Wallflower 2

Chapter 151

(There's lots of YouTubers in this chapter so hopefully you know some!)
(Jade's P.O.V)
The car ride was pretty fun. We all sang along to the Frozen soundtrack and the Taylor Swift album, 1989. When we arrived at her brothers house, we walked inside and there was at least 6 people there.
"Zoey! Alfie!" Someone came over to Zoey and Alfie and hugged them.
It was Louise!
"Oh my goodness I've missed you so much Jade!" Louise said and hugged me. (Louise is a YouTuber btw. Her channel is Sprinklofglitter)
"I've missed you too Louise!" I smiled.
I know Louise because sometimes there's meetings in California for YouTubers so I know lots of YouTubers.
"Who's this?" Louise asked and pointed to Taylor.
"This is Taylor. He's my, special friend." I said.
"What a cutie! I'm Louise." Louise pulled Taylor in for a hug.
"Thanks. You're so kind." Taylor smiled.
Taylor and I stood over by the couch and everyone else came over for hugs.
"I've missed you a lot Jade." Caspar Lee hugged me.
"I've missed you too Caspy." I hugged Caspar tightly.
He kissed my cheek, then introduced himself to Taylor. They shook hands and smiled.
Next, Marcus Butler came over.
"Hey Jade! Long time no see!" Marcus engulfed me in a bearhug.
"I'm so happy to be reunited with you guys!" I squeezed Marcus.
Marcus and Taylor shook hands and introduced themselves.
Next, Dan Howell.
"Hey Jade!" Oh my gosh I've missed you so much!" Dan squeezed me.
"I've missed you a lot too Dan." I smiled.
Dan kissed my forehead and introduced himself to Taylor, then walked off to chat with everyone else. Phil Lester walked over to me.
"I've missed you lots!" Phil hugged me
"I've missed you too Phil." I kissed Phil's cheek and then he introduced himself to Taylor.
Lastly, Joe Sugg. Joe walked over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me up. I wrapped my arms around his neck and snuggled my head into his neck.
"I've missed you so much Jade. You have no idea." Joe said.
"I've missed you so much too Joe." I squeezed Joe tighter.
I'll admit, I used to have a huge crush on Joe when we first met years back and some of those feelings are still there but we're just good friends now.
Joe set me down and we stayed in each other's arms for a few more minutes. Someone cleared their throat and Joe let go of me. It was Taylor.
"Oh um, hi. I'm Joe." Joe stuck his hand out to shake Taylor's hand.
Taylor shook his hand but had anger in his eyes.
"I'm Taylor." He said.
Joe scratched the back of his neck, showing that this was awkward.
"I'm gonna go talk with everyone. See ya Jade." Joe kissed my cheek and then walked off.
Taylor pulled me aside from everyone by my arm.
"What the hell was that?" Taylor whispered angrily.
"What was what?" I asked.
"You and that Joe guy? Why were you guys hugging like that? You only hug me like that." Taylor said.
"I haven't seen any of these people in years Taylor. Joe is one of my many closest friends. That's all. If you're going to be jealous and angry this whole trip when I hug a guy, don't talk to me." I said and walked away.
Sometimes he really gets on my nerves. He always gets mad and jealous whenever I hug a guy but during this trip I don't care. I'm going to hang out with everybody and not care.
I walked over to a group with Joe, Caspar, and Dan in it. Dan smiled and wrapped his arm around my shoulder. I wrapped mine around his torso.
"So what have you been doing since we last saw each other months back?" Dan asked.
"Well, I've been doing the same stuff I always have. Going to the beach, getting frozen yogurt, Penny boarding, going to parties, and shopping." I said.
"Same old Jade." Caspar smiled.
"I'm so glad I got to come and see you guys. Taylor and I will only be here for a week though." I said.
I glanced back at Taylor and he was sitting on the couch talking with Marcus.
"We better make this trip the best trip ever then. There's lots to see here in Brighton. Zoey will for sure take you to the bakeries and shops." Joe said.
I smiled and so did Joe.
"Zoey will what? I heard my name." Zoey walked over to us.
"I was telling Jade about how you'll take her to the bakeries and shops." Joe said.
"Yes I will. We have some really great bakeries and restaurants." Zoey smiled sweetly.
"That would be lovely. I'm gonna go chat with Louise and the others." I said.
I kissed Dan's cheek since he had arm around me and then walked over to the group with Louise, Alfie, and Phil in it. Marcus was still talking to Taylor.
"Hey guys." I smiled.
"Hey Jade! How are you liking it here so far?" Phil asked.
"It's really pretty here. I love everyone's accents." I said.
"I love our accents too." Louise smiled.
"How's Darcy?" I asked Louise.
"She's good. She'll be coming to Zoey and Alfie's tomorrow for a visit." Louise said.
"Tomorrow we're going to the park that we usually go to with my mum, dad, Zoey, my sister Poppy, Nala, and Poppy's boyfriend Shawn. (I think that's how you spell his name. Sorry if I'm wrong.)" Alfie said.
"I've seen that park in your vlogs and I've always wanted to go there." I said.
"We'll be leaving around 10:30 am tomorrow to go to it." Alfie said.
"Who's all coming?" I asked.
"Nala, Louise, Darcy, Joe, and Zoey and I." Alfie said.
"That sounds fun." I smiled.
Our conversation was interrupted by my phone ringing.
"Sorry. I have to take this. It's Kian." I said.
I stepped aside and sat by the staircase and answered my phone.
"Hey Jay! We miss you!" Many voices yelled through my phone.
"Aww. I miss you guys too. I'm having lots of fun here. Louise, Marcus, Caspar, Dan and Phil, and Joe are all here. Tomorrow some of us are going to a park to hang out." I said.
"That sounds like fun. Wish we were there." Gilinsky said.
"I miss you guys a lot." I said.
"We miss you too." Sam said.
"Am I speaker?" I asked.
"Yes but I'm about to take you off so I can talk to you." Kian said.
"Okay. I have to talk to you too." I said.
I took my phone away from my ear and set in on my shoulder so Kian couldn't hear me.
"I'm going to go outside to talk to Kian. I'll be back." I told Joe.
"Okay. Have fun." Joe kissed my cheek and then I walked out the front door.
I sat on the front steps of the porch and sighed.
"Alright Jay, what's going on?" Kian asked.
"Well, earlier Joe and I were hugging and I snuggled my head into his neck and hugged him like I do Taylor and Taylor got angry and pulled me aside and asked me what it was all about and got upset with me so I told him that if he was going to get angry whenever I hugged a guy then he can't talk to me. I haven't talk to him since then and it happened about 20 minutes ago." I said.
"Taylor just needs some time to cool down." Kian said.
"I know but-" I stopped.
"Jade, do you still have some feelings for Joe?" Kian asked.
I stayed silent.
"I'll take that as a yes. Honestly, if you and Joe hang out a lot, Taylor deserves anything that's coming to him. He's hurt you a lot and he needs to learn his lesson. Yes you've got your revenge on him but he's not a good person to be with in my opinion." Kian said.
"I know, but I really do love him. I also like Joe but I don't know what to do bean." I said.
"You guys haven't kissed right?" Kian asked.
"Correct. We haven't kissed since that party. We swore to never speak of it to anyone except our closest friend." I said.
"And I'm that closest friend." Kian said.
"Yes you are. Joe told Alfie and that's it." I said.
"Alright, whatever you decided to do is your choice. If Taylor gets hurt by it, oh well. That boy needs to learn that he can't go around breaking hearts all the time." Kian said.
"Thank you Bean. I'm going to go now but I love and miss you." I said.
"I love and miss you too Jay. Have fun. Bye." Kian hung up and I slid my phone back into my pocket.
I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. I put my face in my hands and say there for a few minutes. What am I going to do? I love Taylor but I also still like Joe. I'm such a mess right now. What happened at the party was kind of amazing. I think I should tell you about what happened at the party a few years back. Alright, here it goes.
A few years back, Joe, Zoey, and Alfie were in California for a meeting and after the meeting we all decided to throw a party at the O2L house. I was 17 at the time. Joe is a few years older than me but that's not important right now. Anyway, I wasn't really into parties at that time but I decided to try to have some fun that night. I hung out with Joe almost the entire time and we drank some shots. We weren't completely drunk, we still have control over our actions and stuff, we were just buzzed. We danced for a bit and just had fun. Later on, about 3 hours into the party we went up to my room and locked the door. You're all probably thinking that we had sex, we didn't. We almost did though. One more move and we would've. We made out for a bit and then it started to get more intimate. He made his way to my neck and his shirt came off, then mine, and soon we were in nothing but our undergarments. We stopped before it could go any farther. Joe slept in my room that night though. The next day we both instantly regretted it. Joe regretted it, I really didn't. I had a huge crush on him during that time. We both took advantage of each other in a way, but we weren't completely drunk. I'm pretty sure Joe knew what he was doing. Like I said before, we still had control over our actions. That's what happened that night.
So that's the story. I'm not sure if Joe fully regretted what happened but I'm pretty sure he did. Why would he want to do something like that with a girl like me? I mean look at me. My hair is frizzy, I'm ugly in general, I cut, I have depression and anxiety, and I'm me. I hate myself. I began to get tears in my eyes from what is happening.
"You okay gorgeous?" Someone touched my back and I jumped.
"Hun? Oh. Yeah. I'm fine." I said and blinked a few times to clear my tears.
Joe looked at me with the "I know you're not okay" face.
"You were about to cry. I know there's something wrong Jade." Joe said.
"I'm fine Joe. I promise." I smiled.
Joe shook his head and looked down. He can tell that I'm lying but I don't think he wants to argue anymore. He knows he'll lose.
"Whatever you say gorgeous." Joe pulled me into a hug and I laid my head on his chest.
What am I going to do?
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Hey! Im finally getting ideas again! I'm really happy about it. I wrote this whole chapter just today non stop.
If you don't know who any of these YouTubers are I suggest you look them up on YouTube so you know who they are. :)
I was looking through the chapters of this book and when it first started I got kind of a lot of reads on it, but now I'm lucky if I get 10 reads. I'm kind of upset about it. I know that nobody really even reads it anymore. They lost interest. I see why😞 this book sucks. I'm sorry if I failed you guys😓
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