Wallflower 2

Chapter 174

(Jade's P.O.V)
It's 12 am and I'm laying in bed crying. It's not my birthday anymore though. I really wanted this birthday to be fun and it was for part of the night, but after that it just crumbled.
I was still in my dress and by now I was full on sobbing. My phone has been going off with so many calls and texts but I'm ignoring it. I need to go somewhere, anywhere but here. I changed into a pair of yoga shorts and Sammy's school hoodie from high school. I slipped on my vans and put my phone in my hoodie pocket. I walked downstairs quietly just in case everyone came back, but when I got downstairs no one was here. Thank god.
I walked out of the house and down to my Neverland: the beach. Tears were still falling down my face as I walked. I sat down on the sand and listened to the waves. It sounded so peaceful just being here alone and listening to the waves. I sat there, drowning in my thoughts. My phone kept ringing so I finally answered. It was Sammy.
"Hello? Jade?" Sammy said.
"Y-yeah?" I shakily said.
"Oh my god." He breathed. "Where are you?" Sammy asked.
"I'm at home." I lied.
"Okay. I'm sorry about everything. We'll be there in a few minutes." Sammy said and then he ended the call.
I can't believe I just lied to Sammy. I usually never lie to him, but I just want to be alone right now.
Where did I go wrong? I thought Taylor and I were perfectly fine. Then all of this happens. I just need to give up already. I love Taylor, I really do, but I know he doesn't love me. It's so frustrating.
My phone rang again so I answered it.
"You're not at home. Where the hell are you?!" Sammy sounded panicked.
"Neverland." I whispered and hung up.
If he didn't hear me, oh well. The beach is literally like 1 minute from the house. I hope he doesn't come bad he just lets me be alone. If someone comes here, I'll probably just start sobbing again soon and I don't want to.
"Jade?" I heard Sammy.
I turned around and saw him. I stood up and got the sand off of me as he ran towards me and hugged me tightly.
"We were so worried." Sammy whispered.
"I'm perfectly fine." I said blankly.
"I'm so so sorry about everything tonight. I didn't mean to tell at you. Taylor was upsetting me and I'm so sorry. It was your birthday and I should've just walked away from him when stuff started. I'm sorry Lizzie. I realize that I'm a dick and you probably won't forgive me but I regret everything. I'm so sorry." Sammy apologized.
"Sammy, it's not your fault. It's mine for actually thinking I could do something right in this world." I said as my voice cracked and I began crying again.
Sammy lifted me up bridal style and carried me back to the house. I cried the whole way there. He set me down in front of the door and I wiped my face. We walked in and everyone rushed towards me and hugged me.
"I'm fine guys. Just go sit down. It's okay." I said.
"We were so worried. Please stop running off like that." Sam said.
"I'm sorry. I just wanted to be alone. I'm going to bed now. Goodnight guys." I hugged everyone and then went up to bed.
I set my phone on the nightstand next to my bed when I reached my room, then collapsed on the bed in and puddle of tears. I buried my face into my blanket so my sobs were muffled. I'm so over all of this.
My door opened and Zoe came in and sat down on my bed. She rubbed my back as I cried and I sat up.
"What did I do Zoe? All I did was try to have fun with my best friends and then I get in trouble for it?" I sobbed.
"Jay, it wasn't your fault. Come here." Zoe hugged me.
"People just don't understand us girls. We have so much built up inside and we don't like to cry in front of people because then we'll feel like attention seekers. We just want someone who understands us." Zoe tried to comfort me but I just couldn't stop crying and she realized that.
"I'm going to go get Sammy. You guys are childhood best friends, he'll understand." Zoe smiled.
Zoe walked out and Sammy came up a few minutes later. I just sat in bed sobbing. He shut the door behind him and sat down on the bed with me. It was silent for about 2 minutes.
"Remember that time you were crying over that stupid John guy in 7th grade? And I told you that as long as you have your friends and your family you're okay? And remember that time that you were upset over that guy in 9th grade? I told you that everyone has a source of light in their darkness and I told you that you were mine." Sammy said.
"I-I remember." I said.
"You're my source of light. You were all I had at one point and I will forever remember how great you were." Sammy grabbed my hand.
"I-I just can't do this anymore. It was my birthday and of course stuff just had to start. I just w-wish I had my parents and N-nat." I sobbed.
Sammy hugged me tightly.
"God I hate seeing you like this. It's all going to be okay. You might not believe me but it's true. I love you so much Jade." Sammy said.
"I-I love you t-too." I managed to say.
I felt tears on my shoulder and I realized that Sammy was crying. Whenever one of us was upset, the other one was too. That's just how we are. Sammy pulled away from me and wiped his tears, then mine.
"Stop crying. We all love you. This is just a rough patch in your life and you'll get through it." Sammy said.
I calmed myself and stopped sobbing. Only a few tears fell down my cheeks.
"Good job Liz. Do you want to go to bed? Cause I'll stay right here by your side." Sammy said.
"I'll just stay up here. You can go downstairs, it's okay." I said.
"I'll let you be alone then because I don't want to bother you. I'll check on you later. And by the way Taylor went back to the Magcon house." Sammy kissed my forehead then left.
I laid back down and my phone kept going off with messages. I grabbed it and check them. They were all from Taylor.
'I'm sorry babe. I didn't mean to blow up like that. Please talk to me.'
'I know I fucked up just please come talk to me. I love you.'
'I need you okay. I'm sorry.'
Those were only a few of the messages. I decided to call him. He picked up after one ring.
"Listen, it was my fucking birthday and you decided to start shit. Just stop because I'm extremely pissed off right now and hurt. This has got to stop Taylor. Goodbye." I said.
"Wait-" I cut Taylor off by hanging up.
I threw my phone on to the bed and screamed into my pillow and cried. Why can't life just be simple? I'm so sick of this.
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Kind of a short chapter so I'm sorry.
Love you all