I Can't Let You Go

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Kit was fucking mad. Mad about himself. He should keep his mouth. He shouldn't tell her. He should have wait with all of this. He should have know, if he say this, and something will happen between them, it cause mess. And it happened in this way exactly. Em sent him away, and he had no idea when he can see her again. He understood her. He understood what she feels... and why she feels in that way. This is another thing why he loved that her that much, because of her pure heart. "I thought you never arrive" the director brought him back to the reality when he arrived to the theater. "Where the hell were you?" he was nervous. "I am sorry. I am here. I ... just ... " he tried to apologize but he was totally not there in his mind. "Go and get ready for the play" he almost shouted with him, and he was right. Kit knew it. He just don't care. 

A few hours later after the finished with the play that night no one was that pleased than the day before. "What the fuck is wrong with you Harington? You better put yourself together, and don't screw it again" the director told him and without let him answer, he left him behind. "What happened?" Johnny went to him. "Nothing. I just need some sleep" he answered. "Kit... if I can help in anything... you know ... I ... " Johnny tried. "I know buddy. Thank you." he forced a smile. "I ... better go home." Kit grabbed his bag and left. 

The next day was extremely long for Emilia. She was home. Alone. She cleaned up the whole flat. Her mother were away, her brother was working, just as her best friends. She was alone, with her thoughts, and those drive her crazy. She shook off Charlie again and again in text messages, but she knew she cannot do this forever. She had to talk with him, not about what happened, no he... can not know. No one can know. No one, or their life is over. She neither talked with Kit. He called her many times, but she just declined. She wrote him a message about she loves him, and asked him to give her time. She needed time. She needed to clean her mind. She had to think in a rational way. She couldn't let her emotions control her, because in this way, she loose.  She took two sedative on the afternoon and laid down to her bed. She fall asleep quite quickly. She wanted to skip this day, as soon as she can. On Monday, she continues the filming, and that can distract her attention. 

Kit did everything to perform better in the next day. He knew his father will be there, and he wanted to prove him. He always questioned his choice about being an actor, even after Game of Thrones became that successful. He never believed in him. He wanted him to learn something more important, and became a politician or a business man, but not an actor. His mom supported him in this choice, even against his dad.  When he spotted him and his brother on the rows he decided to not screw up, and he did it. He was even better than the premier night. "I don't know what happened with you since yesterday, but you better keep it in that way" The director said to him and shook his hand. He smiled. He thought about Emilia all time long. What she would say, how she would support him. He knew she wanted him to be successful. That helped. "Son" when he heard the familiar voice behind his back he took a deep breath. "That was amazing bro. Very sick but fucking amazing" Jack hugged him. "You should be take a part in a normal play" his father, David said to him. "So you did not liked it" he stated emotionless. "I did not say that, but I don't really understand that play. There are so much more in you son." he told him in a sore way. "Okay Dad. I keep that in mind" he answered. He was not in the mood to argue with him. Not now. "When you have time for a talk?" David asked him. "Say it. Anything you want. I don't have time to go home in the next weeks. We have the play every day." he told him. "Sebastian called me. He wanted to negotiate about the wedding costs." he told him strict. Kit frozen. He had no idea what to say. He looked to Jack. He frowned, he did not know what to say." Wedding costs?" Kit asked back. "Your wedding is on June. We need to prepare for it, Sebastian take care of everything but he want us to meet to talk about the costs." David continued. "Dad, I don't think it is the right time to talk about it" Kit tried to skip the topic. "Fine, then when will you have time to talk about it? Time presses us." David said. "Okay dad. Just stop. It is my wedding I can handle with it. It is not even sure there will be any wedding." it was accidentally came out from his mouth.