Lovesong

Chapter 30

This was not the goodbye I wanted to give Kate. I honestly didn't mean to hit her.and I felt so bad for it. I know I deserve all that I had coming to me. I just went overboard when I saw Kate in Tae's arms. Oh how I wish she was mine! How I wish I was her boyfriend, her fiancée. I behave like I am because I feel like I have been for so long. It's crazy, I know. But when you love someone so much you'd do anything to have them. Even it means hurting them while trying to protect them. Yes, I am jealous. Highly jealous of anyone who gets her attention...anyone that's not me. I wanted time alone with her. I needed that much. And that got distrusted by Tae. His stupid ass just kicked me out. I wasn't doing anything to Kate that I hadn't done before. And I know it thrills her when I touch her intimately the way I do. I feel it on my fingertips. I've watched her buck. Bite her lip. Grip the sheet. Hold onto me. We have something and there's no denying that. As I lay here on the floor withering in pain, I see the way Tae is gently touching Kate's jawline. The monster in me is brewing. How dare him! Gyu sees it, and he does nothing. I do it, and I get the shit beat out of me...just like Junnie. Wtf gives?! If he only knew that Tae was after her too. That just mere seconds ago she was in his arms. I hiss as I try to pull myself up off the floor. Kate turns her head in my general direction, and I catch sight of the bruise I planted on her cheek. A tear slides from the corner of my left eye. Yes, I hurt. I'm in pain. Most importantly I hurt because I hurt my Red. Not because of what Gyu did to me. I'll never be able to make up for all the hell I've put her through. And as for my threat, I'd never destroy her. How could I when I love her so damn much! I only said it to scare her. These past few days have been sheer torture on me. Kate knows me inside and out. She knows who I am and where I come from. She knows who I've tried to hide. She cares about me, and she feels for me. But that's not enough. I personally don't like it when she tells me to find someone new, or someone else will love me. That's not what I want. I don't want anyone else. Only Katelyn Blue, my sweet Red. Nothing or no one else will do. Kate turns her eyes back to Tae, and I feel like I've been gutted. My whole world ripped out of me. She's leaving. And she's taking every piece of me with her, leaving only a shell of a man. My heart and soul are set for California. I can't let her leave...not yet. I watch at the way she nods to Tae and said softly that she was all right. Gyu slipped an arm around her, claiming her as his, right in front of me. I get it, but I don't. I hear Gyu thanking Tae for taking care of his girl. Wth! How can one woman stir up all this wrath in me and yet bring out so much love? It's not fair for me to have to suffer...not like this. I pull myself to my feet. Wipe the blood from my mouth. I bring my right hand up to my face abs peer coldly at the 3 of them through my index and middle finger. The beast is raging. I get another adrenaline rush and I approach them. Before either one of them has a chance to do a thing, I have Kate in my arms, my mouth crushing hers in the most intimate way. I wanted her to taste everything that was her in my mouth. I still tasted her sweetness on the tip of my tongue, and I wanted her to savor what I do. I heard Gyu hiss in the worst way, and I knew I was stirring up sheer hell for them on the drive to the airport. Right now I didn't care. Kate needed to know. She needed to remember. I wanted to refresh her memory of that morning and how she came to me. How good it was. I felt Kate pushing back against my chest and she tore her mouth from mine, "No." But that didn't stop me. Gyu pulled her away from me and punched me again, "What the fuck is wrong you?! What are you trying to prove here?!" Tears we're falling from his eyes, "She's mine...not yours! And she said no! Keep your filthy hands off her!" I huffed and puffed, gabbing the left side of my jaw, "Fuck you, Gyu!" He can beat me to a pulp, but it still won't solve anything. I will find her and I will have her. Just because she wears his ring doesn't stop me in the least. I have no respect for him or their relationship. I never have. And he knows it now. He turns to Kate and snaps, "Go wash your face! Brush the shit out of your mouth, and we're getting the hell out of here!" Kate fled into Gyu's room slamming the door, her spirits crushed. Gyu had never spoke so harshly to her before....not like that. Tae laid a hand on his shoulder, "Dude, was that called for? It's not her fault." Gyu stated at me fuming, "I'm just pissed off! I'll apologize to her later." I rubbed the left side of my neck. I was not ashamed of what I'd done. In fact I thoroughly enjoyed it, and I'd do it again...only longer. Kissing Kate is one of my favorite moments. She has the most sweetest, juiciest lips. And they fit so perfectly with mine. It's a wonder how someone was made to be Gyu's missing piece, and yet, she's everything perfect to me. The idea of her leaving is shattering me from the inside out. I want to go with her, to be with her. I don't know if I'll survive not seeing her again. I can't give up on her. I won't. She may be California bound, and I have connections there. I speak fluent English, like Junnie. It shouldn't be too hard to find her even though LA is a big place. The only problem is I don't know when I'll get there. I just know I will. And she'll be waiting. But first I need to find a way to get to her before she walks out of my life. My eyes are on Gyu's closed door. He grinds out coldly, "Don't even think about it! Take one step and I'll take your ass down!" Tae stands there at his defense, "Soob's, what's gotten into you?" I chuckled thinking was my chance to prove how my best friend was not so innocent, "Me? Go ahead, Tae. Tell Gyu how you made a play for Red, and almost got away with it." Gyu turned his head at Tae and sneered. He was ready to throw another punch, his bloody fist forming at his side, "What?" Tae innocently stated, "Gyu, I didn't. I promise. She was upset." Gyu's chest started heaving. He just couldn't trust any of his teammates with Kate. I blurted out, "The fuck you say! You had her in your arms!" Tae whipped his head at me and roared, "Only because you, dumbass! You scare her! You and your threats on her life! You and the things you've done to her! Who the fuck wouldn't be scared?!" Gyu came at me again, grabbing a hold of the front of my shirt and slammed my back into the banister, "You threatened her!" I grunted as he leaned me over the edge. His eyes narrowed in deep seated hatred, "I could throw your sorry ass over!" The bedroom door opened and I spotted Kate. She was still in tears, "Cookie, no. Please just stop this. I can't take it anymore." She gazed at Tae brokenheartedly, "Will you take me to the airport?"

Gyu's release on me loosened and he glanced over his shoulder at his fiancée. What had she just asked Tae? I saw the daggers shoot from his eyes directly at her. I could take him down for looking at her so venomously. But I had already crossed the line. He growled at her, "What did you say? You will not go anywhere with anyone but me! Is that clear?! I dare you to cross me again today!" Kate swiped roughly at a tear that was falling from her swollen eyes, "Cross you?! Beomgyu Choi, you will not speak to me like you own me! Am I clear?! Look at the mess you've done here! Why do you always have to start a fight?! It's not like you! That's the man I fell in love with!" He inhaled deeply, moving towards her. Oh my god! I'd never heard her speak to him like that. He was pissed and it showed. He pushed her into his room and slammed the door, locking it. I heard him pound a fist on the wall, "You little..." She yelled, "Bite your tongue! Go ahead! Say it, Beomgyu! I said say it!" She stomped her foot. I heard a slap to the face. Oh shit! Did he just hit her? She yelled again, "I said to say it!" Gyu grabbed his cheek, glaring at her. Tears welled up in his eyes, "Screw you, Kate," he chided. Tae and I looked at each other in surprise. Did I do this? Did I cause this heated commotion between them? I'm to blame. I just know it. She turned her back on him, pressing her lips together as she folded her arms under her breasts, "Look what he's doing to us. He's even got us at each other's throats. Cookie, I don't want to fight with you. I don't want to leave here like this. I love you." He came to her, sliding his arms around the front of her, "Kitty Kate, I don't like it when we argue. I love you, too. Baby, I'm so sorry. It's just all this is getting me too. Seeing the way Soob's had his hold on you. Then you asking Tae for a ride. It struck the wrong nerve. It pushed me on a whole new level." She shook her head, "If you're going to continue acting this way, then I don't want you behind the wheel." He turned her around to face, taking her face into his hands, "Kitty Kate, please. I'm fine." She pouted laying a hand over his. He hissed when she touched his wounds. She stated, "Cookie, you're not fine. Come sit down." She led him to the side of the bed, and walked into the bathroom. She located the first aid kit and filled the space next to him. He watched the way she nursed the cuts on his hands, and it stirred memories of the time he had gotten into a fight with Junnie over her. He'd do anything to protect the one that he loved. Her. His Kitty Kate. She moved to his face. He had a nice sized gash across his cheekbone. He hissed and twitched his eye as she cleaned the cut with antiseptic. He said through the burning sensation, "Kate, I'll always defend you." She smirked blowing on it, "Cookie, I know. But you also know I don't like it when you start throwing your fists. It scares me and I don't want to see you hurt. He could have done some serious damage." He hissed again, "Baby, I can hold my own. I don't understand why he continues to mess with you." She took a band aid from the Kit and removed it from its wrapper, "Cookie, to understand that, you need to understand him." He leaned back with a disturbing look on his face, "What's that supposed to mean? He's fucked, Kate. What's to understand? And why you? Why does it have to be you?" She sighed, placing the band aid over the cut, "I don't know. But somehow I get him." Gyu rose to his feet pacing the floor. He always paced when he got nervous. He huffed at her, "What the hell do you mean you get him? Kate, he abuses you. How can you understand that? Do you really think I'm stupid? If there's understanding in that, please tell me?" She nodded, "Cookie, have you ever really talked to him about anything besides work?" He gazed her confused, "What does that have to do with anything? Sooobs and I have never been close. It was always him and Tae." Her eyes fell to her lap, "I see. Well maybe if you did less talking with your fist, and more talking with your mouth, you just might learn something." He stared at her in shock, "What the fuck? That's it. I'm getting you the hell out here. Grab your bags." He turned snatching his things off the dresser, and crammed them into his pickier, irritated, as he mumbled under his breath. She came up beside him. He snapped harshly, "I said to get your things!" She laid a hand on his arm, "Cookie, you're upset with me. Don't be upset with me." He pouted, his eyes falling to her hand on his arm, "Kate, of course I'm mad. Why did you say that to me? Why do I always feel like you're sticking up for him? What are you hiding from me? Did he say something to you?" She grimaced, laying her forehead on his shoulder, "Cookie, it doesn't matter." Right then he knew. He felt the chills all over and he took her by the upper part of her arms, "Kitty Kate, I don't like the sound of that. What did that bastard say to you?" She closed her eyes, "Cookie, please. It's over and done. You've already bear him until he bled. That's enough." She nibbled on her bottom lip. He placed a his index finger under her chin, lifting it, "Baby, look at me. Tell me now." When she opened her eyes, he saw the rain. She sobbed, "What's a stupid threat anyway?" He gasped, clutching her to his chest, "He threatened you? Oh my sweet baby. I'll kill him. I swear to god I will. Let's get you out of here and I want to hear about it on the way."