I Can't Let You Go

London

Emilia spent her last few weeks in Los Angeles. The sunny and warm City of Angels. It was the  best for her... and her life changed there. She has just came back to London, but she already hated the weather. She was walking in the street in the center of the city. "Damn. I am gonna late" she noted herself when checked her watch. She sped up her footsteps.

"Clarke?" She heard a voice from her back. A  very familiar one. Em turned and he was there. Her friend. One of the best. "Kit!" She smiled and  hugged him. "I had no idea you are here. When did you came back?" He was happy to see her again. He missed her. They did not speak since the Emmys. That was couple weeks ago. He stared her for a while. Her beautiful and amazing smile always makes him... happy.

"Just yesterday." Em answered but she was embarrassed. It was clear for Kit... and he knew the reason. He just had to leave her before they could talk about it in LA. At the night of the Emmys... that night was unforgettable. Or at least Kit knew... he won't be able to forget it. Ever. "Em. We... what happend there..." he started.

"It doesn't matter. We were drunk and... but forget it. Not a big deal. You are still my friend. We're always be friends Harington." There were no emotions on her face. Kit felt himself totally destroyed. Forget it? How? Why? No. He doesn't want to forget it. And friends? Forever friends? What? His mind was racing. "I thought we.. have to talk about that... what happend. I..." He tried to find the right words. "We fucked Kit. That is all. There is nothing to talk about." She answered so easily. Without any emotion.

"Look. Sooner we forget... sooner we can get back to our normal life. I made ... we made a mistake. A huge one. No one can know this. Okay? I hope you... did not tell... " Em continued but she couldn't say her name loudly. She felt herself so guilty.

"To Rose?" Kit finished her sentence. "No. I did not."

"If I may ask you ... please keep it in that way. I don't need any drama and I don't wanna ruin your life either. She... would never forgive you. Us. And... I totally understand. I wouldn't do it either. " She lowered her head. Kit saw how it hurts her. He had no other choice than agree.

Kit nodded. "It will be our secret, little girl." He smiled to her. "I promise."

"Thank you." Em finally looked to his eyes. Her eyes were sad. "Ahm... I... have to go now. I am already on late. See ya... soon." She started to leave.

"Tonight?" He asked before she could leave him. Em took a deep breath. "I don't think it is a good idea." She answered quietly.

"Why? We are friends Clarke. Why we can't hang out together? Just like before?" He asked.

"Because things are... changed."

Kit went closer to her. "You asked me a minute before to forget that night... I don't want this thing ... to change anything between us. I just wanna watch a movie and eat some popcorn with my friend. Like many times before."

She smiled. Kit was right. They hung out together... always. And she really loved those nights. Kit is a so different person than the people and fans know him. He is not that brooding and boring man. Only a few knew the real Kit Harington and Emilia was one of them. 'I call you later for the details." She answered finally.

He gave a kiss to her cheek. "I look forward to it. Later." He walked away with a smile on his face. He knew one thing... he didn't wanna loose her. She means more to him than just let her go. Somehow... she is the other part of him. Even if she is just a friend. But that night... she was not just a friend... it was not just the alcohol neither the lust. No. That was more than that. Or at least from his side.

EMMYS NIGHT - 5 WEEKS EARLIER

"Fucking good idea. Go. Now!" Her eyes were shining while agreed to leave the HBO after party with Kit. "Where is Nath?"