Wallflower 2

Chapter 84

(A/N: I'm continuing the chapters in this sequel so the chapters will continue from where I left off)

(Jade's P.O.V)

"Jade, do you want to come out with Acacia and I?" Andrea asked me.

"No thanks. I'm ok." I said and Andrea sighed.

I haven't gone out of the house in weeks. It's only been 2 months since the boys left and I've only gone out a few times. I normally lay in my bed all day and sing, write in my diary, or go on social medias. I barely go out anymore. It's pretty pet hectic actually. I miss the boys so much but I miss Matt and Taylor the most. Things haven't been the same since they left. Some things have been the same and other things haven't. My depression has came back, I don't go out anymore, I live with Andrea, I lost most contact with Taylor, I don't eat much anymore since I'm depressed, I feel worthless, I feel alone and empty, and I'm miserable. Ever since the boys left I've been sad. I talked to Taylor the first two months that they left, and then the phone calls got shorter, the FaceTime calls stopped, the texting was only a few words a day, and soon I had nothing. I still talked to the other boys, just not Taylor. I've been depressed a lot and I never leave the house. I feel empty inside. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest.

I miss Matt so much. He was like a brother to me. Sure we had our bad moments but at the end of the day he's the one I'd run to for comfort. I love him so much. (as a brother) He can always cheer me up. A couple of weeks ago I was talking to him on the phone, telling him that I miss Taylor and he hasn't talked to me in weeks and Matt told me that everything would be ok and he calmed me down. He cheered me up and everything. I felt like I mattered at that moment and now, I feel useless. I feel like I shouldn't even be here. It's only been two months and I'm a wreck. How can I be like this in just two months? That's right, Taylor stopped talking to me about a month ago and I'm worried that he found someone else. We weren't even together so why does it matter?! God I hate myself sometimes!

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock at my door. I didn't realize I was crying until I said come in. My voice was shaky and my face was wet. Kian came in my door and hugged me tightly.

"What happened Jay?" Kian asked.

"I-I lost a-all contact w-with him." I said in between sobs.

"I know Jade I know. It'll be ok. The boys are coming back in 4 months so they'll be back in November. Everything will be ok Jade. I promise." Kian said.

I wiped my tears and pulled away from Kian.

"Thanks KiKi." I said with a smile.

"No problem. I came here because we're all worried about you. You haven't gotten out of the house in months. We're going to get frozen yogurt with Andrea and Acacia and we want you to come. Can you come with us, please? Do it for the boys. They wouldn't want you to be stuck in the house for months." Kian said and I sigh.

"Alright." I said and he smiled.

I got dressed, did my makeup and hair, then went to Kian's car. We met everyone else at the frozen yogurt place and everyone got frozen yogurt except me. I wasn't really hungry so I didn't eat. I'm normally not hungry since I barely eat. I sat with everyone at the little table and they all talked.

"I'm going to walk back to the house. My phones ringing." I said as my phone rang.

Everyone nodded and I walked outside and answered my phone.

"Hey bestie." Matt spoke.

"Hey Matt. I miss you so much." I said.

"I miss you too baby girl. You still have my T-shirt that I gave you when I left right?" Matt said.

"Yep. Whenever I listen to T-shirt by Birdy I think of you." I said as I teared up.

I sniffled and Matt heard me.

"Please don't cry baby girl. We'll be home soon. None of us have forgotten about you." Matt said.

I opened the door me and Andrea's apartment and went up to my room.

"It's just hard Matt." I sighed.

"Tell me everything. Just let it all out. Let's get all of this off of your chest." Matt said.

I told Matt everything. How I feel empty and lost, how I'm depressed and barely eat, everything. I ended up bursting into tears while talking.

"Please eat Jade. I can't come back and see you with just skin and bones. I hate seeing people skinny and starving. If I come back and you are skinner than I left I'm going to freak out. I love and care about you and I can't have you leaving me." Matt said.

"I'll try for you. I love you too Matt. Thank you for cheering me up. It really means a lot." I said and wiped some of my tears.

"Can you tell Taylor I said hi and I miss him?" I asked.

"Sure. He's right here. Do you want to talk to him?" Matt asked and I said yes.

"Taylor. Jade wants to talk to you." Matt said.

"I don't want to talk to her. Just go away." Taylor said.

Wow, that stung. I heard shuffling and then a door shutting.

"Sorry about Taylor. He's just a jerk. I don't even know what his problem is." Matt said.

"It's fine. I should've known that this would've happened. I knew he'd move on and find another girl. I don't blame him. I mean look at me. I'm a mess." I said with a sigh.

"Jade Elizabeth Pottorff I will not sit here and listen to you talk about yourself badly. You are the most beautiful girl I've ever laid eyes on and you have a great personality. You're beautiful, kind, caring, and you have a big heart and I'm proud to call myself you best friend." Matt said and I smiled.

"Matt, I'm proud to call you my best friend too. I love you bestie." I said as I smiled.

"I love you too. I have to Jade. I'll text you later if I can and I'll call you tomorrow ok? I love you baby girl and never forget that." Matt said.

"Ok. I love you too Matt." I said and hung up.

God I wish I could hug him right now. I miss them all so much. The Magcon boys were like my family and they know how to cheer me up. Especially Matt. We've been close for a while now and he's the best. What about Taylor? Why is he acting like this? What on gods name did I ever do now? God I just want to scream! I grabbed my pillow and screamed into it. Since I can't really scream like a normal person it's hard. Tears began to fall from my eyes as I thought about Taylor and all of the good things that happened. I just want everything to go back to normal. I want to talk to Taylor again. That's all I want but obviously I can't.

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Hey! It's the first chapter to my sequel yay! I'm really glad you guys liked Diary of A Wallflower. It really means a lot to me. Thank you guys so much! I'm going to call you guys my flowers now. :)

Love you my little flowers!