I Can't Let You Go

Brothers

The week passed very slowly. Kit spent most of his time at the theatre. He did not want to be alone. That was not good for him right now. When he was not working he went to play pool and poker with his closest friends. He usually arrived home at around midnight, and woke at 6. He checked his phone many times... hoping Emilia wrote, or called him ,but nothing. Not a missed call. Not a text message. She felt perfect without him, and he had to accept this. He screwed it, screwed his chance, and she found someone, who is next to her. And loves her. Without any mess or issues... and without any fiancé. It did not matter he was not alone most of his time... he felt himself alone. One of his part was missing. His better part. His best friend... his love. His Emilia.

"Okay, bro. I start to worry about you. Since we are here, you don't even drink a beer!" Jack, his brother patted her shoulders, meanwhile they were playing pool. "What?" he picked up his head. "Where the hell are your mind? You miss her that much?" Jack asked. "Who?" Kit surprised. "Rose. Of course. Who else? Are there any problem between you two?" his brother really worried about him. He was not himself. "Oh, yeah. She ... has been in New York for a while." Kit said, and continued the pool game. "Why you don't visit her?" Jack wondered. "I have to work. We have rehearsals every day." Kit wanted to end this conversation. He really not cared about Rose. It was better in this way. She was in NYC, he was there in London. It makes things easier. He knew if Rose would be there, next to him, it would only generates more problem. "It is not just her?" Jack did not stop with his questions. "Let me leave okay? I am just tired. There is nothing wrong. Just skip this topic okay?" he raised his voice while answering. "Damn you are so stressed. When was the last time you have sex? You really should visit her" Jack laughed. Kit threw the cue to the desk and left him at the table. Jack was shocked. He was watching him, while he went to the bar and ordered a drink. He went there and sat next to him. "Okay bro. What is wrong. I see it. Why you don't trust me? I thought we can talk about anything and now... you are hiding something. It is obvious." Jack watched him and showed to the bartender to bring two more whiskeys for them. "You look like a mess" Kit laughed awkwardly. "I am a mess. I fucking mess. I screw it" he held the glass in front of his mouth and staring into space. "Is that Rose or something else? Someone else?" Jack tried to figure out what is going on. "With Rose... everything is fine." he answered without any emotions. "You don't wanna marry her" Jack stated while he was watching his reactions. "No. No I don't."

"You should tell her. Sooner is better" he grabbed his glass of whiskey and drank to it. "Who is the girl?" he added. "What girl?" Kit looked at his brother. "The girl who changed your mind about the marriage plans." Jack was so calm. It was really obvious for him. He never saw the real flame between Kit and Rose, but he always respected his choices. From deep in his heart he was glad, he may end this thing finally. Kit sighed. He better not say anything. If one knows about them, maybe many will know soon. He couldn't take the risk. "There is no other girl. It is just... what I felt for her is just gone away." he shrugged. "If you say so" Jack raised his glass towards Kit "for the new beginnings!" Kit finally smiled a bit and toasted with him. "Hey. Is that not Emilia?" Jack poked his shoulder and showed a girl in the crowd with his hands. Kit immediately picked up his face and turned to the direction.

It was her. With her best friend Lola... and with Charlie. Of course. He was there and hugging her continuously. He did not removed his hands from her even for a minute. "Okay, I ... we should go" Kit jumped up from the bar stool and tried to leave the place unobtrusively. Jack followed him, but he did not understand what is going on. Kit lowered his head and headed towards to the exit. "Oh my God! You are Kit Harington" he heard a scream from the crowd, and a girl immediately was next to him. "Can I... oh my god. Please! Give me an autograph. You are the hottest!" she was very beautiful, long blonde hair, big green eyes. Jack started to smile behind Kit, but Kit just forced a smile, sign the paper and went forward, without even saying anything to her. "Kit!" suddenly Emilia was there, in front of him. He literally ran into her. "Hi" he said and stared her for a while. "Hi Jack" Em smiled to Jack, he waved to her, then she turned back to Kit. "How are you?" she asked. She missed him. She was happy to ran into him. She chose this place for reason... she had hopes... maybe they ran into each other. She couldn't call him in the past few days. She did not want any more arguments with Charlie about him. "It is good to see you" she continued. "What are you doing here Em? You hate this place." his tone was serious, he knew her. For too long. She hated those ruin pubs. She usually goes to fancy bars, and not those kind of places. "We just... wanted to have some fun with Lola and... " she tried to explain. "Charlie" he added. "Yes. And I remembered you like this place, and I... just wanted to ... see it" her explanation was very bad. She felt it, but there were nothing else what she could say.