Wallflower 2

Chapter 86

(Jade's P.O.V)

We just got back and it's 1:15 am. I had 4 shots tonight but it wasn't enough to get me wasted. I was a buzzed but I was alright. I ended up grinding on Connor which Sam wasn't happy about but he left me alone thank god. He's as bad as an overprotective boyfriend sometimes. I walked up to my room and changed into the sweat shirt Taylor gave me and a pair of my spandex shorts. I brushed my teeth and climbed jc to my bed and stared at the ceiling. I started thinking about Taylor and it became hard to sleep. I keep waiting for him to walk into my room and pull me on top of him like he normally does but he doesn't. He's not here and I need to know that. I want him here but he's not. He's been ignoring me for no reason and I'm sick of it. What did I even do that was so horrible? I just don't get it.

I laid in my bed thinking for another hour or so and in decided to call Matt. Hopefully he's up. I grabbed my pine and dialed his number and he picked up after 3 rings.

"Hello?" Matt croaked.

"Shit. Did I wake you up Matt?" I asked.

"I just had my eyes closed so I wasn't really sleeping. What's up?" Matt asked.

"I-I can't sleep." I whispered.

"Tell me what's wrong baby girl. You might be able to sleep if you get things off of your chest." Matt said and I sighed.

"Well, it's Taylor. I know it sounds stupid but I miss him like crazy but I'm mad at him for ignoring me." I said.

"That's not all of it. What are you hiding Jade?" Matt asked.

"Nothing. I'm fine it's just I miss you guys." I lied.

"Well, We'll be back in 4 months so don't worry. When I see you I'll give you a great big hug to make you feel better." Matt said and I smiled slightly.

"Thanks Matt. I probably won't even hug or talk to Taylor. Since he wants to ignore me I'll ignore him." I said and Matt chuckled.

"Maybe he'll learn." I smiled at Matt's response.

"Where are you guys staying tonight?" I asked.

"Well, we're in North Carolina for 3 days and we just got here last night and Carter's friend let us stay here but he's not home this week because he went on a vacation with his girlfriend." Matt said and we continued talking about everything

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About a half hour later, it was 4:30 am and Matt and I got off of the phone. California is 3 hours ahead of North Carolina so it's probably not that late there. (A/N: I don't know the time zones in NC so sorry if I'm wrong😂) I laid in my bed but I was still unable to sleep. I laid in bed for a while before I got up and went outside to lay underneath the stars. I thought of Taylor and wondered if he was looking at them and thinking of me like I was him.

(Taylor's P.O.V)

It's 1:30 am and I can't sleep. I haven't gotten much sleep since we left. I stay up late at night thinking about Jade. I know I sound soft and shit but I really miss her. She hates me and I can't stand being away from her. I remember how she always used to lay out underneath the stars at night when she was sad. She always sang and played the guitar. She has a voice that you can never get sick of and I loved to hear her talk. I can't remember what her laugh sounds like since I haven't heard it in a while. God I miss her.

I got up from the bed I was sleeping in and I quietly went outside to the backyard. I laid in the grass and looked up at the stars. I began to think of Jade and I grew sadder. I can't believe I'm ignoring her like this. You guys are probably thinking

"just call her. It's not that hard." It is hard ok.

I hate calling her and talking to her when I'm not actually there with her. It bugs me. I want to be able to hold her in my arms, not talk to her through a laptop screen. I know it's stupid but I just hate it. The tour will be over in 4 months anyway so then I'll get to see her. She probably hates me. I don't blame her though. I've been such a dick to her. She has enough problems, she doesn't need me hurting her. God I'm such an idiot.

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I'm so sorry I haven't updated in like 5 billion years! Sorry for this shitty chapter. School started today so sorry for not updating😭

Love u all!