I Can't Let You Go

Night

"Do you wanna drink something?" He asked her after she opened his door and walked inside. He was happy. He knew she did not forgive him but at least she was there.
"No." She shook her head and looked around. The small package was still on the counter. "You should ... remove it. The swabber easily can see it and..." she stated. "That can cause problems."
Kit nodded and grabbed the package. He held his other hand towards Emilia. She took it after a couple of seconds and they went together to the bathroom. Kit did the right thing. Tossed the white powder to the toilet and flushed it.
"I don't need it." He sighed and Emilia snuggled closer to him. He placed his arms around her and squeezed her.
"Just do not lie to me. Even if it is hard. Even if I ... freak out. I ... am mad at you because I love you." She was talking quietly and in a so soft way. Kit squeezed her even more. He turned to her with his body and placed his other arm around her.
"I thought I lost you." His voice was trembling and he gave a small kiss to her forehead.
"I am still mad at you but..." she lowered her head "when she said today she has a scene with you... ahm... was she in the studio this week? With you?"
"I wanted to tell you. But I ... did not have a chance yesterday to..."
"Was she?" Emilia asked again.
"Yes." Kit nodded.
"She knows how she can hurt us. She knows I... She knows if it is about drugs I freak out. I am not sure her hands were not in it." Em explained. "Maybe she told to that guy to give this to you."

Kit surprised and he was looking at her.
"Maybe you are right." He let her go and he clearly started to think. "I saw them talking. That day. When he slid it into my palm. But she couldn't have known that you are coming back earlier." He tried to understand the situation.
"No. But she thought you are not strong enough to resist." Em answered. "That I came back early just ... was an advantage for her. She knew we have a debate. It was clear in the morning."
"How the hell did you find out?" Kit wondered.
"I just ... I don't know. Female intuition. Her last sentence. She still wants to get you back. And she is not afraid of anything. No matter the cost. I've thought about it a lot. Last night. Today... I..." she looked at him.
"I've lied to you because I wanted to spare you. I was an idiot. In Paris. I know it and I decided I am done. I just ... did not want you to... disappointed in me. Again. I have no idea how many chances I have... before you send me away. Forever." Kit clearly repented it. All the lies... everything that he did. Emilia went closer and hugged him.
"Not too much." She answered with a small smile. "If it weren't you... I wouldn't be here anymore."
"I feel lucky" he placed his hand to her cheek and raised her head up.
"You do better." They were looking at each other and Kit leaned closer to kiss her but he stopped before their lips could meet.
"Can I?" He smiled a bit. Em just placed her arm around his neck and pulled him close. She patted her lips to his and kissed him. Kissed him longingly with all her heart. He was a disaster but he was her disaster and she would never give up on him.

That kiss lasted for minutes. Kit hands were running up on her back under her shirt. When Em felt how he wanted to switch off her bra she stopped him and placed her hand to his chest. Pushed herself a bit away from him.
"I am sorry." Kit wanted her but he understood.
"I just." Emilia took off her shirt and stepped closer to him again. "Want to take a shower" she smiled at him and kissed his lips again quickly.
"Are you teasing me?"
"I love to freak you out Harington" she giggled and walked to the bathroom but Kit was right behind her. He grabbed her by the waist and pulled her back to his naked chest. He clasped his arms around her and kissed her neck.
"What If I say I just wanna sleep with you tonight. Without any touches. Any kisses... " she asked him while he was still kissing her neck.
"I respect that. You just have to ask." He answered between the kisses but his hand was sliding down. Under her pants.
"Wait." Em grabbed his wrist and turned to him.
"So you were talking seriously." Kit sighed.
"I just... is there anything else... what I have to know? What you did not tell me because you wanna spare me?" She was staring at his face. "We... have to be a team. You and I. If there is anything else... you have to tell me."
"No more secrets." Kit answered.
"I've heard it before." Em raised her eyebrow.
"This time I mean it. I've learned it. For a lifetime. Believe me."
"I love you Kit and... I... can I ask something? But you have to promise me you're not gonna freak out." She had no idea how to bring this up but she had to.
"Anything." He nodded.
She gave a kiss to his cheek.
"I'll be back in a minute." She told him then closed the bathroom door behind herself. She walked to the mirror. She wanted him. She wanted to be with him but... first of all she wanted him to be okay. That was more important.