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Violet laid alone in the empty void of his bed.
He was nowhere to be seen as her eyes opened and her hand reached out for his body, meeting with nothing but coldness where his warm body used to be. It was not her first night sleeping here, nor the second. It had been multiple nights in a row that she slept in his room, that the room that once had been all his now became theirs.
Weird things had gone down these past few days that all seemed to happen in a blur, they all felt as though she was all the while dreaming and not actually there.
A haze, that was how they felt.
These past few days all felt weird to her, some for no particular reason. They may all very well just feel like this from now and on, until she crawled her way back to the light. Or the darkness beats her.
But yesterday...yesterday had been weird indeed.
When she thought back to the day she had lost it all, to the events that came afterwards, that's when everything turned weird. In part, it was because of what she had lost, but also because of what they had found.
That piece of paper, the illustration, they had found in that book...That was no illustration. 

"This is no illustration. Instead, this uses light reflected off a subject...and burns the image on special paper. It's called a photograph. I come from a place outside the walls where humanity lives in elegance." Eren read, his voice like an echo in the room.
A photograph. Pho-to-graph. What a weird word that was, so foreign yet interesting as Violet rolled it off her tongue.
"What does this mean?" Eren asked, his green eyes shining with questions towards Hanji.
Yet, Hanji didn't know. Instead, they hummed. "I'm not sure, kiddo. I never heard anything like this before. It's technology way more advanced than ours..." Their face lit up, brighter than any light in this forsaken room. "Do you know what this means?" They beamed even more. "There is a whole other world out there! Outside these walls!"
A whole other world...For some reason, she did not like the sound of that. 

And she still didn't. Even a few days later, she still didn't like the thought of a whole new world outside these walls; something new from what she had just recently learned, compared with what started things out for her.
This current world she was living in was just as brand new to her than the concept and fact that there was something more out there for them to discover. The Underground was nothing like the Above, nothing like what she had just learned was a 'true' world. And no matter the years she had lived up here, there was still so much she still didn't know.
So no, she did not like the idea of a whole new world. Did not invite it with open arms as Hanji did.
And as she laid on the bed, trying to get her body to adjust to being awake, those words that were written behind the photograph still sounded loudly in her head. Pho-to-graph. It was still hard to get the pronunciation to not sound weird on her tongue. Such a simple looking word yet what a conflict it caused to her.
But that wasn't the weirdest event of this past few days. Probably did not even come close to it. Yes, it was a startling discovery they had just made; figuring out there was something greater and far more advance than them living out there in this world. But yesterday, before she came to Levi's room to rest, she had guarded Eren and Mikasa who dwelled on the cells. Their punishment for insubordination.
She had not like the idea of guarding them, seeing them locked up in those cells, because it broke her heart furthermore to see them laying in those prison cells. But it was her duty to be there; and although she went more than begrudgingly to do her task, it was a good thing she went because what she learned was the most bewildering thing that had happened in these past few days. The only thing that made her feel some sort of light in this darkness that hugged her cold. 

She snapped out of her thoughts as Eren woke up, ripping his vocal cords apart as soul-aching screams shrilled out of his throat. Her eyes went directly to his cell as her hand reached for a weapon, his cell right beside the other where Mikasa now sat up, awake.
Violet didn't make to move as she saw that he was alright and remained where she was as the boy gained his breath back. She leaned back against the wall and crossed her arms, putting the weapon away, and opted to appear as if she was aware and unbothered of everything happening around. She stared with stone-cold eyes at Eren, the only way she appeared to see as of late, her face stripped off any emotion ever since that day, and waited for something else to happen.
"Where is this?" Eren mumbled, "Why...am I..."
"Eren, relax!" Armin got up and went to Eren's cell, gripping the iron roads that kept them apart. He had been reluctant to leave ever since his two friends were put down here, no matter how Levi or Hanji told him to leave and get some rest. That it was none of his business to be here when it was not him who had disobeyed. Yet, he still remained. A loyal friend through and through, perhaps. "You're in the stockades. You and Mikasa are serving time for insubordination."
"Were you having a nightmare, Eren?" Mikasa's soft voice rang. She was not able to see Eren nor assess his current state, which probably was a good thing for her.
They probably had not noticed her presence, aside from Armin, due to how quiet she carried herself. How small her presence had become, nothing like the ember fire that had burned with her as she entered a room.
"Yeah...I was..." He looked so out of it. Far more into his dream than in this world. Whatever it was that he had dreamt had to be the vilest or disturbing to ignite such a reaction out of the boy.

"You sounded like a different person just now," Armin whispered.
This made Eren frown. "Huh?"
"You did." Mikasa confirmed, before adding, "Are you crying, Eren?"
Eren looked down to the ground, his knuckles white due to how hard he clenched them, and walked to the other side of the cell and slid down, his back slamming against the bars of the cells as he fell to the floor, gripping his head. "I feel like...I just woke up from the longest dream ever." He shook his head, his green eyes in disbelief. "No...Not a dream...Memories." And this, that simple word, made fire, or electricity, she couldn't tell, run through her veins. It made her feel alert, made her feel...alive, even. Memories...What on the gods green earth was going on?
Violet lifted a brow as she continued to hear. "Just now, I was connected to my dad's memories. That titan...The Attack Titan."

She had run to Levi to tell him all that she had heard, after sneaking out without making her presence known. A young cadet had taken her spot for the remaining few hours there were left, and then she ran to Levi's room. Their room.
He had found it just as weird as she had. 'Memories?' He had frowned. It did not make him feel the same fire, the same electricity as Violet did, but he still had found it strange. But as he saw his lover's mind turn and turn in the ungodly hour of the night it was, he made his frown disappear before kissing Violet in the head and making her go to bed. 'We'll figure it out tomorrow, brat.' 

And that had been it. 
Now, awake, she thought about it even more. She wanted to know what was going on, why she had felt such a feeling course through her veins. 
She wanted to know everything before the inevitable came. Because that's how it felt, like something big was waiting for them. And she did not like it. Never had been a fan of the big things in life. 
And Violet knew, this big inevitable thing...There was nothing pleasant about how it felt. 

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why was writing this so stressful lmao?
literally never have wanted to throw my computer across the room more than when i wrote this shit. :)