Wallflower 2

Chapter 127

(Jade's P.O.V)
Taylor's face grew hot and I could tell he was going to explode.
"I can't believe you want me to let you die! You know how hard it is to keep you happy and alive!? I need you here with me but you won't stay! You keep me calm half the time and I feel better when I'm with you! I have problems too! It's hard dealing with the boys! They always talk about how beautiful you are and when I tell them to back off they just tell me that I'm not dating you so it doesn't matter and I hate it! You know how airs it is to listen to them talk about how hot you are and that they'd fuck you!? I kept my mouth shut because I didn't want to start anything! I hate this Jade! They talk about you and it makes me so angry!" Taylor yelled.
I was lost for words. I thought the boys were gentlemen but I was completely wrong.
"Just go Jade. I don't need to deal with this right now. I'm going to hurt you so leave." Taylor said.
His back was facing me and he was looking out his balcony window. Instead of leaving, I got closer to him.
"You wouldn't hurt me. We both know that. You're not like that." I said.
"You don't know what I'm capable of when I'm angry." Taylor said.
"That's true, but I do know you wouldn't hurt me. I love you and you love me, at least I think you love me." I said.
I wrapped my arms around Taylor's torso and laid my head on his back. Taylor sighed.
"I do love you Jade it's just I sure how the boys talk about you like that and that road block is bugging me." Taylor said.
"How about we start with the boys, then go to the other thing okay?" I said and Taylor nodded.
I grabbed his hand and we sat down on his bed.
"Well, sometimes we'll all be sitting there talking, then you get brought up and they all start talking about how pretty you are and stuff. Matt talks about it too but then they'll start talking sexually and it hate it. Matt and Shawn don't normally talk about you like that because they are true gentlemen. They just ignore the guys. The one that talks about you most I'm not sure because it's a tie between then all except Matt and Shawn of course. I don't talk like that with them either. I tell them to stop but they ignore me. I hate it. I want you to be only mine." Taylor said.
"Listen to me, I love you okay? Nothing will ever change that in this whole world. Just remember that. I'll be avoiding the boys for a little bit so you don't have to worry." I said and Taylor half smiled.
"Now, the other thing is from when I was a sophomore." Taylor took a deep breath.
The memory must've been hitting him hard.
"It was my sophomore year in December. I was dating this girl and her name was Sophie. I called her Soph and she was pretty. We were in a pretty good relationship and everyone said we were the schools cutest couple. We loved each other. One night it all changed. We went to a party and I drank a lot. I know I was way underage but I was young and stupid. Anyway, I got drunk and made out sort another girl. Sophie saw and was heartbroken. The next day I went to her house and she was crying so I asked her what's wrong. She got angry and started yelling at me. Telling me I was a failure and a cheater. I didn't remember much from the night before but images of me and that girl came into my mind and it hit me like a truck. I started apologizing and she cried harder. Her parents were both at work so they weren't home when we argued. I got so upset because I knew I was loosing her. We kept arguing and I kept telling her I was drunk. She pushed passed me and grabbed her car keys and drove off. I didn't hear from her at all for at least two hours until I got a phone call from her. Well I thought it was her. I-it wasn't." Taylor stopped talking and took another deep breath.
I grabbed his hand and held it tightly to let him know I was here for him.
"It was the police. The officer told me that Sophie's body was found on the side of the road in her crashed car. She had gotten into a crash with another car and she died. I bet tears were running down her face and she couldn't see and got hit. I felt my whole world come down and I didn't get over it until just last year. It's been hard to date because I thought that if I dated another girl, the same thing would happen. She'd die. I didn't tell you because I thought you'd be mad at me for killing her." Taylor started to cry and I hugged him.
"You didn't kill her baby. It wasn't your fault at all okay? I promise you that. Sophie knows it wasn't your fault. We didn't go to the same school at that time but I still knew you and I never knew that. I'm so sorry baby." I said.
I buried my head in Taylor's neck and pressed my lips to his neck. He was still crying.
"I'm here Tay I'm here." I said.
He pulled away from me and I wiped his tears.
"Everything gets better." I said.
"I love you." Taylor whispered.
"And I love you too Taylor. I love you so much." I said back.
I lifted his head up and we looked each other right in the eyes. We leaned in at the same time and our lips connected. It was a soft, gentle kiss and I loved it. I feel so bad for Taylor and I can't believe I pushed him to date me. I feel so stupid now but I'm going to focus on Taylor right now. He had a lot on his chest that he just got off so I'm going to help him.
We pulled away a few minutes later and Taylor rubbed his thumb over my cheek.
"Don't leave me." Taylor whispered.
Tears were running down both of our faces. I just can't believe he went through all the.
"I won't." I said.
"Don't cry beautiful. I hate seeing you cry." Taylor said as he wiped my tears.
"I just can't believe I was so selfish. You went through a lot and I never questioned you on it. I'm sorry." I said.
"It's okay baby. I can't stay mad at you forever." Taylor smiled.
I kissed him again and this time we both smiled into the kiss. I leaned back so he was on top of me and we stopped kissing. Taylor laid his head on my chest and laid his body on the bed. He wrapped his arms around my waist and ran my fingers through his hair.
"I'm so tired." Taylor whispered.
"Me too Tay." I said.
"I have an idea that we haven't done in forever." Taylor said.
"What?"
"How about we go lay outside under the stars?" Taylor said and I smiled.
"Let's go." We both got up and walked downstairs.
"Are you guys cool now? We heard yelling but then it settled down." Nash said and I didn't reply.
I just gave him a disappointed look and shook my head. Taylor and I walked outside and laid in the grass. It's pretty warm outside considering we live in California. We laid down in the grass and Taylor wrapped his arm around my shoulders.
"It's beautiful out." I said.
"I feel like we're in the fault in ours stars." Taylor chuckled and I smiled.
"We are in our own little fault in our stars movie." I smiled.
"You know you love someone when you can't fall asleep because finally reality is better then your dreams." I said.
Taylor looked at me and smiled.
(Taylor's P.O.V)
"We are in our own little the fault in our stars movie." Jade smiled.
"You know you love someone when you can't fall asleep because finally reality is better then your dreams." Jade said.
I looked at her and smiled. She's truly beautiful. I love this girl and I fuck up a lot but I can't live without her.
"Is reality better that your dreams? Mine are." I smiled.
"Yes. Yes they are." Jade turned her head and smiled at me.
I pulled her to me and kissed her. She smiled and so did I.
**
A few hours later we went inside and the boys were still up.
"I should probably call Andrea and tell her I'm on my way." Jade said.
It's going to suck sleeping alone but Jade needs time to herself sometimes.
"Okay baby. I'll see you tomorrow okay? You need some time with the girls so I'll let you go." I said.
Jade wrapped her small arms around me and kissed me. She pulled away and the boys were watching us carefully. Creeping much?
"Bye Jade Elizabeth." I said.
"Bye Tay." Jade said.
"Bye Jade." The boys said but she didn't respond.
She just quickly left.
"What's up with her?" Nash asked.
"Nothing. She's just not in the mood to talk to sexual people she thought were her friends." I scoffed.
"You did not." Jack G said.
"I did." I proudly said.
"You weren't suppose to tell her idiot!" Carter yelled.
"You guys were pissing me off and she deserved to know!" I yelled.
"Now she'll never think of us the same way." Cam said.
"She's fine with Matt and Shawn because they're actually gentlemen and not sexual beasts like you guys." I scoffed and went upstairs.
(Jade's P.O.V)
I drove back to the house and told the girls everything. They were really understanding and I even told them about what the boys were saying about me.
"I'm glad you and Taylor are on good terms now. As for the other boys, I'm angry but boys will be boys. That's no excuse for what they said though. I'm disappointed thought." Andrea said.
"I don't know when I'll talk to them again. I feel weird. I feel like they look at my body now." I said.
"Don't worry about them take your time." Acacia said.
"Thanks Cacy. Sorry it wasn't a full girls night." I apologized.
"It's fine. We'll have another girls night soon so don't worry. I'm going to bed. Goodnight and I love you guys." Andrea said.
"Night Andy. I love you too and goodnight Cacy." I said and we all hugged.
"Night girls." Acacia said and walked up to her room.
I walked up to mine and changed back into my spandex shorts and a tank top. I climbed into bed and it was cold. I wished that Taylor was here cuddling me. I miss him already. My phone buzzed so I checked it.
From: Tay baby💕😘😍❤️
Goodnight beautiful. Hope you sleep well tonight. I wish I was there cuddling you right now but I'll give you some space. I love you baby😘
J- Aww! You're so sweet babe. I wish you were here cuddling me too. I love you too.
Taylor responded about 10 minutes later.
T- come outside.
J- but I'm in my warm comfy bed😩
T- I left a present😉
I groaned and got out of bed. I walked downstairs and opened the front. There I saw Taylor sitting on the porch with a big smile on his face.
"I love this present! It's so cute and it's smile is adorable!" I said and he got up.
He pulled me by my waist and crashed his lips against mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he leaned me backwards. No I didn't fall because he had ahold of me. Taylor pulled away and smiled.
"Well hello to you too. Can we go inside? I'm tired." I said and Taylor nodded.
I opened the door and Taylor stopped.
"What?" I asked.
"Get on my back, I'll carry you." Taylor said and I for on his back.
I laid my head on his back and closed my eyes. When we reached my room, Taylor laid me on my bed. He took off his shirt and threw it at me. I got off my bed and took off my tank top.
"Chill Tay." I giggled when I saw Taylor staring at me.
He blushed and looked away. I put Taylor's shirt on and climbed into bed. Taylor laid his head on my stomach and wrapped his arms around my waist again. I'm liking this new cuddle position. It's cute.
"Goodnight beautiful. Taylor said.
"Goodnight handsome." I smiled and Taylor leaned up and kissed me.
He laid his head back down on my stomach and closed his eyes. I ran my fingers through Taylor's hair and he smiled.
"Keep doing that. It feels good." Taylor whispered and I smiled.
I kept running my hands through his hair and he soon fell asleep as well as me.
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Hey. Pretty long chapter so I hope you guys enjoyed it!
Love you all!