Wallflower 2

Chapter 163

(Taylor's P.O.V)
I have the stuff I bought Jade in my bag. The best was pretty big but I managed to get it in there. When we get back to Jade's apartment, I'm going to set everything up on her bed. The roses didn't die because Zoe took good care of them.
I don't know why we're leaving early, but I'm kind of glad we are because now I can make this up to Jade. I really hurt her and I regret it. I've always regretted it.
(Jade's P.O.V)
We arrived in California at 7:13 pm. The jet lag was pretty bad but at least I get to see the boys and the girls again. Taylor and I got off the plane and called an Über. We didn't talk the whole ride at all. I didn't want to talk to him because of what happened. It really hurt but I also did stuff with someone else so I can't say much about the whole situation.
When we arrived at the house, we got our stuff and walked up to the door. I slowly and quietly opened it and when I did, everyone was on the couches talking and yelling. They didn't seem to notice Taylor and I until I shut the door. They all turned around and ran towards us.
"Omg why are you guys home so early!?" Jc asked.
"We decided to come home. I missed you guys." I said.
"We missed you too!" Sam said.
Taylor walked off and went upstairs. I walked upstairs after Taylor and went to my room. When I walked in, there was a bear, candy, and Roses on my bed. There was also a little card. I walked to my bed and picked up the card.
I'll love you till the last rose dies. -Tay
I looked at the roses and realized that one rose was fake. I get it. All the other roses will die except one, meaning his love for me will never die. Okay, that's cute. The bear was pretty big. It stood at least 3-4 feet tall. Matt walked into my room and looked at the stuff.
"From Taylor?" Matt asked and I nodded.
I set the card down and hugged Matt tightly. I wrapped my arms around his necks and stood on my toes to reach his height. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I buried my head in his neck.
"I missed you so much. You have no idea what it was like being away from you. There was so much stuff happening and I just wanted to run to you guys and hug you but I couldn't. He really hurt me Matt." I began sobbing and Matt lifted me up bridal style.
He moved the stuff off my bed and set it on my dresser. He sat down and rocked me like a kid.
"Shh. Don't cry baby girl. I'm here now and I'll protect you. Don't worry." Matt said and he kissed my forehead.
I hugged Matt even tighter and cried even more. Everything has just built up and I'm finally letting it out. I can't take this anymore.
"I-I can't take it anymore." I stuttered.
I began sobbing uncontrollably.
"Baby girl I love you so much. Im sorry for what has happened." Matt said.
"Wh-at did I e-ever do?" I asked.
"God I'm so sorry." Matt pulled me closer and I felt tears his my face from Matt.
He was crying. I was crying so hard that I couldn't breath.
"I had seeing you in pain." Matt said.
"I can't believe he'd do this. We were suppose to be on vacation and he ruined it and I don't know what to do anymore. I hate everything and I just want to die." I rambled.
I began breathing heavily and Matt noticed.
"Jade, you need to calm down. You're going to give yourself a panic attack." Matt said.
Matt sat me in front of him and he grabbed my hands. I squeezed his hands tightly and tried to steady my breathing.
"Breath baby girl. Slow your breathing and take long breaths." Matt said.
I did what Matt said and breathed slower.
"Good. You're breathing slower. Now focus on you're breathing and really concentrate on it." Matt looked into my eyes.
I closed my eyes and focused. Breath in slowly, breath out. My breathing became slower but I still cried, just not as much.
I opened my eyes and Matt smiled at me.
"You did it. You calmed yourself down." Matt said.
"No, you calmed me down. Thank you Matt." I said.
"Anything for you baby girl." Matt smiled.
Matt held my hands and pulled me towards him and he leaned back so I was on top of him.
"I love you." Matt said.
"I love you too." I replied.
"I'm so glad you came back early." Matt said.
"Me too." I said.
I planted a kiss on Matt's neck and closed my eyes. I snuggled my face in Matt's neck and he wrapped his arms around me tighter. I still cried and Matt rubbed my back to calm me.
"D-don't let me go." I whispered.
"Never in a million years Matt whispered back.
Soon I drifted off to sleep with Matt.
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(Matt's P.O.V)
Jade cried herself to sleep. I felt so bad for her. She looked and sounded so hopeless and I wanted to help her. I at least calmed her down so she didn't have a panic attack.
Jade kept sobbing and gripping me tightly in her sleep. It made my heart break. I love her. She's my sister. I'd go out of my way for her and I'd do anything for her.
(Jade's P.O.V)
I woke up and checked the time it was 8 pm. I rolled off of Matt carefully but he was already awake.
"Sleep well?" Matt asked and I nodded.
I grabbed Matt's hand and lead him downstairs. Everyone was down there including Taylor. I sat on the couch in between Matt and Kian and Kian wrapped his arm around me.
"Hey sleepy head. Have a nice nap?" Kian asked and I nodded.
"I just had to sleep off the jet lag." I replied.
Kian pulled me closer to him and I wrapped my arms around his torso. Kian kissed my forehead and spoke.
"I missed you. We all missed you." Kian said.
Sam came over to the couch and laid across Kian, Matt, and I. Sam's head was on Matt's lap and the rest of Sam was on Kian and I.
"I missed you." Sam said.
"I missed you too Sammers." I said.
"Bro. You're laying right on my crotch." Matt said and we all laughed.
Sam got up and sat on the other couch. I detached myself from Kian and walked upstairs to my room. I grabbed the stuff Taylor got me and carried it downstairs. I also grabbed my suitcase.
"I'm going to take this stuff to my apartment. I'll be back." I said.
On my way out I sent a thank you text to Taylor for the gifts and then I got in my car. I drive to my apartment while blasting This Love, This Hate by Hollywood Undead.
"These lies are leading me astray it's too much for me to stay. I don't wanna wanna live this destiny, it goes on endlessly. I see you so please stay strong. I'll sing you one last song and then I'm gone. I don't wanna live this destiny, it goes on endlessly." I yelled.
"This love, this hate it's burning me away!" I yelled after a few lines.
I arrived at the house a little bit later and I carried the stuff inside and up to my room. I grabbed a vase and filled it with water first, then I went to my room. I put the roses in the vase and set them on my dresser. I set the bear on my bed and set the candy on my dresser as well. I began unpacking and I played music from my phone. Amnesia began to play and memories flooded into my mind like a waterfall.
"I wish that I could wake with amnesia, and forget about the stupid little things. Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you, and the memories I never can escape. Cause I'm not fine at all." I sang.
I sang as loud as I could and I sang with emotion. Soon, I began crying. I sank down to the floor at the end of my bed and brought my knees to my chest and laid my head on my knees.
I miss him. I miss everything about him. I try to act like I don't care and I'm mad at him, but I can't anymore. I am mad at him, but I'm more hurt. I miss our late night chats while laying in bed. I miss our cuddles. I miss the way he'd rub my back when I'd cry. I miss his cute morning voice. I miss his messy hair in the morning. I miss waking up either wrapped in his arms on his chest or next to him. I miss everything. I can't act like I don't care anymore. I still love Taylor. I don't think I'll ever stop really. He was my lover and best friend. I can't take this anymore.
I began sobbing uncontrollably just like earlier when I was with Matt. Tears were streaming down my face and I know they won't be stopping anytime soon.
"I'm sorry for what I've done to you." I heard a voice.
I looked up and saw Taylor standing in the doorway. He walked in and sat down next to me. I wiped my tears away and called my breathing quickly.
"You don't have to hide the fact the you were crying Jade." Taylor said.
"I know." I replied.
"Listen, I know I fucked up. I want to make it up to you and I'm not sure if you'll forgive me this time because we've been through so much, but that's why I think we're so good for each other. We've been through so much together that we can work through anything now. I want you to be mine again. I won't ever let you go. I love you so much and I don't care if you don't believe me. Jade Elizabeth Pottorff, you are the only one for me. Even if the sun crashes into us, I won't let go. (Shoutout to Maroon 5 and their song leaving California😂) I wouldn't trade you for any girl in the world because you are my world. I see you as a queen. You have complete power over me most of the time. I can't live without you babe. I fall for you more and more everyday. I don't want to fight anymore. I just want my Jade back. I want to be able to hold you every night. I want to be able to kiss you goodnight. I want to be able to call you mine again. And I mean mine. Actually mine this time." Taylor said.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
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Cliff hanger! I'm evil, I know. lol. Anyway, vote and comment
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