Blood Ties (A Sick Shit Barnabas X OC Fanfiction)

My Immortal (a poem for Barnabas)

My beloved immortal

Boyfriend, husband, brother, friend

You know, I have been having huge mental breakdowns the last few weeks
And I'll probably continue to have more

Will you be the one to pull me out of the ruins of my thoughts in my head
And make the dark mist disappear

I'm sitting on my bed now
Nights In White Satin on repeat
As you sweep me off my feet
Dancing, dancing, dancing

You are beautiful.
You are sweet.
You are fascinating.

You are like swimming in a pool and feeling free in the water
You are like the sunset after a long sunny summer day
You are like my bunnies when I cuddle them

I never had a guy who loved me.
Will you be the guy that loves me for now
And help me through my bad times and enjoy my good times together with me

But who am I to say all this
I'm not even like your kind
By that, I don't mean that you're not human.

You've always been an important person to everyone
Even to me

And I am...

I'm just a girl
Dreaming on paper

Dreaming on the tv screen while looking at your handsome face

And listening to your beautiful voice
Eargasms

I left your name on a mountainside in Austria

High up in the clouds

While the rest of the world was away

So every single hiker passing that path could see how much I loved you.

I even took some precious stones that laid near the place where I left your name

So I have a precious memory of that special place where I sealed my love for you

My sweet immortal

I wish you would understand me and care about me like I care about you

Even though I'll first have to wish that you existed...

I'm lonely my love
Will you hold me in your arms until I don't feel lonely anymore

I'm different my love but you are too
We can be different together

I'm sad my love
Will you hold me close and whisper reasuring words in my ear until my bad thoughts go away

Will you stand with me when the mist in my head is too thick and I can't see the world anymore
When the homesickness has become unbearable and I've got no one to cry out at

When everyone around me is fed up with me and you're the only one who'll listen to me

Will you be the one to understand me whenever I tell you my thoughts
Even when you can't understand me?

You know me
Like no one else knows me

You know secrets about me that nobody else knows

My beloved immortal

I'm homesick my love
Will you take me back now?
Back to Collinwood Manor with you
Home

Will you be the one to hug me and kiss me when I'm longing for love so much?
To put me to bed
And tuck me in, like my parents used to do
To make me feel like a little girl again

I'll make the coast my happy place
And the waves my friends

Will you make me feel like I'm good enough, even though I'll never be good enough for anyone?

Will you take me back now my love
Back to Collinwood Manor
Laying down near the fireplace

Back to Collinwood Manor
Loving feelings that are shared

And I'm finally safe
I am finally good enough
I am finally
Home