Chapter 167

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*Recap*
Matt pointed to a boy with obviously dyed blonde hair who was tall. He was pretty far ahead and he walking walking towards us.
"I don't know who that is." I said.
The boy got closer and yelled my name. Oh my god.
"Sam?" I asked.
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(Jade's P.O.V)
"It's me babe." Sam hollered.
Matt took his arm off my shoulder and I ran to Sam. I hugged him tightly and he lifted me up. I buried my head in his neck and tears fell from my eyes that I desperately tried to keep in.
(A/N: Sammy wilk will be known as Sammy now and Sam Pottorff will still be just Sam so no one gets confused :).)
"I've missed you so damn much.  Please never leave me again." I cried.
"I missed you so much too. I won't leave. Not anymore. I'm here to stay now." Sam said.
His voice cracked meaning he was about to cry. He set me down and I pulled away.
"It's actually you." I cupped Sam's face and laughed while still crying.
"In the flesh." Sam smiled.
He kissed my forehead and we hugged again.
I think I should give you an explanation on Sam. Well, Sammy Wilkinson was my best friend. We met when we were in the 3rd grade and we hung out all the time. Our parents were great friends before Sam and I met so Sam and I grew close. We did everything together. He helped me through part of my freshman year of high school. He was my everything. My best friend. My other half. He helped me through all those puppy love heartbreaks. He knew all of the guys too so we're were all close but Sam and I were closer than him and the guys were.
His family ended up moving all the way to New Jersey half way through my freshman year because his dad got a job transfer. It was so far away so we never got to see each other. I've spent about 3-4 years without him and it sucked. We didn't really stay in contact and I never mentioned him before because it was just to painful to talk about. Now he's here, finally. He's back and that's all I've ever wanted since he left.
I snapped out of my thoughts when Sam pulled away from our hug. By now everyone had caught up with us.
"Did you guys plan this?" I asked and everyone nodded.
"How did you get back Sam?" I asked Sammy.
"The Magcon guys called me up and told me lots of things that have been going on so I saved up my money and once I had enough I flew here and the boys said I could stay with them." Sammy said.
"I love you guys so much." I said as more tears fell from my eyes.
I hugged everyone individually and kissed them on the cheek. Even Andrea and Acacia.
"Let's start walking around again." Nash said.
Everyone began walking again and Sammy and I trailed behind everyone. He wrapped his arm around me and I wrapped mine around him.
"So, you and Taylor huh?" Sam said.
"Yep. He finally asked me to be his girlfriend a few days ago. Did they tell you literally everything?" I asked.
"Yep. From the Taylor drama to the worst news I've ever heard. I knew that you were depressed but I didn't think that bad. You could've called me and I would've picked up no mater what. Why didn't you call?" Sammy asked with a hurt tone.
"I'm so sorry Sammy. I figured you forgot about me and found new friends and I was still in pain from you leaving. Losing you and Nat both hurt." I said, my voice cracking.
Sammy stopped us and looked into my teared up eyes.
"Don't cry little one. I hate seeing you hurt. I'm staying now and I won't leave again. I can't go through the pain or put you through it again. No one could ever replace you. I didn't make much friends in New Jersey. I spent lots of time alone." Sammy said.
He still remembers my nickname he gave me.
"I'm sorry." I said.
"Don't be. You did nothing wrong." Sammy smiled slightly.
We continued walking and catching up. I missed out on a lot.
"I'm so glad to be back." Sammy said.
"I'm glad you're back too." I smiled.
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We walked around until about 7 pm. We walked back to the O2L house and relaxed. I sat next to Sammy and he whispered in my ear to come upstairs with him. I took him to my room and I shut the door behind us.
"I missed you a lot and I didn't really get the chance to be alone with you." Sammy said.
"Sam, I'm scared you'll leave again. I don't want to go through that. I can't deal with you being gone." I said as my voice cracked.
The thought of Sammy leaving again hurt and I couldn't stand it. I lost him once and I won't lose him again.
Sammy pulled me to him and hugged me tightly while I cried in his chest. I wrapped my arms around his torso and he wrapped his arms around my neck and tested his chin on the top of my head while running my back. I let everything out that I've been holding in from these last few weeks and months.
Sammy pulled away and walked us over to my bed and sat us down.
"Tell me everything. I know the boys told me a lot but I want to hear it from your point of view. I want to know exactly what's been going on." Sammy said looking into my eyes.
I told him about Taylor and I always fighting and him telling me he loves me then going to another girl. I told him about meeting Granny (Mabel) I told him about the sleepless nights and the suicide attempts. I told him about how I cut myself a lot and rarely ate. I told him about how I used to not talk much and how I talked more. I told him about when the boys came home drunk and hurt me that one night about a year ago.  I told him about how images of Nat's hanging body will keep me up some nights. I told him about how I slept with Joe and all the arguments Taylor and I had while in Brighton. I told him it all. He listened to me and never broke his stare.
"Yeah I had everyone downstairs and they'd help me and stuff, but I really needed you. I needed Nat too but I can't see her for a while. I needed you so bad Sam. I just couldn't bring masked to text you. I-I'm sorry." I was full on sobbing by now. Sam hasn't seen this side of me in a while.
"Jay I haven't seen you like this in forever and it hurts me. I hate seeing you in pain. Don't be sorry for anything. If out had texted me, I would've easily got some money from my parents and flew here just for you. You're my world. If I was here when all of that stuff happened with you and Taylor he'd still be in the hospital for it. No one hurts my little one and gets away with it. You don't deserve any negative thing that comes your way. You deserve only positive vibes and good people. I'm sorry I wasn't here when you needed me but I'm here now and I'm not leaving." Sammy said.
I was speechless. He's so sweet. He always knew just how to cheer me up and I cannot thank him enough for it.
"Thank you Sam." That's all I could manage to say.
I tackled Sam and he fell over backwards and I wrapped my arms around him and held him tightly. He wrapped his arms around me and rubbed my back again.
"You're my little one. I could never leave you again. I-I love you." Sammy said.
I lifted my head off of his chest and looked at him.
"I love you too." I whispered.
Tears were falling from my eyes still and they wouldn't stop. I love Sam. He's my best friend.
I laid my head back down and Sam began singing to me.
"When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part. You roll out of bed and down on you're knees. And for a moment you can hardly breath, wondering was she really here. Is she standing in my room? No she's not, cause shes gone gone gone gone gone. When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the giving up is the hardest part. She takes you in with a crying eye. then all at once you have to say goodbye. Wondering could to stay my love. Will you wake up by my side. No she can't cause she's gone gone gone gone gone. Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand? Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand? Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands? Would you get them if I did? No you won't, cause you're gone gone gone gone gone. When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part." Sammy sang Dreaming With a Broken Heart by John Mayer to me.
(The song is at the top but The only video that would woke was the live version.)
We always used to sing and/or listen to that song together when Sammy still lived here. It was our song. It explained our lives through heart break.
"Thank you so much Sam. I don't know what I'd do without you. I'm so happy you're here now." I said, still crying.
I don't know why I kept crying. I just couldn't stop.
"I'll always be here whether I'm 20 minutes away or 20 miles away. I'm always here. Never forget that princess." Sammy said.
Yes Sammy calls me things like baby and princess. All the guys do. We're just close like that. I don't care if people think I'm being a hoe because I'm not.
"I would easily take your pain away from you and give it to myself. I'd give anything up for you. Because if that is what it's takes for you to be happy, let me be the one to bear the pain." Sammy said. (Shout out to my babe Shawn Mendes😂)
"It all just gets a little too much you know? I can't bear the pain sometimes. The voices in my head torture me all the time and it sucks. Sometimes I just give in and let them run their mouth because it's no use fighting them. I'm just done with everything. I hate to sound like one of those 13 year old girls who found out their crush doesn't like them but I'm done." I cried.
"It sucks seeing your childhood best friend this way." Sammy choked up.
He sat up and pulled me on to his lap and we basically cried together.
"I'm so glad I'm here with you. I know I keep saying that but I had no one back in New Jersey. I'm not joking when I said I had no one. Everyone saw me as a stupid scrawny kid so they all stayed away from me. It was so rough. I even got used by a girl for a bet between her and her friends. I'm glad we're both on the same level of hurt." Sammy said.
"I'm so sorry Sam. I love you so much." I said.
I clung on to Sammy like we were the last two people on earth and only had 30 seconds left to live.
"I love you too." He said.
A few minutes late we calmed ourselves and Sammy wiped my tears.
"How about we got back downstairs and try to feel better." Sammy smiled slightly and I nodded.
He kissed my forehead and we stood up and walked downstairs. I got to see a side of Sam that no one sees often. Sam rarely cries around people because he feels like he's being an attention seeker. I feel the same when I cry around people but with Sammy, I just won't care. I'm glad he's back. He's my best friend and I've missed him a lot.
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Kind of an emotional chapter so I'm sorry about that lol. The song at the top is really good and I love it. You should listen to it :) vote and comment babes!
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