I Can't Let You Go

Sneaking Around

"Cum for me Clarke" he whispered to her while he was thrusting her deeper and wilder with every move. He kept his hand in her mouth to make her moans quieter. She felt how her nails dig into her back. "Cum for me baby I know you want it." He groaned again and Emilia grabbed his hand and pushed it away from her lips.
"Yes!" She moaned loudly. "Fucking Yes!" She was so noisy and her last moan before she cum was the favourite sound of Kit. She felt how her nails went deeper in his back and then she was just painting. He was still in her with his hard cock and he needed every piece of his mind to control himself. He did not want to climax. Not yet. Not too soon. He was not sure he'll be able for another round after yesterday night. He was tired and hungover but he would not miss a chance to give her pleasure. He grabbed her tight and spread her legs more.
"Wait." She panted.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing just..." she tried to breathe while her smile gets bigger and bigger "just give me time."
"We have time. As much as you want." He caressed her cheek then he started to kiss her neck... her shoulder. She was just giggling.
"You have no idea..." he told between two kisses "how I love your laugh."
"That not means" she bit her lower lip "you don't owe me the explanation about your drunk days." She was enjoying his kisses.
"Those are over. I lost my control a bit." He continued and his fingers were sliding towards to her clit.
"What happened?" She closed her eyes because he was still kissing her. When she felt his finger in her sex she moaned quietly.
"I am sure you don't wanna talk about it right now." He whispered to her neck while massaging her down there.
"I want to." Her voice was so thin.
"It was not convincing." He smirked.
"You get back... to the ... situation." She moaned while he moved his fingers faster on her clit.
"Just a word from you... and I am gonna stop." He told quietly straight to her ear but he did not give her a real chance to resist. He thrust his finger inside her while his thumb was still playing with her clit.
"Kit."

A knock disturbed their enjoyable time. Kit stopped and started to the direction of the door. Em sat up on the bed.
"Waiting for someone?" Kit asked
"Not really." Em sighed and jumped up. She gets a robe on and tied it. "Stay here or in the bathroom. Just... hide." She was clearly nervous while she was walking to the door. She heard a knock again. After a deep breath she opened it.
"David." Em tried to smile.
"The receptionist told me you are here already." He smiled "that means you changed your mind?"
"About what?" She frowned.
"The promotion."
"David. We already discussed it and... I do what is necessary. Okay? Nothing more."
"Am I interrupting something?" He noticed how confused she is.
"A relaxing bath." Em raised her eyebrow and at the next moment, David walked into her room. "But it seems you don't really care about it." She stated.
"I know you feel... bad about ... many things. But you know we love you right?" He tried to apologize and walked around in the room. Em glanced to the bed but Kit was not there. "Emilia?"
"I know." She lowered her head. "But you have no idea how hard it is with the fans... even with the journalists. I mean... what should I do when they say they are rooting for Daenerys?"
"Smile and say thank you."
"Like an idiot." Em answered "look... I just arrived a couple of hours ago. I am tired. I am not in the mood for this talk right now." She took a deep breath.
"You are not here because of Kit, right?" David finally asked.
"So that is the real reason. You came here to check on me." She rolled her eyes.
"I am not. But... after the things you told us. We should be more careful. Both of you and all of us. It would destroy many things."
"It would only destroy your perfect little PR couple and HBO plans. Nothing else." She sighed and crossed her arms.
"And you. You are not a cheater neither a homewrecker and you don't need a fight with the company." He explained and walked closer to her "You are a smart woman. I know that. And I am not your enemy. Neither Kit's enemy. I just want you to be... cautious." He placed his hand to her shoulder.

"I am not here because of him. One of my magazine interview changed and I had to come sooner." She lowered her head. David nodded. "But I am glad I arrived. As I see you forgot to keep an eye on your actors."
"What do you mean?"
"I am sure you remember what happened years ago and yet you fucking don't care what is he doing." Emilia was mad and at least now she had a chance to talk with David ask him.
"He is a grown-up man." He sighed.
"So he is good enough to be your puppet in the PR show but you don't care what he does when he is not in the centre of the attention. And you dare to say you care about him?"
"Look one drunk night is not the end of the world."
"One. Yeah." She laughed sardonically. "You better go. I want to take a bath and have some rest."
"Emilia." He stopped at the door. "Just trust us okay."
"Did you tell the same to Rose?" She was staring at his face. "Sorry but I can't. And I just want this shit show to end."
"If you see Kit. Tell him to not forget his ordered paparazzi shoot tonight."
Em made a face.
"Sure." And she almost slammed the door. Now it was clearly a bad idea. Asking for help from David and Dan. Now they know about them but... that is all. There will be more eyes on them and it won't help. It just makes things messier.

She walked back to the bed then looked around. She tried to enter the bathroom but it was locked.
"You can come out." She told him then walked back to the bed and sat down. Kit opened the door.
"Did you hear it?" She placed her face to her hands.
"Almost every word." He sighed and sat next to her. "You should've not attacked him in that way. I think they really wanna help." He added.
"I've had enough. Of hiding. Of lying. Your drinking. Everything." She spits it out.
"It is gonna be over soon." Kit pulled her close and gave a kiss to the top of her head.
"There is nothing else right?" Emilia asked quietly "you did not do... took anything else? Right? Just be honest with me. Please."
"No. No I didn't." He answered. It was a lie but he did not want to make it harder for her. She worried enough and he knew he won't smoke any joint again. Not now she is there. She was his safety. She was more important for him than anything.
"Good." She relieved and snuggled more close to him. "I don't want to see you in that way again. Never."

2015

"Are you awake?" Emilia entered into his room at the private rehabilitation centre. Two weeks passed since he checked in... Emilia and Jack, his brother did not give him another chance. They almost threatened him. That was the only way. Kit raised his head and staring her.
"I wanted to come sooner but... the doctors said you couldn't have visitors in the first few weeks." She walked closer and she was clearly embarrassed. "But you look good. I mean... despite the situation." She was talking continuously and tried to smile. She had no idea what she can expect from him. "And don't worry. No one knows about it. I mean we talked with the PR team and they take care of the journalists and the paps. And there are no gossips either so they handle the situation now pretty well it seems." She hesitated more then sat to the bed next to him. "I brought you fruits. The nurses said it is good. Full with vitamins and... how are you?" Her eyebrows showed how nervous she was. Kit did not say a word just pulled her close and hugged her. He placed his face to her neck and squeezed her. Emilia did the same. She was so worried about him. She thought... she is gonna lose him and she did not want it.
"Thank you." He told her quietly and he sounded like he was crying. Em relaxed a bit. He was in a good place now. He ... it seemed he understood why he has to be there and he did not hate her.
"It will be over soon." Em was caressing his back. He let her a bit away and placed his forehead to hers.
"I ... was an idiot. I... it was just too much. Everything. All the hype. The fame. I had no idea how to handle it. It... was so much easier." He admitted.
"I know. And everything is gonna be alright. I understand." She whispered to him. They were in silence but still held each other.

"Was it... were the past few weeks very bad?"
"It was. I never wanna see that damn thing again. Ever. It almost destroyed me. Without you and ... Jack?"
"He is working but he'll try to come here for the weekend." She smiled a bit.
"How much he hates me?"
"He doesn't hate you."
"And you?" He looked into her eyes.
"Would I be here if I hate you Harington?" Em answered and their eyes were locked for a couple of minutes but the door opened and they immediately released each other. Rose stood there and she was eyeing Emilia.
"Em? What are you doing here?" Rose asked her without any greetings.
"I could ask the same." She was cold with her. She was the main reason why Kit started that shit and she was very mad at her.
"I am here for a couple of days now. He needs someone next to him." Rose shrugged her shoulder.
"I don't think this should be you." Em answered.
"Emilia please." Kit tried to calm her down. "It is not her mistake. I could have said no." He lowered his head.

"I hope it is a good lesson for both of you." Em stated and stood up.
"I just wanted to... made him feel better. Pull him out from the depression. I was wrong." Rose answered. She seemed she really regret it but that did not change the fact she was the one who showed it to Kit.
"You cannot talk seriously." Em rolled her eyes.
"I am fine. Okay? Only that matters." Kit tried to stop the argument between them.
"It is true." Rose agreed and smiled at him. Em shook her head then turned back to Kit.
"I'll have to leave tomorrow. But I visit you before I leave okay?" She leaned closer to him and gave a kiss to his face. Kit caressed her arms.
"You wanna leave already?" He asked her.
"Yeah. Now you have a company. Just ... "she had to hold her tears "get well soon. We need you."
"Thanks Clarke. Everything." He smiled.
"That's what friends for. To help each other. But If you ..." she raised her eyebrow.
"He won't." Rose stepped closer "I guarantee it."
"How long you will stay?" Em asked her.
"As long as it needed." She smiled. "I won't leave him here alone. He is more important than that... to me." She glanced at Kit. Em heard the irony in her voice and she tried to control herself to not say anything for an answer.
"Great." Emilia faked a smile then turned back to Kit "Tomorrow." She smiled at him and then walked to the door to leave. When she looked back she saw how Rose sat down to his bed and held his hand immediately... and she hated it.