I Can't Let You Go

Honesty

"Thanks David. Really" Emilia put down the phone.
"So?" Lola looked at her.
"He is not home." she sat to the bed next to Lola. Another day passed without any signs of Kit. She asked David to check him at his home. But nothing. He was not there. Neither Jack called her back. Her worries started to go away, and she felt anger towards Kit now. How could he do this with her?
"He'll call you. He must have a good reason... " Lola tried to calm her down.
"He was at the theater yesterday. I know it. I saw many satisfied tweets about how great the play was. So he is alive and well. And he still... doesn't feel important to give a call to me? You know what Lola? I don't care. Not after that."
"You do care Milly" Lola smiled "No one can make you that upset, just Kit."
"No one around me is that idiot, as Kit." she sighed "You know what? I do not waste any more time on this. Let's get back to work"
"Em." Lola tried to start quietly.
"No. I don't wanna talk about it. Not anymore."
She started to pushing the keyboard. Lola did not understand Kit's behavior either, but she had no idea what to say. That situation... the whole situation sucks.

It was 5 pm again. Emilia did not talk about Kit, but she do care where is he and why he not calls her. Of course she does. She was so in love with him, and that is the worst in this. He must be in the theater already. She thought. Maybe not alone. Maybe Rose is there too... spying on him, following him. She wanted to go there. Wanted to yell his head down. Wanted to slap him, but she knew it is too risky. If Rose is there, that would be exactly the worst move she can do right now.
"You're gonna be okay?" Lola asked her, when grabbed her bag to leave.
"Sure. I am going to take a bath then I just sleep" Em shrugged her shoulders.
"You don't have to act... it is me. I know you..."
"Lola, I don't care." she jumped up "If I am not important enough to write a fucking message or call me, then he is not important enough for me to take care of him."

Later that evening, Emilia got into the bath. She tried to relax a bit. She was strained and upset, but that she was not even in the mood to help herself. She did not want to think of Kit. Her phone suddenly rang. She reached it from the bath - it was Jack.
"Yes?" she picked up.
"Em, hi. Are you at home?" Jack started.
"Why is that important?"
"Are you free tonight?" Jack continued.
"Jack, what is this about? What do you want?" Em asked back.
"Me? Nothing. But ... Kit asked me to..."
"I don't care." Em answered immediately.
"Emilia please. He has a good reason why he did not call you and he wanna meet with you and tell you everything."
"Well if he really wants this, he just have to come here."
"You know it is the most irresponsible move what he can do. He is sure, and I am sure Rose keep an eye on him right now. She left to Scotland, but your flat was the first place where she searched him. He better not show up there... maybe she ... has help, we don't know."
"Oh, but if I meet with Kit somewhere it is better, sure. Look Jack, your brother just disappeared without a fucking word. It is clear, I am not important enough to tell me what is going on. I..."
"Emilia, you know it is not true. He did this because of you. Because... look, he wanna explain it, just come to Intercontinental tonight, okay? 10.00 pm? I meet you there."
She did not answer.
"Em?"
"I'll see I have time for this or not." she put down the phone and throw it back to the counter.

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"So you decided to give him a chance?" Jack greeted Emilia in front of the Hotel.
"I don't have any better thing to do." She rolled her eyes.
"Em" Jack raised his eyebrow.
"So, why do we have to meet now? The play just finishes. I am sure he is not here yet."
"No. Not yet. But..." he held a room card. "Roof Suite."
"Seriously? He rented the roof suite to hide?" Em rolled her eyes again.
"It is the most private room. And the staff made more attention to keep it in that way. He'll be here in an hour."
"I am not sure, It is a good idea."
"Emilia." he held her shoulder "He is an idiot, he messes things up like always. He ... drinks a lot yeah,.. and he ... sometimes he doesn't think with his mind. Just do things... suddenly and without thinking. He is not perfect, but he loves you. And you know it. And if you don't talk with him now, you're gonna talk with him tomorrow, but why you wanna delay this? I mean... you two are always find your way back to each other. No matter how big is the mess around you." he smiled.
"Maybe this is too big now." she answered firmly.
"Maybe. But you'll never know if you avoid to talk with him."
Em turned her head sideways and nodded. Jack gave a kiss to her face and wished her good luck, then just leave her. Emilia raised her head. The hotel was so high, and she still don't understand the roof suite thing. She took a deep breath and entered into the hotel, walked straight to the elevators, and pressed the button.