Wallflower 2

Chapter 179

(Jade's P.O.V)
"You can't just keep going back to the same person who broke you." Matt said.
"I know but I do love him. I don't know what I want." I said.
Matt and I were having a small argument about the whole Taylor situation.
"Whatever you do, be smart about it. If you do end up going back to Taylor at some point and he hurts you again, this time I'll be pissed." Matt warned.
Matt never gets mad like I know he can and since he rarely gets mad, it's scary when he does. You don't know what he'll do but what I do know is that he's capable over so much.
"Okay." I nodded.
Matt left my room and I decided to go through my closet and get rid of some of my clothes. I grabbed all of my shirts and Sammy came in my room.
"Hey Liz. Whatcha up to?" He asked.
"Just going through my clothes. Want to help me? You could sit here and tell me what looks good on me and stuff. I always have a hard time making decisions alone." I said.
"Sure but everything will look good on you to me." Sammy smiled and I smiled back.
I first tried on a tight black  shirt that buttoned up towards the top. There was 4 buttons. It was a short sleeve and it showed off my bust really well. I like it.
"How does it look?" I asked.
"G-great." Sammy stuttered.
"Okay so this one is a keep." I said.
I took the shirt off and set it on the floor in a pile to keep. Next, I tried on a baggy shirt that was red. I looked in the mirror and scoffed.
"Ew. This looks gross on me. Red is not my color." I threw the shirt off and onto the ground in the 'get rid of' pile.
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2 hours later I finished going through my clothes. I had to get rid of most of my bras and underwear since they were too small, most of my shirts and pants I threw away since they were either too small or too ugly on me. I kept some baggy shirts so I can sleep in them and stuff. I kept my leggings though. I need to go shopping.
"Saaammyyy. Will you come shopping with meeee?" I asked Sammy.
"Well considering you need new clothes because you got rid of most of them, yes. I'll go with you." Sammy said.
"Yay! Let's goooo!" I grabbed Sammy's hand and began to walk towards the door but then I remembered.
I was only wearing short shorts and a tank top. I let go of Sammy's hand and changed into high waisted shorts, my tight, black button up shirt, and my vans. Sammy and I walked downstairs and I grabbed the keys to my new car and told everyone that we were going shopping, then we left.
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2 hours later we came back and I packed all my clothes away. I got undergarments, jeans, shorts, shirts, etc. I had lots of fun with Sammy. It's currently 8:23 pm and I sat on my bed for a bit. All these memories with Taylor surround me. It's depressing. I hate to admit it, but I miss him.
My head bowed low as I sat there thinking of Taylor. All the promises that were broke, all the 'I love you's', they were all lies. I doubt he even loved me. I hate him, but I love him at the same time. It's aggravating. I can't believe we're actually taking a "break." We all know that he's done with with me. This sucks. There's so many memories of Taylor. All the photos in my room of him and I mock me. What am I going to do? I feel really lonely without him. Forget this, I'm just going to crawl into bed and cry.
I got up and changed into yoga shorts and a black muscle tank. I shut my curtains and crawled into bed and laid my phone next to me and played my sad playlist. I Hate U I Love U by Gnash came on. (Song at the top and this song basically explains my summer :(.) I listened to the lyrics carefully and began to cry. Why can't I is it be happy? I need to get up and do something. I want to go outside.
I got up and wiped my tears. They'll come again anyway so there was no point. I grabbed my phone and a blanket. I paused my music and walked downstairs. Everyone was having a loud conversation so I slipped outside and climbed onto the roof. I spread out my blanket and laid on it. The stars were out so I stared at them. I focused on them carefully.
I played music on my phone again and this time Wait by M83 came on. It's from The Fault In Our Stars. Tears rolled down the side of my face as I cried again. You shouldn't take a break from someone if you truly love them. I guess Taylor didn't truly love me. How could he do this to me?
"Jade? What's wrong?" A voice asked.
I sat up, wiped my tears and paused my music. It was Matt.
"N-nothing. I'm okay." I tried to smile and Matt gave me a sympathetic look.
He walked over to me and sat down.
"You'll figure everything out soon baby girl. I know you will." Matt said.
"What if I don't Matt? Things haven't been the best lately and I'm struggling so bad." I said as I cried.
"How about we go back inside and talk about it?" Matt said and I nodded.
I grabbed the blanket and my phone. Matt and I got off the roof and headed inside. Everyone was watching a movie so Matt and I slipped upstairs and laid on my bed. Matt wrapped his arm around me since I was on the side of him. I buried my head in his chest and cried. I've cried so much today. I'm so over it but I can't stop crying.
"Shhh. I'm here now baby girl. It's all okay." Matt said.
I bawled my fists up in his shirt and he rubbed my arm.
"Calm down baby girl. You'll make yourself sick from crying so much. You need to calm down Jade." Matt said.
I focused on my breathing and eventually I calmed down. I only had a few tears slowly rolling down my face.
"Good job. Now come here." Matt said as he sat us up.
He strolled his thumb on my cheek and looked me in the eyes.
"I love you so much. I'll help you get through this. We all will." Matt said.
His voice was so soft and calming.
"I love you too." I said.
Matt kissed my forehead, then we laid back down.
I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.
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I woke up with Matt's arms wrapped around me securely.
"Good morning baby girl." Matt said.
"Morning. Why am I wrapped up so tightly?" I asked.
"Well, you um, started to like cry and whimper in your sleep and it startled me because I didn't know what was going on." Matt said.
"I'm sorry for scaring you. I had a horrible nightmare." I said.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" Matt asked and I nodded.
"I was in my room crying, but then I went downstairs to talk to guys to feel better and Taylor was there with some girl and she was on his lap. They kept kissing and he was calling her princess and stuff and it upset me bad." I said.
"I'm sorry babe. You'll get over him. A guy will come around and he'll treat you right and make Taylor regret everything." Matt said.
"Thanks Matthew." I smiled slightly.
He kissed my forehead and we got up and I went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and then walked downstairs.
"Hey people's." I said.
"Hey loser wassup?" Sammy said.
"Nothing much how about you twat?" I asked.
"Just sitting here throwing insults at you." Sammy smiled and I laughed.
Damn. He has an award winning smile. So does Matt and Kian. Everyone here does. I especially love my brothers laugh. It makes everyone so happy.
"Wassup mofos!" Dom walked though the door.
What's with all the name calling? Lol.
"Dooomm!" I hugged Dom and we sat down on the couch.
As I went to walk past Sammy, he grabbed my hips and pulled me on to his lap.
He wrapped his arms around my waist and laid his head on my shoulder. I locked our hands together and Andrea smirked at me. I smirked back and then he walked through the door.
"Hey guys." Taylor said.
"Hey." Everyone replied.
They all agreed to try to be nice to Taylor since he's still a friend. Kian, Sam, and Sammy on the other hand, they can't stand him now. I don't think Kian and Sam really could stand him once he first hurt me.
Taylor saw me and Sammy's hands locked together and his facial expression changed. It was a mixture of sadness and anger. Taylor sat down on the couch next to Johnson and everyone began talking. I just kind of sat there with Sammy.
"Let's do something." Sammy whispered in my ear.
"Okay. Let me go get dressed." I whispered back.
Sammy kissed my cheek and then I stood up and walked to my room. I grabbed a pair of black, high waisted shorts and my black crop top with a melting smile face. I put my black SnapBack on backwards and then I out my vans on. I walked downstairs and Sammy stood up. He walked over to me and grabbed my hand.
"We'll be back soon." Sammy said.
Everyone said bye and I waved. I could see Taylor tense up but oh well. Sammy and I walked outside and I not my car and he began driving.
"I just had to get you out of there. Taylor was there and I didn't want you to get upset. I could just tell that something would happen." Sammy said.
"Thanks Sammy. You're really sweet." I smiled.
We stopped at some park and got out. I ran to the swings like a little kid and began swinging. Sammy came over and pushed me on the swing so I could go higher.
"This is so fun!" I laughed and Sammy did too.
"I love your laugh. It makes me happy." Sammy said.
"I love yours too." I replied.
Sammy stopped pushing me and sat down on the swing next to me.
"I know I keep saying this, but I really did miss you." Sammy said.
"I missed you too. I missed you every second that you were gone and I needed you so much." I said.
"I needed you too. I'm sorry I was never there and that I never texted. My phone was so screwed up." Sammy said.
"It's okay. You're here now and that's all I care about." I smiled.
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Slow updates again :( I'm sorry. School starts in a week so I don't know when I'll be able to update again.
Love you all