Lovesong

Chapter 28

The time was getting close to say goodbye to Kate, my sweet Red...but can I do it? I pray that in some way our paths will cross again soon. I need her I in my life. Even for all the wrongs I'd done to her, I need her. And Gyu will just have to deal with it. We made a connection, and I can't go back now. I couldn't even if I tried. I was coming up the hallway when I caught a glimpse of Kate, dressing. Gyu must've left the door ajar, giving me the perfect invitation to watch my love. So I stood there just out of sight, but enough to see in. Man, oh, man! I had to keep one eye on lookout too, so I wouldn't get caught. Kate's naked body was a glorious thing to see. She had curves perfectly in place. It jarred memories of our morning together. The morning she dropped the towel and came to me, grabbing me. Aww...what an unforgettable moment in time. I wanted that again. I wanted to know her touch like I had that day. But it seems like that day has come and gone. It is no more. And no matter how hard I try, I can't get it back. Now she's going to California, and I'm part to blame. Why did I have to lose control with her? Why do things always get out of hand whenever she comes around? It's not her. It's me. "I see it. I want it. I take it." That's always been my motto. It wasn't until I saw Kate, that I wanted something more...love. I'd never knew love or felt love from anyone,...not even my own parents. Kate brought light and life and into my darkened world. She set my cold heart on fire. She's all things good and right. She's all things that I am not. Before she leaves I have to try and convince her just how much I love her. It's hard when she's so in love with Gyu. She knows everything about me and who I and why I am the way I am, and you'd think she'd understand, and she does, but not in the way I want her to. She's going to marry Gyu, and I can't accept that, not after everything I've done to have her. I need to tell her. I need to get it through that red head of hers. Kate had her back to the door now, pulling her shirt over her head. She's changed out of her sexy cami. My heart just can't take it. Without thinking twice I push open the door quietly. No Gyu. He's not here. I stand in the doorway taking all of her in, just soaking her up. Ugh! I need to touch her once more. I have to. So I move in. I curl my fingers around the upper part of her arms. Oh, geez...she's smells so f***ing edible. As I tower behind her I can see she's biting her lower lip. She tilts her head back slightly, and to the left just so. She moaned, "That was amazing, Cookie." I almost died. I said close to the shell of her ear, "Red, you better think again." Her eyes flew open in complete shock. She gasped spinning around, "Soobin? What the hell!?" I grabbed her and pulled her to me, "I'm a better lover." She put balled fists against my chest, trying with all her might to push out of my stronghold, "What the hell are you doing in Cookie's room? Let go of me!" Keeping one arm locked around her, I cover her mouth with the other hand, "Keep your f***ing voice down," I stated in a harsh, but soft tone, "I don't need your precious Cookie to hear what I'm about to do to you." She shook her head, tears forming at the surface. She may have had an orgasmic time with Gyu, but I'm fixing to throw her totally over the edge. She mumbled, "Please don't do this." I glanced at the torn up bed, the tangled sheets, and I shove her down. She cowers away from me, scooting to the other side, "No." I reached for her ankle, and dragged her back to me. One way or another I was going to have her. I wanted to be good, but she's making me be bad. I place a knee between her legs and climbed up on the bed, pinning her down. Tears are streaming from the corners of her eyes. She pleaded, "Soobin, please don't. I don't want to leave like this." I caressed her right cheek, "Sheesh. I'll make it quick. I love you, Red, and I feel like you need to be reminded of that. I can't let you leave without having a taste of you one last time." She cried, "Oh god. I can't do this." I bent my head and suckled the side of her neck. She felt her dig her nails into her palms. I could hear silently calling for Gyu as she bucked and arched against me. I growled, "Keep that up, and you'll leave more than this." She squirmed with my hands, "Please, Soobin. Can we just talk? Please...I don't want Cookie walking in." I snickered, "Talk? I'm all talked out, Red. I'd rather just show you. Let me show you. I promise to be gentle." I felt her tremble. She sobbed, "I can't, Soobin." I leaned down close to her ear, "You can. You feel me don't you." Kate closed her eyes and let out a sigh, "Yes." I nipped her earlobe, "You want it don't you? Just reach out and take it. I want you to take it. Take me. Touch me, Kate." I freed her wrist just to see what she would do. At first she laid there under me, her amazing green eyes moving over my face. I don't know what she was expecting to see. She raised her right hand and caressed my cheek, "Soobin, you're going to find love one day. As much as you want it to be me, I'm not her." Honestly these are not the words I wanted to hear. I know she's told me this since she's been here, but something keeps drawing me back to her. It's always been her ever since that day on the softball field. I tried to control my rage. I felt the vein in my temple flex. My jaw twitched. How can she just lay there, looking up at me so innocently, and break my heart all at once. Then I got a whiff a fruity scent. Gyu. She'd been with Gyu. No. It should've been me. I knocked her hand from my face, "You slept with him!" I growled, "He's fucking all over you! Does he know of the things we've done? Not just the restaurant? Does he know the whore that you are?" She pushed up on her elbows and snapped, "What?!" I reminded her again of the threat I made to her just yesterday, "Red, don't forget I can ruin your life if I don't get what I want." My eyes narrowed. She shook her head, "You wouldn't? Isn't it bad enough that you've destroyed 2 lives already?" And that gutted me. She reminded me of taking her baby's life. I dropped my forehead to her shoulder, "Kate, I didn't mean to. If I could bring him back, I would. Please don't ever hold that against me. I just love you so much." She slid her arms around me, holding me as I sobbed. My shoulders shook. This is all I wanted. To be wanted. To be needed. To be held. To be loved. By Kate.  And it felt so good. It felt like home. Warm. Inviting. Just having her hold me turned me on so much. I started to feel the rise behind the fly of my pants, and if I moved just so she'd feel it too. I wanted her to feel me, and to know me. All of me. I nudged the side of neck with the tip of my nose. I asked trying to get a grip on my hormones, "Where's Gyu?" I reached between us and undid the button of her jeans. She bit her bottom lip, arching her neck up. I heard her inhale deeply, "He went to see Kai." I pulled the zipper down, and eased a hand down inside. Damn!! She was warm, wet. I wanted to peel these jeans from her hips, rip these lacy panties in half, and bury my face in her dewey essence. Hmmm. Vanilla. I could almost taste her juices on my lips. I lifted my head to find her so far gone and I haven't touched her yet. I kissed her, fully on the lips and whispered, "Let me make love to you." She denied, "Soobin, I can't." I buried deep inside her causing her to arch her hips as she let a soft moan. Then I inserted two fingers and got the same reaction. I heard voices coming up the stairs. Tae. Of all people with Junnie. I hurriedly moved towards the door and closed it, locking it. I did t need any interruptions. Kate asked, "Soobin, what are you doing?" I turned to face her, "You're ready. We're doing this." She shook her head once more, "No. I just made love with Cookie. I can't with you. I just can't." I didn't care at this point. I wanted a taste. I wanted to be inside her. I was tired of her telling me no. No pushes me passed my breaking point. She knows that. I reached for her and pulled her towards the foot of the bed. I already had her creamy goodness on my index and middle finger. I tasted them. Pure heaven. It wasn't fair that Gyu got to savor all this. All this that I worked do hard for. Does he really cherish how good she taste? Has he ever? I can't think about that. I don't want to think about him having her vanilla sweetness. She tried to fight me, jerking her legs, "Oh god! What the bell is wrong with you?" I rub my thumb over my bottom lip, "You're just so fucking delicious. I don't like milk, but I could drink your milk everyday." She stared up at me in shock. I don't know what was so shocking. We've been here before. A time or two. She knows how much I love her vanilla cream. Just to fill her gushing against my lips. A wanted to give her a going present. Something to remember me by. Something that would bring her back for more. She can tell me no, but I don't take no for an answer. This thing between us is not over. I was going to make damn sure she knew it.

A knock sounded on the other side of the door, "Gyu." I dropped my chin to my chest. It was none other than my best friend, Tae. What the hell did he want? I motioned to Kate to not say a word about me being in here. She nibbled on her lower lip. I could tell she was debating about it. Then she said, "Tae, he's not in here. He went to see Kai." I heard the sound of the doorknob twisting. Wtf? Tae asked concerned, "Kate, why is this door locked? Are you ok?" She hopped up off the bed and shoved me aside. She buttoned and zipped her jeans and headed for the door. Fuck! Now I need to find some place to hide, but where? I duck inside Gyu's closet. She opened the door and painted on a smile, "Tae, sorry. I just wanted some privacy while I finished throwing all my odds and ends together." She welcomed him inside. She bit her tongue, shaking in her skin. Would he see her trembling? Soobin had totally rattled her from the inside out. He crossed the threshold, "Have you seen Soob's?" She folded her arms under her breasts and lied, "Not this early this morning." Oh gosh! Did he sense something? He smiled, "Well, I just wanted to tell you bye. I'm not sure if we're all going to gather like before or not." She pouted, "Aw, Tae. I'm going to miss you too." I watched the way she stepped up to him, hugging him. My heart fell to the pit of my stomach. Since when did she become so close to him? He embraced her in return and she pulled back placing a kiss on his cheek. She said, "It's a whole new experience for me. I mean Korea has been my home for so long. The time change is going to take some getting used it. It'll feel good to see London." Tae looked at her with a small smile, "I thought you were going to LA?" She nodded, gathering up her ringlets into a low ponytail, "Yes. But I'll be living in my parents home in London. London is just outside LA." He sighed, "Well maybe we can come see you sometime. When time allows." She bounced with glee,, clasping her hands together, "Yes, that'd be awesome, Tae. Just let me get settled first. No surprise visits." He laughed, tucking his fingers into the front pockets of his pants, "I wouldn't dare." I mouthed through the crack of the closet door...Wtf?! Tae's flirting with my Red, and she's flirty back with no questions asked. How is that even possible? I wanted to come out of the closet, and show him I'd been here the whole time. And I'd seen their little escapade. Innocent or not. Tae had fallen for her. I'll be damned! What is Gyu going to think?