Lovesong

Chapter 46

Kate and I sat eagerly in the doctor's office, waiting for her to be called back. I was glad to know she was able to get an appointment today, considering she just took a test yesterday. She had called into her manager and told him she be in later that morning. We had spent an amazing night together, a night of perfect lovemaking. It was just what we needed to fill in the gaps of the passing days between us. Finally, I was able to sleep peacefully with Kitty Kate in my arms. I glanced her from the corner of my eye. I had been going through my incessant text messages from Soobin. Kate was nervously biting on her bottom lip, and her knee was bouncing. I reached for her hand with mine, and brought it up to my lips. I reassured her, "Everything's going to be fine. We already have the answer." She forced a weak smile, turning her eyes to me, "I know, Cookie. It's just the idea that this is the deciding factor. We'll have so much planning. So much to push things along." I could see the wheels spinning in her head, "Baby, don't think so much. Just let things fall into place. Everything will work out." The door opened and a nurse stepped out calling Kate. We both rose and greeted her with a smile. She asked how we were doing, and answered that we were doing well. We followed her to a little corner office. She offered Kate to sit down and opened her file. She verified Kate's information and asked what she was in for. Kate replied nervously, "I think I may be pregnant." She looked at me and I winked at her. The nurse scribbled something in Kate's chart, then took her blood pressure and weight. She told Kate that she need a urine specimen, and motioned to the door across the way. While Kate was doing that, the nurse showed me to a room to for her. I filled a chair waiting for my love. Soon the door pushed open, and Kate appeared with the nurse. She stated, "Just have a seat. I'll let the doctor know you're ready." Kate pulled herself up in the chair, staring at the stirrups. She was nervously fidgeting with rings on her fingers. Now it was getting real. I came up to her, stepping in between her legs. I tilted my head to the right wearing a smile, "Hey. I'm nervous too. But it's an exciting kind of nervous." She nodded, "Cookie, I'm just mentally trying to prepare myself for it." God, I love this woman! She never stops thinking. I caressed her cheek, "We will find a way, sweetheart. I'm going to marry you, Katelyn Marie Blue. It's been my destiny since that day in the park." She chuckled. A knock sounded on the door, announcing the doctor's arrival. He smiled at us, "Hello, Kate. How are we today? What's been going on with you?" The doctor was trying to make her comfortable, but I could see it wasn't easing her nervousness. She answered, "I'm ok. Just staying busy. This is my fiancé Gyu." The doctor shook my hand, and sat down on the rolling stool. I stated, "Thank you for seeing Kate on such short notice." He nodded, opening Kate's file, "It's not a problem. So, Kate, I see it's noted here....your weight is good. Blood pressure is good. But that's not why you're here." Kate gripped my hand with a death grip, shaking her head slightly, "No, sir." He smiled at us, "Congratulations. You are definitely pregnant." Tears filled my eyes. Then the doctor added, "You are 12 weeks to be exact."
We walked out of the office with the confirmation we needed and a due date. If all goes well we will be having a baby around my birthday in March. Now if that didn't put a smile on my face. Kitty Kate and I were having a baby. I wanted to write it across the sky. Shout it to the moon. Scream it out loud. I gave her a soft smile as I opened the car door for her. She touched the side of my neck, "Happy?" I pecked her lips, "Very much so."  She ducked inside. I closed the door and hopped behind the steering wheel. I couldn't stop smiling. I noticed the sadness fall over her face as I went to start the car. I glanced at her from the side of my eyes, "Kitty Kate." I watched the way her bottom lip trembled. I unhooked my seatbelt and turned in my seat to face her. I saw a tear slid down her cheek. She wasn't happy. We weren't feeling the same thing. I asked, laying a hand on her thigh, "Baby, you're not happy?" She wiped away a tear, "Cookie, I'm just so scared. I start thinking about all the things, and what if Soobin claims this is his baby?" Lord help me she's more worried about what that monster will think. I curled the fingers of my hand around her left, "Kate, don't. Don't do that to yourself. This is our time. Forget about him. This is our baby. I believe in my heart that it's our baby." She sniffed, shifting her sad  eyes towards me, "I do, too. I just need to think on all the possibilities. Retrace my steps." Retrace her steps? What the hell? Is she not 100% sure? Could it really be anyone else's but mine? Now I'm the one thinking, but I don't want to think like that. This is my baby. I moved a hand to her abdomen, "Kate, I'm the father." I don't know if I was saying it to reassure her or me. I can understand Kate's point of view though, and why she feels the way she does? If I were in her shoes, I would too. I truly don't know what I will do, if she looks back on her calendar and realizes I'm not the father. But I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I promised her, "Kitty Kate, I know you're thinking it could be HIS. Please don't. He won't win. When he catches wind you're pregnant, I know he's going to try everything in his power to convince you otherwise, but we have to be ready, and stand our ground. The baby is a Choi. Our little Choi. A piece of you and me." She fell into me, "Cookie, I'm so scared." I held her in my arms feeling her pain. On the drive back to the apartment I was now worried myself. After everything Soobin had done to mess up my life, there's still a slight chance he's done it for good. I know I shouldn't  let me mind wonder the way it does, but when it comes to him, he has me on edge. Ever since his invasion on my Kate, I feel threatened by him. And he's made damn sure of it. We walked inside, and Kate made a beeline for her opened calendar on the coffee table. She sat down on the edge of the sofa and counted back the days and turning pages. I saw the panic in her eyes. Red flags. Not good. I fell against the wall, crushed. She looked at me and sighed with relief. There was a sparkle in her eyes, "Cookie, you are the father." All of her tears vanished. She jumped to her feet, coming at me with the calendar. Forgive me, but I had no idea what I was Eve looking  at when she held up to me trying to explain. All I saw was a bunch of blocks with numbers for days. Kate was always one who wrote everything down, and I do mean everything. She stated, "Cookie, there's no doubt about it. I'm having your baby." She tossed the calendar on the floor, and took my hands into her, "Our baby." I trusted her. I believed in her. I loved her. I'm so in love with her. I felt relieved. I pulled her to me, and kissed her fully and hard. All the world was forgotten as we made tender loving, in our new home, in our bed. Kate was supposed to have gone into work, but I convinced her to stay. I wanted one day fully with her. Just like this. Naked and in bed. She laid on top of me, crossing her arms on my chest as she peered down at me. Her eyes danced with the glow of her pregnancy. It was perfect. It was beautiful. I had my left arm tucked behind my head. I was totally lost in the wave of ecstasy. The tips of my fingers of my right hand glided up her back, lightly. It was the stroke of my love that was only intended for her. I often sent her the signal when I stroked up the microphone stand during a performance. To let her know exactly what I was thinking. It was purely sexual and purely us. A smile curved up her lips and she shivered, "Hmm...again, Cookie." I sat up just enough to capture her lips with mine as I rolled us over, my right hand, memorizing the curve and bend of my woman's body. Even though I knew them all like the back of my hand, it was always a glorious journey every time we came together like this. I nibbled on the side of neck, and her fingers buried deep into my hair. I imagined her closing her eyes as she arched her back to my touch. She moaned my nickname. I whispered along the shell of her ear, "You're so sexy, baby." She moaned, biting her lower lip. I couldn't help but to smile against her hot, flushed skin as I buried myself deeper into her, our bodies becoming one.

In the distance I was awakened from the vibrating sound of my phone. I slipped my naked form from the bed and stumbled up the hallway, tracing my steps to my phone. I saw it vibrating on the kitchen counter. When I saw it was Kai, I answered. "Hello." Kai seemed surprised at first, "Gyu, where are you," I heard him say quietly, "I can't keep blowing Soob's  off for you. I know it's only been since yesterday. Is everything ok?" I wanted to tell him the good news. I wanted to tell him I was with Kate. But I couldn't. I didn't need word to get out. I stated softly, "Dude, I just need more time. Please do me this favor. We are good here. My brother is better. Where are you?" Kai answered, "Tucked away in the studio in the house. Gyu, Soob's not happy. He's been on a hellbent rampage since yesterday. You need to get back here ASAP." I squeezed my eyes shut. I couldn't leave Kate. Not after knowing she's pregnant. Going back to Seoul was not something I was looking forward to. I gritted my teeth, "Kai. I need more time." I heard him huff, "Gyu, what's really going on? Is this really about your brother? Come on. You can tell me. I swear I won't tell a soul." I shook my head, "I can't, Kai. In time I'll fill you in. Look, I need to go." Kai asked in all seriousness, "It's Kit Kate, isn't it? Is she in Daegu? Is she the reason you're there?" I gulped, dropping into a chair at the kitchen table, and grimaced, "Kai, it's not what you think." Kai held the phone closer to his mouth, "Gyu, is she not in California? Is she there?" I lied trying to convince his best friend, "Kai, I'm with my family. Kate is nowhere around. I swear, she's in California. Why wouldn't she be?" I heard Kai messing around with what sounded like the shuffling of paper, "Because, buddy, you're being very suspicious. And I know you. I may appear dumb, but Daegu has never been a place to rush back to unless a particular green eyed babe is there." Damn! He did know me too well!
I sat there unsure. If I say anything, or give it away, will Kate be mad with me? That was something I didn't want to risk considering we just found each other's smile back. But Kai had an inkling. I rested my elbow on the table, and curled the fingers of my left hand against lips, "Kai, ok. You got me. Please don't say anything to the others." He gasped, "What? You lied to us? And Kate went along with it?" I snapped, "Keep your voice down! I'll explain everything." I didn't know where to begin. So I stated to him, "Kate's manager was able to get her contract reverted to here. And rightfully so, I'm glad. I didn't really want her going to the states even though I supported her. We had to put a plan in motion. She's terrified of Soob's and what he's done to her. I needed to protect her somehow. BigHit set her up in a nice apartment complex just minutes from the studio. She is currently still working at the Gypsy, but i told her to step back for awhile since Mari has surfaced again." Kai swallowed hard, "Again?" I cleared my throat, "Yes. She tracked Kate at the Gypsy and wanted her help in reaching out to Soob's. Wanting to seek help for him." I didn't know if Kai was following what I was saying. Maybe it's a little over his head. It was for me, too, until Kate explained it, and I still don't want her pursuing it. I truly believe that's the worst thing she could do. And Kai agreed. With her trying to help Soobin that would only draw her into him. To keep her safe, she needs to be away....with distance and lots of space. I wanted to tell him about the baby, but now wasn't the time. It would be too much too fast too soon. He needed to process the fact that Kate never left Korea. Maybe together, he and I can come up with something to keep Soobin in control and away from Kate.