Lovesong

Chapter 72

My plane flew into Daegu around dinner time. I was getting off not even realizing Junnie was boarding another flight in route to Seoul. So were missing each other at just the right time. In reality I had no idea he was still remotely here. I hadn't thought much else about it. All that was in my mind was getting to my Kitty Kate. I was so tired as I climbed the stairs to Kate's apartment. I was halfway up when I spotted her coming out the door. Damn! She's dressed for her job at the Gypsy. I was really hoping she had the night off. She turned and was caught off guard at the very sight of me, "Cookie?" She was a sight for my sore eyes. I climbed the rest of the steps as fast as my tired body would allow me. I dropped my bags and embraced my sweet, loving wife. I moaned into the side of her neck, "Kitty Kate." Suddenly my cheeks were drenched with tears. I've always been the type of person who felt too much, and with Kate, I feel everything. She held me tighter, "Cookie, what's up?" I just wanted to hold her to me and never let go. I trembled in her arms, "I just missed you so much." She pulled me back, taking my face into her palms, "Cookie, why the tears? Baby, my sweet baby. What are you doing here?" I looked off to the side. I knew I was going to have to her. She took my hand, "Come on. Let's take this inside." She picked up one of my bags and I gathered the rest as she led me inside our future home. The place smelled of sweet vanilla and fresh baked cookies. Everything was perfectly in place. Neat. Clean. No sign of Junnie. I feared that he'd already been here. I walked over to the leather sofa, dropping my things on the floor and I slowly sat down. I said softly, "Kate, I was so worried about you that I decided to come home." She joined me, running a hand over my back, "Cookie, that's great. But really I'm doing well." I looked at her from the corner of my eyes. In a melancholy state I replied, "Kate, I quit the group." She gasped falling back against the cushions, "Cookie, you did what? No? Why? Why would you do that? You have to go back. You can't just quit." I turned my head, my eyes meeting hers, "Kitty Kate, it's done. I signed the paperwork hours ago stating I broke the contract. I'm home for good." Kate sat up massaging her temples. Even she couldn't believe I walked away from it all. I sniffed, "Baby, don't be upset with me. I did it for us. I did what I thought was best for us. I can get a job here. I can pick back up my photography." She shook her head a little, "But Cookie, you love performing." I circled an arm around her shoulders, "I do, baby. But I love you. I love us more." I pulled her to me, our foreheads touching. She asked sounding so disappointed, "What about the guys? They're your family. Your brothers. Do they even know what you've done?" I pouted, my dark biting into hers, "No, but they will. Everything was out on hold anyway until Soobs got stable. Besides, sweetheart,
I needed to put you and baby first. I want to be here for him or her when they're born. They'll be upset with me, but they'll understand I'm sure." She took my hands between hers, "Cookie, I'm glad you're here. You know it always thrills me to see you. I love you," she caressed my left cheek, "But this is what you live to do." I argued, bringing her palm to my lips, kissing it, "No, I live for you, Kitty Kate. We can start anew. A life as a married couple the right way. I don't like the miles and spaces between us. I need to be here. I want to be here...with you." She let out a whimper, biting her lower lip, "And I want and need you with me too. You need to really think about this. Did you think before you signed the papers? Something must've caused you to react this way." I really didn't want to bring up Soobin, and the things he said to me, in accordance to their phone conversation. Or the things that drove me to my decision. I licked my dry bottom lip, "Baby, I came to you with no regrets of looking back. This right here is where I belong..." I leaned in kissing her.
It felt so good to have her lips moving against mine. It'd been weeks since I last savored her kiss. She's my LOVESONG, my lover, my best friend, my wife. I'm finally home. This is my fresh start. And we are going to create it together as one. I smiled through the kiss, "We're going to do this, Kitty Kate." I took her face into my hands, "I never leave you lonely again." I pecked her lips again. I finally felt whole again. Our pieces of the puzzle were finally coming together to form that beautiful picture of what love is meant to be. Her green eyes held so much emotion, and I knew I'd made the right decision. Right now it may not seem like it, but I'll be ok. We'll be ok. She replied with tears in her eyes, "Cookie, I have you. I have your love. I'm not lonely. Knowing you love is what gets me up in the morning, is what helps me sleep at night." I pecked the tip of her little turned up nose, "Well, together we can sleep peacefully, and not have to worry about our tomorrows. Because I'll be here by your side, taking care of you and," I laid a palm over her flat abdomen, "our little one, loving you every step of the way. You're not going through this pregnancy alone. I'm here. I'm here now. No more running back and forth to Seoul. No more videos. No more recordings. No more concerts. It hurts me to walk away from it all, but it was something I needed to do. I hope, my love, you'll find a way to understand why I did it, too." She closed her eyes, and lifted her chin to the ceiling, "Cookie, I think I do. There's more to it than just being with me." She moved off the sofa and walked over to the floor to ceiling window, looking out. The sun was setting, and she was late for work. She kept her back to him, "You did it for you." My eyes narrowed towards her back, and I grew discouraged, "Yes, Kate. I did it for me, but it wasn't just for me. I couldn't stand you being here, and my friends flocking to you. It didn't make sense for them to come here to see you." She knew I was referring to Junnie, "I just don't trust them. I need to keep you safe, and leaving TXT was the only way I knew how." Kate rested the side of her head against the glass. He came home because of Junnie. That's all he had to say. But it wasn't just Junnie, she had a gut feeling Soobin made him run to her as well. He gave up his lifetime career because of them...because of her. A tear slid down her cheek, and the guiltiness set in. Gyu could never know, and that ate her alive. To save her marriage, she had to keep her secret.

When I heard her sniffle I came up behind her placing my hands on the upper part of her arms. I turned her to me, and held her against my chest. She sobbed, resting her hands on the sides of my chest, "Cookie, I'm sorry for everything. I'm the sole reason you've given up everything you've worked so hard for. Maybe I should have gone to London." I encased her in my arms, "No, Kitty Kate. We should've known a long distance relationship wasn't in the cards for us. Going to London would have been just as bad. Don't blame yourself for what's happened. It was my choice. I had to choose to between going on with TXT or lose you forever." I stroked the back of her head, "And I chose you, baby." She lifted her head. I winked, brushing away her tears with the pads of my thumbs, "And I'd choose you over and over again. I love you, Kitty Kate. It's always been you. You are my everything, my sweetest LOVESONG." We shared a tender loving kiss. My Kitty Kate and I.