Lovesong

Chapter 65

Several days had passed and I nervously stood on the other side of the Kate's apartment door. I know I had come here unexpected, and I'm praying my Just Kate is home. I had gone by the studio, and thankfully Alisa, the receptionist, being the sweetheart that she is, gave me Kate's address after she advised me Kate didn't have a session today. Before I came here, I checked the Gypsy, and was told she had the night off. I hope everything is okay with her. I sure have missed her, and I'm anxious to see her. I raise a fist and knock on the door. And I wait. She's really moved up since her comfortable apartment on the campus grounds. BigHit is really treating her well. I parted my bangs waiting for her to answer. Kate was pouring herself a cup of coffee when she heard knocking on her door. Who would be at her door this early in the morning? It was quite too early since Kate had slept in, but she was barely awake for company. Maybe if she ignored them they'll go away. She added cream and sugar to her cup of coffee when the knock sounded again. On the other side of the door, Junnie pushed his darkened sunglasses up the bridge of his nose, looking around his surroundings. Kate approached the door and peered through the peephole. To her surprise she saw Juunie. Her heart did somersaults in her chest. What in the world is he doing here? He heard the lock click, and the door slowly opened. His eyes focused fully on the sleeping beauty in front of him. How adorable and sexy she looked. She stood there in donut printed lounge pants that covered her feet, her blue toes peeking out, and a lavender cami. Her hair was pulled up in a messy bun. Surprised she said, "Junnie?" I stepped into the apartment and my heart went into overdrive. I cupped the sides of her neck and kissed her fully on the mouth. She didn't resist. Her lips gave way to mine, and that was all I needed. I stood there kissing her for the making up for lost time. She slowly pulled away, taking a step back, "Junnie," she asked catching her breath, "what brings you here? Oh my gosh! You look amazing." I wore a simple blue satin button down and black jeans. I smiled at her sweetly, "Love, you adorable as ever. It's so good to see you." I pulled her into my arms. Her arms circled around me, "You too, Junnie. I've missed you." It felt so good to have her in my arms. She asked again, stepping back, holding her arms out, "Why are you here? I'm fine as you can see." My eyes bathed over her through the purple lenses of my sunglasses, "I wanted to see you, Just Kate. I wanted this. FaceTime wasn't getting it for me." She walked around me and closed the door. She said, "I just made coffee. Would you like some?" I touched the corner of my lip, still savoring the taste of her kiss. I knew I shouldn't be here, and I should've told Gyu, but he's so wrapped up with a Soobin these days. I nodded, "Coffee would be great." She walked into the kitchen. I commented following behind her, "This is quite a place you have here." She smiled at me as she filled me a cup, "It's home." I sat down at the small breakfast table, and she placed the cup in front of me. I  removed my shades and placed them on top of my head. I watched in awe as she filled the  seat across from me. She sipped her coffee so delicately, "So what brings you to Daegu besides me?" I gazed her. I was literally tripping on her. My beautiful Just Kate. Vanilla filled this very room, and I'm captivated. I answered, "Just you. And I had to see a few things for myself." She bit on her lower lip, "Like what? I said I was doing just fine." I reached across the table for her left hand, "Take this for instance," I ran the pad of my thumb over the rings on her finger, "You married him. Love, I'm crushed," I teased. But honestly in my heart I meant it. I stated with a pout, "I'm just sorry you and I didn't make that dream come true. I often thought about it. Seeing you in a long white dress. Me in a tux. The whole 9 yards. Feeding each other cake. Drinking champagne. Having that first dance." She pressed her lips together, "Junnie, I had no idea you felt that way." My fingers continued to stroke her hand, "I know, love. I should have held onto you longer and told you a lot sooner. But I'm happy for you and Gyu, but I'd been so much happier if it were you and me. And what's this you told me....a baby? Are you seriously pregnant?" She sat back in the chair, rubbing her flat abdomen, "I am. 3 months. I have the sonogram. Do you want to see it?" She excitedly rose to her feet and left the room. I sat there swooning at the very glow of her. I sipped my coffee just as she returned with a piece of paper. She stood behind me, and held it out in front of me. Good god she smelled delicious. She said, "It's not much. Just a butter bean."  "Butter bean?" I beamed. My Just Kate was having a baby. Once again I'm suffering from shattered dreams. Gyu deserves all this, but he's the winner that takes it all. I stared at the image. This is inside Kate. This special fragment. I started to remember her previous pregnancy from before. Only then she was showing and the baby was kicking and rolling around. That was a magical time. We had that time together. I turned my head just so and her beckoning mouth was inches from mine. I turned in the chair, circling an arm around her waist and I pulled her into my lap. I had long forgotten about the coffee. All I could think of was having one more time with my Just Kate. Her eyes searched my face, "Junnie, what are you doing?" I brushed her cheek with the pad of my thumb, "Living out my long awaited fantasy. I love you, Kate. That's why I'm here. There's still something between us. You feel it, don't you? I felt it the second I kissed you." I shared with her, getting lost in those magnificent green eyes of hers, "Love, kisses never meant so much until my lips met yours." Kate swooned, "Junnie, don't do me like that. I love you. You know I do." My heart smiled. There was just something between us that would never die. And I knew she love me. She always would, but it's not the same love she gives Gyu. That's what I want back. I'd give anything just to continue to have a piece of her if I can't have all of her. I rested my forehead to hers, "Just Kate, I can't let you go. I know my being here doesn't change anything. What's done is done. I just need to know this between us isn't over. I'm sorry I turned my back on you the day you left. I tried to be the bigger man. I tried to be strong. But all it made me realize is that I'm not over you." Kate raised her right hand and the tips of her fingers traced my jaw, "Junnie, I need you too. I'll always need you. As much as I love Gyu, I can't breakaway from you." I asked breathlessly, "So what can we do about it?" She adjusted her position and straddled my lap, and I almost exploded. I was already growing fully aroused just being close to her. She arouses me just looking at me, or being in the same room as me. A tiny smile tugged at the corner of my lips. I wanted to kiss her again and get carried away in all the moments she sat on me like this. She sighed, leaning into me, "Just go with the flow. You know I find you irresistible." I saw her eyes fall to my pouty lips. And once again I couldn't help myself. I felt that indescribable magnetic pull. I grabbed ahold of her hips and leaned into her, or we moved in together. I couldn't tell you. I just knew I saw the sparks fly when our lips touched. Holy moly! I've never felt or seen anything like it. She moaned, unintentionally rocking in my lap. I groaned through the kiss. Our lips parted. Our tongues tasted and teased. I was on fire. I was ready to lay her on this table and have my way with her. Somewhere in the distance I heard the ringing of her phone. I pulled her in closer and broke the kiss, trailing my wet mouth down the side of her neck. Her fingers sifted through my hair. I could feel her heart pounding wildly against my chest. Forget the ringing cell phone. They can wait. This was important. I needed this with her. I wanted my Just Kate. No one's around to intervene. I came here to be with her. Sorry, Gyu. I respect you, but I'm so love with her. She may be your wife, but she's always belong to me. She whispered, "Is that my phone?" I mumbled against her heated skin, "I don't hear anything." I slid back the chair and rose to my feet. Her legs wrapped around my hips, and I carried her into the living room, laying her on the sofa I saw when I came in. She eyed me biting on her bottom lip. I moved between her legs, hovering above her. I said in a hoarse voice, my eyes meeting hers, "Hi." Her chest with heaving and she was panting, "Hi," as she slid her hands up my chest and around my neck. She wanted this as much as I did. I leaned down kissing her once more, drinking her love. I glided a hand down the side of her chest and over the curve of her hip. Damn...there was too much clothing between us. I wanted to rip these bottoms off of her. I needed to feel skin on skin. Her skin touching mine. Her hands sneaked in between us and she slowly began unbuttoning my shirt. I broke the kiss long enough and sat up on my knees, eagerly pulling it from my jeans, and dropping it to the floor. I came back to her. Her touch on my bare chest set me on fire. She pecked my kiss swollen lips, "I've missed you." I kissed her forehead, and brushed the flyaway strands away from her hairline. I pleaded, "Make love to me, Kate, until we're not strangers anymore." She whispered my name. I was hanging by a thread here. Her eyes and kiss are telling me yes, but I need to hear it in her voice, in her heart. I know I was asking a lot considering she's a married woman now, and it's wrong, wrong of me to ask of her. She touched the side of my neck, "I want to, Junnie. I really do." Oh no! I felt my heart sinking to the pit of my stomach. I sat up away from her on my legs, "Kate, don't say but...nothing good comes after a but." She pulled herself up on her elbows, "Let me finish. Junnie, I'm on fire for you. I want us to rekindle what we once had. I didn't think you'd want me after finding out I married Cookie." I hovered back over her caressing her cheek, "Are you kidding me, love? It just makes me want you all that much more. The question is will you have me?"  She ran the pad of her thumb over my lips, "You shouldn't have to ask me." I took her hands in mine holding them above her head, "No, but I want to hear you say it." She arched her hips against mine, "Yes, I'll have you. Take me, Junnie. Claim me. Make me yours." I captured her lips passionately. Before things could go any further, I heard the phone ringing again. Kate heard it too, and stopped returning the kiss as if to listen for it. She pushed me off of her, "That is my phone. Oh god! It could be Cookie." She fled the room, and I dropped my face into the cushion. I heard her answer, "Hello. Tae, hey. No, I'm not there today. I thought you were heading back." I stared in the direction of the bedroom. What the hell? Is he messing around with her? Oh hell no! I heard her laugh, "Seriously, Tae. Wasn't the other day enough? It was good for me." I coughed. Tae did not need to know I was here. I was biting my fist. What was going on with them? No wonder he hadn't returned to Seoul. He's been sniffing around Just Kate, and apparently can't get enough. She stated, "Ok. Let me shower and throw some clothes on. I'll be there shortly. Bye." When Kate turned around I was standing in the doorway of her bedroom. I didn't mean to startle her, but I had to get to the bottom of this. I knew I was Gyu, and it wasn't any of my business. But if anyone was going to mess around with her, it should be me. I questioned, "Tae? Tae, Kate? Are you and Tae..." I couldn't even say it out loud. It churned my stomach just thinking of it. She shook her head, "Junnie, no." Making myself comfortable on her bed, I stretched out placing my left hand around the back of my neck, "Then what's going on, love?" I glanced at her full of jealousy. I think she saw it because she came to me, sitting down next to me, "Junnie, don't worry. Tae and I are just friends. He helped me with a song, and wanted me to return the favor." Was he serious? He didn't need her help. He's too gifted for that. Good lord, my Just Kate is truly gullible. I lifted her right hand, and brought it to my lips, kissing the knuckles, "Forget Tae, love. He can handle his own. Return to me." Kate looked away painfully, and her hand slipped from mine, "Junnie, no matter how much I want to, I have to think of Cookie. Even though this feels right right now, it's not. You know that as well as I do. I married Cookie because I love him, and I want to spend the rest of my life him. I'm having his baby, Junnie. I know it seems unreal or unfair, but it's the truth. You know I love you, but it's not the same love I have for him." I sat up and wrapped an arm around her, pulling her to my chest, "Love, I already know all that. And I would never stray you from him." I kissed her temple, "It's just we share something that can't be forgotten. It binds us together. We need each other somehow." She raised her head, "Yes, we do, Junnie. The thing between us will never die. It'll live on forever. I am so thankful you were my first." I pouted, running my thumb over her cheekbone, "It should be thanking you, love. You opened me up to a whole new way of defining what love is. And that my dear, is you." She found herself drowning in his eyes, "Junnie, you really know how to sucker me in." I smiled, "Just Kate, it's the truth. I love you. I'll always love you. You are my one true love. My always love. My forever love. You're all that I want. A lot of people can move on from their first love, but I can't. You've witnessed it. And yet, I always come back to you. Kate, I'm home when I'm with you." She straddled my hips, and stood up on her knees, taking my face into her hands. There were tears in her eyes, "Junnie, what are you trying to do to me?" I tucked my bottom lip up inside my mouth and shook my head, "Just speaking my heart, love." I had to touch her. I wanted her close. I just love this strawberry blond so much. My sweet Just Kate. I gazed up at her adoringly as my hands rested on the sides of her chest. Now I was the one swooning. All she had to do was look at me with those eyes of green and I was a goner. I whispered, "Kiss me, Kate." And when she did that was the end. I turned her over and fireworks were created as I made sweet love to my one and only first love...my Just Kate.