I Can't Let You Go

David

Emilia had so much fun at the TIME 100 Gala. She talked a lot with Richard, and with many others. It was quite a good night, but she did not put away her cell phone from her hand, not even for a minute. She knew Kit might won't call her but what if he does. She missed him. She had no idea it will be that hard for her. The next night came quite quickly and a Game of Thrones screening waited for her. She checked herself in the mirror before she left. She dressed in black. She insisted on the color. Deep in her heart, she mourned Daenerys, even if she can't talk about it to the audience yet. 

"Emilia! You look incredible" David greeted her with a big hug. Dan followed him and he gave kisses to her cheek.
"Wow, many people." She looked around.
"Yeah, after the first episode success, there are even more people than we thought. This season is successful. I've told ya. You should not have to worry." David told her and they laughed a bit.
"It is just the third episode tonight. Do not forget that." Em sighed.
"Do not be that negative." David placed his arms around her and pulled her with himself to the bar. He really used every opportunity to touch her, that was true.  What if Kit was right? Her mind was racing. What if... she raised her eyes at David, who just ordered two Martini for them.
"I don't drink," Emilia stated. "Just water please." she turned to the bartender.
"Are you kidding me? We should celebrate. The show is almost over and..."
"And we celebrated it many times, every weekend when someone wrapped," Em answered. "And it is so early. The night is long."
"Oh, I get it." He raised the glass "You support him in that way." he pointed towards her with his finger. "But he is not here honey. Although he should be here." David frowned.
"He has other things to do. I am here, isn't it enough?" she shrugged her shoulders.
"More than enough." he smiled at her. "Believe me I am happy when I can see your smile instead of his brooding face." he turned back to the bar. "Another one." 
"Where is Amanda?" Emilia sat to the chair.
"She couldn't come. But I don't mind it. We spend a whole month together in NY. So we need some... fresh air." he answered. "Are you sure you don't want a drink?" David asked her again.
"I am sure." Em smiled a bit then turned away from him.
"May I ask... "He turned to her with his whole body "Did Kit... tell you anything... about... "
"About what?" Em acted like she has no idea what is he talking about.
"We had a debate because of his... state before he left. He did not tell you?" David surprised.
"No. Actually. But we all had some debates with him because of his drinking in the past few months, so... probably he did not want to mention." Emilia thought it is better in this way. To keep that thing in secret. She doesn't need that drama, she already has a big mess in her life, so she was just not ready to get involved in another one. 
"Good." David nodded. 

The screening went well. The viewers adored the episode, and that makes Dan and David drink and celebrate more. They were clearly proud of themselves. Emilia was sitting at a table with John and they were laughing and talking, but David and Dan decided to join. 
"I was afraid a bit, people will hate Arya was the one who killed the Night King but that was a huge twist," Dan stated. 
"We are Gods." David raised his glass.
"Yeah, you just stole the main scene from Kit." Emilia couldn't keep her mouth. She hated the whole season, she hated how it ended, and she remembered quite well when they were at the reading rehearsals. Kit couldn't hide his frustration about it quite well. First, they stole the main scene from his character, then they turned Jon Snow a traitor. Bullshit. 
"Don't say that." David frowned. "That would be too predictable. People hate predictable things." 
"No. It won't be predictable, it would be just... logical." Emilia made a face. "I love you guys but my opinion still doesn't change. I hate what you did with this season."
"Shhh. Quiter" Dan reminded her, people around them had no idea how it ends.
"Anyway Kit has many great scenes and the show is not about him." David leaned back on the chair.
"Have you even read the books?" Em frowned. "Okay, you know what. Forget it. Let's talk about something else." she shook her head.
"I bring another drink" Dan stood up from the table.
"I am coming with you." John followed him. "Emilia for you?"
"Nothing, thanks." she shook her head with a smile. When they left the table she was watching in silence how David drank his umpteen drink. "I think you should stop with those. I don't think Amanda would like it," she stated.
"As if you are not dating an alcoholic." David made a face. "Wonder when will you come to mind."
"What do you mean?" Em felt how her heart beating in her throat. 
"Kit is an idiot. He is a child. Compared to you especially. He will never able to make you happy. You'll have to scrub him from the ground again and again. Do you really want this? I know you are friends, and you should have stayed that. Just friends. You deserve much more Emilia." He took her hand on the table. Her mouth falls open. That moment she started to think Kit was not mistaken at all. 
"What the fucking hell is your problem with him?" she pulled her hand away. 
"He will sink. Soon. He can't manage his drinking and his life. Remember back. We had problems with him many times. He is not the man you need. You know that." David was looking at her eyes.
"What kind of man do I need?" Em felt she couldn't keep her mouth shut anymore. "You?" she told it straight to his face. 
"I... I... don't understand... "he started to stutter. 
"You don't? As I see it is pretty obvious." Emilia started to raise her voice. "I have been listening for many years how hard to work with him, you've always had a problem with him, even when he did nothing. Now I start to think you wrote that ending for us, just to hurt him. To make him a mess." she shook her head and stood up, but David went after her and stood in her way.
"Let me go," she stated.
"I want the best for you" he placed his hands to her shoulder. "You deserve the best." 
"Then leave me alone, you've done enough" she was so on fire. She had enough. She believed David and Dan loves them, every one of them. She believed they are real friends, now she was not even sure she can trust them or not. 
"See, now you are acting like a child." David frowned. 
"What is going on?" Dan arrived back with more drinks.
"I never understood why is she that bitchy with me. Now at least I get it." She stepped closer to David. "How the hell could I be that blind." she shook her head.
"You have no idea what are you talking about, and do not forget you still have a contract with us. With HBO. You don't want to screw it in the last minute" David answered.
"No." Emilia faked a smile. "That is the reason why I did not slap you already in front of everyone." she hissed, then she almost knocked him over and walked passed by them. She needed to get out from there. 

While she was standing outside and waiting for her taxi to arrive, John came after her.
"Are you okay?" he asked her.
"Yeah. Everything is fine." she smiled at him. 
"It did not sound like that. David is fucking mad" John stated and glanced to his back over his shoulder.
"To be honest I don't care how he feels himself. I fucking enough to hear how messed up Kit is. He doesn't even know him. He doesn't even care about him. He only cared about... " she took a deep breath. "I just... "she tried to calm herself down. "I better go home now. We'll talk later. Okay?" she sighed. Her taxi arrived and she got in. She immediately grabbed her phone and started to write a message. Then she deleted it. No... if he can read it, he better not know about it. Not now. Not while he is on that rehabilitation center. He has to be out of this mess. She started to write again but this time, she just wrote she loves him and misses him. He was not an idiot. Everything he thought about David was true. That was ridiculous. She still did not want to believe it. 

She woke up in the morning by her doorbell. She did not wait for anyone. She checked the security camera. She rolled her eyes, when she spotted David outside, put a robe on and walked to the gate. 
"What are you doing here? I am not interested in your opinion." she was hostile.
"I wanted to apologize." he started. "Can I... come in?" he looked tired but because of their long-distance friendship, Emilia opened the gate. They walked inside. 
"Dan... put me in the place pretty hard last night." he started and sat to the couch. 
"Really? At least I only had t disappoint only one of you." she crossed her arms. 
"I was a jerk. Yesterday, I ... drank too much and..." he tried to explain. 
"Is it true?" Emilia cut him. "Is it?" 
David lowered his head and he tried to find the words. 
"It is not that simple." he sighed. 
"It is. It is a simple question. Did you mess with him, because you were jealous of him? Because of me? David, answer me!" Emilia was so confident and calm. 
"I... we all saw the attraction between you two." he tried to divert the subject.
"My question was not that. Do you have any feelings for me or not?" 
"Amanda knew. She spotted at the first minute. That is not a thing that you can control." he sighed. "I attracted.. attracted to you, and I ... you cannot say any bad thing, I've never made any steps towards you, I just..."
"You just screw up our love story because you were jealous of him. I get it." Emilia was mocking. "If you can't get the girl, no one can. Not even in the show." she rolled her eyes. "But you know what, that just brought us more close to each other. But... " Emilia wiped her hair away from her face. "But I can't understand. And Amanda... I never understood why she is so jealous of me, why she hates me that much. I would have never thought, not even in my wildest dreams, she has a real reason for it." she was walking up and down. 
"I am married and I never took a step towards you. I never made a move on you. It just some... feeling that I kept inside." David answered but he was not able to look at her.
"Thanks to that feeling, you destroyed your tv show. Maybe you don't see it now, but you did." Emilia told him. "I will ask... in ten years "she remembered back to the script "did it worth it?" 
"I never understood what is between you. What you ... sees in him." David tried to be as honest as he could be. 
"It doesn't matter. And I won't give any explanation, because it is none of your business. And at least I hope ... you can keep your mouth about us, and you don't want to spread gossips around." Emilia has every reason to fear.
"I would never do this with you." David raised his eyes at her.
"I trusted you. With you and Dan. I shared my secret with you because I thought you'll do everything to help me. To help us." Emilia couldn't believe. 
"You can trust us. And I... I can manage this. My feelings. I could handle those... for years." 
"If you take my advice, you leave my flat now and go home. To Amanda. And prove your love for her. Cuz she doesn't deserve this."