Wallflower 2

Chapter 124

(Jade's P.O.V)
Shawn stirred next to me and tightened his grip around me. Shawn is such a good friend. He always cheers me up and can calm me down. So can the other boys. I'm still pretty upset with Matt and obviously Taylor. People just need to learn that violence solves nothing. Shawn got up and stretched. We both got up and brushed our teeth, then went downstairs. Shawn was shirtless but I don't think Sam will care. Everyone was here already except the Magcon guys. I saw Dom on the couch asleep so I smirked and grabbed some whipped cream.
"Shawn, will you film this on my snap chat?" I asked and Shawn nodded with a smile.
"Smack cam!" I yelled and smacked Dom in the face.
He jumped up and everyone started laughing.
"What the hell!" Dom yelled, causing me to laugh even harder.
He washed off his face and then tackled me onto the couch. He started tickling me and I was laughing hard and loudly. He eventually stopped.
"Paybacks a bitch." He smirked.
I hugged him and then walked upstairs and got dressed.
"Anyone want to go to star bucks with me?" I asked and Kian raised his hand.
We got our shoes on and walked to StarBucks. Kian slipped his hand in mine as we walked out of the house. It's just a friendly thing though so don't get all wound up and think we're trying to get with each other.
"The house you guys bought is very nice. I kind of wish that you were still living with me and the guys still. Sam missed having you there. He says that you're growing up even more now. After his 19th birthday a few weeks ago he was upset because you were moving out. It gets pretty lonely not having you there. It's weird to not see a little tired blonde girl stumble down the stairs at 4 am to get water." Kian said.
"I'm still here, I just don't live in the house. I'll stop by though at times and stay the night like I've done before so don't worry." I smiled and kissed Kian's cheek.
He smiled back and we walked into StarBucks. When we walked Matt was sitting at a table with Nash. Matt came over to me and hugged me but I stood still.
"I'm so sorry for overreacting the way I did." Matt said.
"Just go sit down Matt. I'm not in the mood right now." I said and his eyes flashed a wave of sadness.
He slowly went back to his seat and Nash started talking to him but he didn't answer. Kian and I ordered our drinks and sat down at a table.
"Wow. You're really mad at him aren't you?" Kian asked and I nodded.
"Everyone needs to learn that violence isn't the answer. I told Dom what happened last night and he didn't go to Taylor and try beating his face in like everyone else does." I said.
"Dom's really happy that you forgave him. Last night he told us that you told him what happened and that you even hugged him and he said he was so happy. He smiled and I've never seen him this happy. He told us that ever since you stopped talking to him he became sad and depressed but he never showed it. You really make people happy Jade. Including me." Kian smiled and put his hand over mine on the table.
"You guys make me happy too. It would kill me if something happened to any of you. You're like a second- well now third brother to me since I forgave Dom." I smiled.
"I love you Jade. I'm glad to have you as my little sister." Kian said.
"I love you too Kian." I said.
Kian kissed my cheek and we continued talking.
A half out later we left and walked around town for a bit. I dragged Kian into a stuffed animal shop even though he didn't want to go into it because he said it was to "girly." I bought a cute stuffed stitch animal and Kian bought an Olaf stuffy.
"I thought you said this was to girly." I smirked.
"Well that was before I found an Olaf. I mean it's Olaf, how can you not buy it?" Kian said and I laughed.
We roamed around town with people giving up strange looks because we had stuffed animals we were carrying. We didn't want a bag because we wanted to carry them around to weird people out and it worked. We passed a little fair ground and heard music being played so we went to it to have fun. We left our stuffed animals with the person in the little booth because they let us. We got some tickets for rides and we rode a few rides. I spotted a stage and dragged Kian over to it. There was someone singing on stage.
"What's this for?" I asked a random person.
The guy turned around and it was surprisingly cute.
"It's like a karaoke thing. You get picked to sing on stage if you want." The guy smiled and I smiled back at him.
"You should go up there Jade. You're good at singing." Kian said.
"I don't know." I shrugged.
"Hey! She'll go next!" Kian yelled and I swatted his arm.
I was lead up onto the stage and chose a song. I chose habits (stay high) by tove low.
"You're gone and I gotta stay high all the time to keep you off my kind. Ooh ooh. High all the time to keep off my mind. Ooh ooh. Spend my days locked in a haze tryin' forget you babe I fall back down gotta stay all my life to fogey I'm missin' you. Ooh ooh." I sang the chorus and everyone cheered and clapped.
I smiled when I finished and when I went to get off the stage, everyone awed and Kian pushed me back on stage. I sang a few more songs and people clapped and cheered again. They actually like me.
"Why aren't you a singer?" Someone asked.
"Yeah. You're really good." Another person said.
"Thanks guys. I really appreciate that. Thank you guys for listening to me." I smiled and got off stage.
"They loved you Jay." Kian smiled.
"You're an ass for doing ths to me." I hit his arm playfully.
"You had fun just admit it."
"Okay fine. I did have fun singing." I smiled.
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Later on when Kian and I went back to the house is was past 6 pm.
"I thought you guys were just going to star bucks." Trevor said.
"We walked around town and went to a fair." I said.
"Yeah. There was a karaoke thing at the fair and I made Jade sing." Kian smirked.
"People actually liked me." I smiled.
"Why wouldn't they? You're a great singer." Trevor said.
"You have 3 songs Trevy. We all know who's the better singer." I said and we all laughed.
I went up to my room and decided to clean my room since it was pretty messy. There was clothes everywhere and it was a mess. I played some music on my phone while I tidied up my room. My door opened a few minutes later and Taylor came in. I stood there and stared at him. Trying to find words to say.
"What are you doing here?" I rudely asked.
"I'm sorry for getting in that fight with Matt." Taylor said. "Just go Taylor. I don't have time for this." I said.
"No. I'm sorry for getting into that fight with Matt okay? Please forgive me." Taylor said and stepped into my room. "You've done so much to me for me to forgive you. You said you loved me, made a promise not to leave, and then you broke your promise and left. Do you know how bad that hurt me?" I said.
"I'm sorry Jade Elizabeth." Taylor said.
"Stop calling me that!" Taylor flinched when I raised my voice.
"You called me that when we weren't friends! All you ever say is I'm sorry and sorry doesn't work all of the time! I'm so sick of you breaking me, then saying sorry and me forgiving you!" I yelled.
"Please calm down Jade-"
"I can't calm down! You broke a promise to me and I'm hurt and I feel betrayed! You told me you'd love me forever and now you left me here, making me fight this battle alone!" I yelled.
"I'm sorry." Taylor said.
Taylor stared at me and a single tear ran down his face. Give me love by Ed Sheeran started to play and tears streamed down my face.
"Please. Don't cut me out of your life." Taylor said.
Taylor stepped closer to me and hugged me while I struggled to get away from him. I was drowning in his scent that smelt so good. I miss him but I can't give up now and let him back in.
"I'm sorry. I know I said we should stay friends and we should because I'm no good for you but I'm sorry for breaking our promise." Taylor said.
"That's the thing. I'm committed and you're not. You can't have one girl, you have to have multiple and that showed who you really are. You never asked me to be your girlfriend but you took me on dates. Why did you so that?" I asked and Taylor let go of me.
"I-I don't know why. I just need some time alone." Taylor said.
"You could've told me that instead of breaking a promise! You know what, here. Take it." I said and grabbed the ring off of my dresser.
I handed Taylor the ring and he stared at it in his hand.
"No. This can't be happening." Taylor whispered.
"It's happening Taylor and its your fault." I said and tears streamed down my face.
"I'm sorry for what I've done Jade. Please, please forgive me Jade Elizabeth." Taylor said.
"I can't forgive you okay and stop calling me that! You've broke me and I hate you so leave!Leave and never come back! Do us all a favor and get out of my life! I hate you!" I screamed.
Tears filled my eyes and my vision gut blurry. Tears fell down my face and Taylor had tears running down his face.
"Fine. I'll leave. I love you Jade. I really do. Never forget that." Taylor said and he left.
Just like that and he was gone. I didn't hear his car start though. He might be downstairs. I paced around my room, the usual thing I do when I'm upset. Maybe I should just leave. I won't be missed and I'll be with Nat. I must Nat to much and I want to see her but there's only one way. Maybe I could kill myself. I don't have to hang myself, I can overdose. Nothing goes right for me and I'm sick of it. Whenever I try to kill myself someone saves me and I'm sick of it. I'll go downstairs and tell everyone I love them it I won't act suspicious. I'll text the Magcon guys and tell them I love them too.
I texted the Magcon guys, telling them I love them, then I went downstairs and sat on the couch.
"Hey guys. I love you all so much. You've done so much for me and I realized how awesome you guys really are." I smiled.
Everyone tackled me in a hug. I walked out into the kitchen and grabbed random pill bottles and put them in my pocket. I grabbed an apple and walked upstairs. I set the apple down on my bed and opened the pill bottles. No more worries.
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