Wallflower 2

Chapter 176

(Jade's P.O.V)
Sammy and I walked in the house and Taylor was sitting on one of the couches alone. Everyone else was talking. He looked at me and we locked eyes. 'Can we talk?' He mouthed and I nodded. We walked upstairs to my room and he began talking.
"Is there anything going on between you and Sammy?" He asked.
"No Taylor." I replied.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
"Yes Taylor Jesus Christ." I rolled my eyes.
"Don't get all snippy on me." Taylor scoffed.
"How can I be all happy when you ruined my fucking birthday?" I said.
"We can just forget about it." Taylor replied.
"That's the problem. All we ever do is "forget" about things and I always forgive you, only to be hurt again." I crossed my arms.
"It's easier to move on than dwell on the past." Taylor said.
"Well I don't like being hurt constantly but I always fall back into your love trap." I said.
"It's like you don't even want to be with me anymore!" Taylor raised his voice.
"That's not even true! Stop putting words into my mouth! It's just exhausting going back to you day after day!" I yelled back.
"I need you but you act like you don't care about me at all! I'm sorry for being so insecure!" Taylor threw his hands in the air.
"I do care about you but you're constantly hurting me! I could easily cheat on you right now Taylor but I'm choosing not too because I'm not you! I won't go make out with someone because I can!" I yelled.
"I'm so fucking sick of this! We shouldn't even be together anymore then!" Taylor yelled back.
"I hate you!" I screamed.
"Whatever Jade! I know you don't mean that!" Taylor yelled.
"Fine!" I shouted.
"Fine!" Taylor replied.
"Good!" I grabbed my phone from my nightstand and walked towards the door.
"Good!" Taylor said.
I ran downstairs and out the door. I'm so heated right now. I ran as far as I could without stopping. I ended up at least 30 minutes from the house. I ended up in an abandoned area where no one really goes. It was a desert. I began to sob and screamed, letting everything out.
"Why?!" I screamed as loud as I could.
There was a stone on the ground so I picked it up and threw it.
"Why did you chose me?! What did I ever fucking do to you?!" I screamed.
I was sobbing uncontrollably and I was scratching at my arm in attempt to hurt myself. I took my nails across my arm violently and left 4 scratches on it. Undid the same to my other arm. Blood was dripping down my arms now. Things have been built up so much lately and joe in letting it out.
"Why?!" I screamed one last time before falling down to my knees.
I sat there in the dirt sobbing, getting dirt on my knees and Sammy's hoodie that I wore to bed last night. My phone was ringing none stop but I didn't answer it. I just kept sobbing and screaming. I can't take this.
I heard a car driving on the dirt road and I looked up and saw Kian's car driving towards me. I stood up quickly and began to run but the car slammed on the breaks and Kian, Matt, and Sam got out of the car. Matt chased after me since he was the fastest and I ran faster but he grabbed me. He wrapped his arms around me so I couldn't move my arms and he carried me back for he car while I was kicking and screaming.
"Let me go Matt!" I yelled but he didn't let me go.
He put me down once we reached Kian's car but he gripped the top of my arm where it wasn't bleeding.
"What did you do to yourself?!" Kian yelled.
"I scratched at my arm. Big deal." I rolled my eyes.
"Big deal? You're right his is a big deal! You ran off to the fucking desert Jade! You could've gotten kidnapped!"
Kian yelled.
"Whatever Kian! I don't care!" I yelled back.
"Jade, get in the car." Sam said.
"No." I said with attitude.
"Jade Elizabeth Pottorff get into the damn car!" Sam yelled and I shook my head.
"No! Let me go Matthew!"
I yelled.
"I'm sorry but I can't do that." Matt said.
I tried to pry his hand off of my arm but Matt threw me over his shoulder and I started pounding his back.
"Let me go!" I yelled.
"We were so fucking worried about you! You need to stop running off! Tell people where you're going from now on!" Sam yelled.
Matt put me into the back of Kian's car and sat next to me. Kian and Sam got in the front seats and Kian began driving.
"I'm sorry." Matt whispered in my ear.
"Don't talk to me." I snapped and Matt sighed.
We arrived at the house and I pushed passed everyone and to the bathroom to wash off my arms. I washed my arms off and then walked back downstairs.
"I'm walking to my apartment. Do you want me to tell you what time I'll arrive at? Or I could just set up cameras around the house so you can make sure I don't go anywhere."
I said to Kian.
"Enough Jade. Matt, why don't you go with her." Kian said.
"Oh so I need a babysitter now?" I crossed my arms.
Everyone else sat there in shock at how sassy I was being.
"You need supervision so you don't run off." Sam said.
"Since when do you care?" I spat.
"Since you were fucking born. I'm your older brother." Sam said.
"Whatever. I'm leaving." I walked towards the door but Kian stopped me.
"You need to stop. You're going to get seriously hurt Jade Elizabeth Pottorff." Kian angrily said.
"Stop acting like my brother because you're not."
I spat and walked out of the house. When I arrived at the house I walked inside and slammed the door shut. I'm so angry right now with life. I want to scream again.
"Fuck you Taylor!" I screamed.
I grabbed the glass cup that was sitting on the coffee table and chucked it at the wall and it shattered to pieces. I started to cry again but it was angry tears. This day has been horrible and it's not even half over yet.
I kicked over one of the small plastic tables that was in the house and the leg broke off. I grabbed the picture frame with a picture of Taylor and I in it off of the coffee table and threw it on the ground. It shattered. I ran up to my room and threw a pillow on to the ground. I haven't been this angry in a while. I heard the front door open as I screamed.
"I hate you I hate you I hate you!" I screamed.
"Jade?! What are you doing?!" I heard Taylor yell from downstairs.
I ran downstairs and Taylor looked terrified at my anger.
"What the hell are you doing here?!" I screamed.
"I-I came to check on you."
Taylor stuttered.
"Why?! So you can dump me and tell me what I did wrong?!" I yelled.
"Babe." Taylor said.
"Don't call me babe! This is all your fault! You've fucked me up so bad! I wish we never even met." I yelled.
"Jade, don't say that. You're just mad. It's the anger talking."' Taylor grabbed my hand and I yanked it away.
"No! You made me this way!"
I yelled.
"Please stop Jade. You're actually scaring me." Taylor said.
"I don't give a shit! You hurt me so bad and I hate you!" I screamed.
"No you don't. You don't hate me." Taylor's voice cracked.
"Yes I do!" I yelled.
"I'm sorry I've been a shitty boyfriend. We haven't even been dating for that long but I'm so sorry. I love you so much. You're my princess. I need you." Taylor said.
"You don't need me. If you loved me you wouldn't have done this to me." I said.
"Jade, I love you so much. I love you more than life itself, but maybe we should take a break then." Taylor said and my heart dropped.
"What?" I said as my anger turned to sadness.
"We're In a very rough spot and it's only getting worse so maybe we could take a break and try to be friends or be distant from each other to see how things work out. If we're happier then we shouldn't be together. If we're miserable then we could get back together." Taylor said.
"I-I'm sorry." I whispered.
"Me too." Taylor pressed his lips to mine and kept them there for about 6 seconds.
He pulled away and looked me in the eyes.
"I love you. Bye Jade Elizabeth." Taylor left the house.
I stood there in shock. A few minutes later I cleaned up the house and sat down on the couch. We just took a break.
We just broke up.
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I'm on an updating roll. I kind of got emotionally while writings this :(
Love you all