I Can't Let You Go

Pregnancy

"Where are you going? I thought you only have play only tonight!" Rose noted, when she saw he getting ready. 
"I have a meeting. I don't know I can get home before the play, so do not wait for me." Kit said to her, while he was picking up his jacket. 
"You really going to leave me here for the whole day? You cannot be serious."
"Rose. You called me on Sunday, to arrive that night. I had no idea when you are coming here, and yes I have a life instead of you, and organized plans. Sorry. Maybe you should call earlier."
"So this is my fault? Of course. Everything is my fault. Even the child."
"Do not start this again." Kit was serious. He had enough. He needed every piece of his brain to hold himself back. To not hurt or not break up with her in that exact moment. He knew that would cause irreversible problem for himself. No, he had to find another way to end this. 
"You have the interview with her? Now?" she asked and placed her hand to her belly.
"No. No I don't." he sighed loudly. 
"Can I go with you?"
"NO!" he raised his voice, and stepped out from his flat. He almost slammed the door behind himself. This thing will drive him into madness. He really hoped David called him because of Emilia and not because of the damn organization. He did not care about this right now. 

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"Harington. Right in time." David opened the door and smiled at him while handed his hand to him. They shook hands and Kit walked inside. 
"This studio is very... nice. I like it." Kit looked around and stated. 
"Yeah we are working on it, together with the students." 
"Yeah. Right" Kit smiled, but he started to loose his hopes about Emilia. 
"This way" David raised his arms and let him enter to another room. It was empty. No, Emilia was not there. So David really wanted to talk about him with the support of the charity. Kit knows it is important for Emilia, so he decided to listen him and help if he can. 
"I'll be back in a minute. There are some bottle of water in the fridge, and we may have some cakes if you ..."
"No, I am fine. Thanks." Kit sat down, put down his jacket and leaned back on the chair. At least he escaped from Rose, and that was good. In that way, he can call Emilia after he finishes here. Maybe he can meet and talk with her. Maybe... they can find a solution. A way to ... end the things with Rose. He still couldn't believe how he can be in that huge mess. David was away for a couple minutes now, so he started to pushes his phone. He stopped on Emilia's name again and again. 
"Kit?" Emilia entered to the room. Kit jumped up from the chair and grabbed her. He hugged her, like he did not see her for years. He gave a kiss to her forehead, and he did not let her go. 
"You break me into pieces." Em told him quietly.
"I am so sorry Em. I am so fucking sorry. I ... I have no idea how..." He started to speak meanwhile gave many kisses to her forehead. 
"Kit" Em took a step backwards, to talk with him in a normal way. She wanted his kisses, he wanted his arms around her, but first of all, she wanted to understand the situation.
"To be honest... I had hopes... David called because of you. Because you asked him." Kit told her, while she was walking towards to the table.
"I thought... I cannot call you to my place. I know Rose. I am sure... she... keep her eyes on you. It is better. Meet in a neutral place, like this, and I have good friends. Who helps me." she said to him, but she was staring the floor instead of Kit.
"You've always been the smarter one." Kit answered.
"To be honest... you owe a thank you to Lola. She... convinced me to talk with you. I did not want to. I ... was hurt. I had no idea what to say to you. After everything I..."
"Em" he stepped closer to her, but she raised her hand to stop him. 
"I wanna hear it. I wanna hear what happened when you caught her at the airport that night. How and when she told you about her pregnancy. I wanna hear everything. Of course if you ... wanna tell me."
"I do not have any secrets from you Em. You know it."
"Well, I am here. And listening." she was leaning to the table and staring him. Her eyes were stuck on his and Kit saw the sadness in those big green-blue eyes. She was hurt, what was quite understandable. 
"I screw things up. Again. Like usual." he shrugged his shoulders.
"Kit what happened when she arrived?" Em tried to focus. She did not want to hear how sorry he is, she wanted to hear what happened. 
"I picked her at the airport. I was cold and I did not even kiss her."
"You don't have to lie." Em took a deep breath.
"Emilia, it is not a lie. You wanna hear it or not?" he raised his voice. "If you don't believe my words, why do you wanna hear it?"
"Sorry. You are right. It... is just... nonsense. I mean..."
"It is. I know. It is nonsense for me too." Kit sighed "So I picked her at the airport, and we barely talking meanwhile I was taking her home. I helped her with the packages, and I went to the kitchen to drink a beer."