak out of everything" he answered.
"Great."
"Fine" Kit put down the phone and sighed. He did not want to argue with her, but both of them were just ... upset, and worried. And the distance between them in the past few days did not help to make things better. 

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"Kit" Em stroked his hair, while he was kissing her body. When she felt his hands on her breasts, she started to smile and she just wanted one thing. Unite with him. She wanted him, and after their arguments, the tension just grew in them, and at that moment it turned out to passion and lust towards each other. 
"I love you, Clarke" he whispered to her belly and kissed it.
"Prove it, how much." Em moaned when she felt his breath between her tights. 

EARLIER THAT DAY

Kit went to the hotel hall. He needed coffee. He drank too much at the night before. He started to think about maybe Emilia was right. Maybe he really lost control again, but at least when he was drinking ... he felt himself better. He did not take any hard drugs. He learned the lesson in 2015. It was enough. He almost lost the peoples who are the most important for him, because of that shit. If Emilia and Jack did not try that hard ... who knows where he'll be nowadays, but a joint is a different thing. It is even legalized in many countries. And it helped him to relax. He did not see it as a bad thing, but he knew he better not tell Emilia. Anyway, after their argument, they did not even talk with each other. It was Saturday... he should be on a plane towards to LA by now, but ... Rose was clearly following his moves, and Marianna even more. At least he can get rid of them at nights. And he used those times. While he was walking through the hall he heard some familiar voice.