Wallflower 2

Chapter 105

(Jade's P.O.V)

I ran around the house, frantically searching for the ring.

"It's ok. We'll find it." Matt said.

"No. I need it now." I said.

I lost the promise ring Taylor gave me. I have no idea where it is and it's my favorite item I own. I took it off last night and set it somewhere and now I can't remember where it is.

"Frick! It's hopeless!" I yelled.

"Calm down Jade Elizabeth. We'll find it." Taylor said.

"No! It's my favorite item I own!" I yelled and ran upstairs to the bathroom.

I shoved things off of the counter in order to find it. I ran to my bedroom and knocked things over. I did that in almost every room but I still couldn't find it. I started to panic more and more each minute. I ran into the living room, breathing heavily and everyone noticed.

"Jay, you gotta calm down. You're going to have a panic attack if you don't calm down." Ricky said.

"I. Need. To. Find. It." I said with a heavy breath in between each word.

I ran out to my car and looked for it. Nothing. I panicked even more and felt light headed. As I stumbled inside I fell to the ground from loss of air.

"Fuck, Jade!" Sam yelled, running towards me.

He lifted me up and put me on the couch. I breathed heavily and my eyes started to close. Soon, everything went black.

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I woke up, scared and confused. Why was I on the couch? Oh yeah. I lost the primes ring Taylor gave me and I had a panic attack. I shot up from the couch to go search for the ring but Taylor grabbed my hand.

"Sit down Jade Elizabeth. It's ok. Here, open your hand." Taylor said and held out his hand.

I held out my hand and he slipped the ring on my finger. My eyes widened and I hugged Taylor.

"Thank you so much Tay! Where was it? Oh my god I love you!" I squealed and kissed Taylor all over his face.

"You're welcome and I found it on your nightstand next to you bed. It was inside your jewelry box and I love you too." Taylor smiled.

The one place I didn't look was inside my jewelry box. I'm so stupid. I sighed in relief and hugged Taylor again. I kissed him on the lips for a good 8.3 seconds. I pulled away and Taylor smiled the biggest smile I've ever seen. I smiled back and got on my phone. I scrolled through Twitter and saw some hate, as usual. I've learn not to are about the hate anymore.

"We're leaving to go to our show. We'll be back later. Stay safe Jade Elizabeth." Taylor said and I got up to hug him.

I hugged Taylor and gave him a quick peck on the lips.

"Bye Tay." I said and hugged the other boys.

"Don't get kidnapped by a crazy fan." I joked and we all laughed.

They all left and I went back on my phone. I scrolled and scrolled through Twitter and I saw some pictures of the boys and I from a few nights ago and from the beach. They boys posted them though. I continued scrolling until something caught by eye. Not again. This can't be happening again. I saw the picture. It was taken a few weeks ago. I stared at it as one single tear rolled down my cheek. It was Taylor with a girl and they were holding hands. Of course it was Tayor. He always does this to me and I always forgive him. I know I'll forgive him again but what if I'm not alive? I was getting better and was getting happier and now, I've failed. I'm lost again. My mind is so screwed up again. Might as well just die alreadt. I can't take this. I was a fool for love and I never learn.

I ran upstairs and changed into some shorts and my Nirvana crop top. I looked in the mirror at my reflection. Taylor doesn't like me, I see why. I paced around my room and cried. I screamed a few times in anger and pain. I hate this. I'm so broken and now I'll never be fixed. No one is home at the moment. The Magcon guys are at an event and the O2L guys are at the store. I walked outside and stood at the edge of the diving board by the pool. I thought about life without me and how no one would care if I was dead or not. I know what's going to happen. I'm going to wake up in a hosptial or on the couch with a crying Taylor next to me. It always happens. I always wake up and I'm sick of it. No one would even care. Taylor messes with my mind so much and I'm sick of it! I just need to end already. I took a deep breath and put one foot off of the diving board and fell into the water. I felt my body sink farther and farther down into the cool water. Yells and scremas came from above.

"Call the boys!" I faintly heard a voice yell.

I thought about my life as I sunk down. I smiled at the thought of me being dead. Having depression feels like you are suffocating in your own thoughts. Maybe now I won't be suffocating in my own thoughts.

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Oh. My. God!! I put drama in this chapter! Listen to the sing because it's awesome. Hopefully you guys don't comment saying there's to much drama with Taylor :(

Love u all!