Wallflower 2

Chapter 139

(Jade's P.O.V)
I sat down next to Matt and Kian on the couch.
"Hey bean." I said to Kian.
Bean is Kian's nickname I always used to call him when we were younger. I never felt like saying Keen da bean so I shortened it.
"Really? You're bringing back bean?" Kian raised his eyebrows at me.
"Yes I am." I smiled proudly.
Kian chuckled.
"So what should we do to end the day?" Kian threw his arm around my shoulder.
"I don't know. What time is it?" I asked.
"It's 4 pm." Kian answered.
"Well, we could go penny boarding and just have a fun time." I said.
"Sounds fun. Let's go. Does everybody have their penny boards?" Kian asked everybody.
"None of us do so we can go get them real quick." Nash said.
"Alright. The rest of us will penny board there." Kian said.
"I have to changed though. It's hot out so I want to wear something cool." I said.
I went upstairs and changed my clothes. I wore a white crop top with Cali written on it with a floral bandeau under it, blue high wasted shorts, and my white converse. I grabbed my penny board and walked back downstairs.
"You look pretty." Kian smiled.
"Thanks bean." I smiled back. Andrea, Acacia, and the O2L guys grabbed their penny boards and we all went out to penny board to the Magcon house. The Magcon guys took their cars to their house. We waited for them outside their house and then started our adventure once they got out.
"Ready for out adventure?" I asked everybody.
"Yes!" They all yelled.
We all rode off on our penny boards. Kian slipped his hand in mine in the process. Don't worry, this is just friendly. Friends can hold hands too. Kian and I are to good of friends to be together. If we did date, it could ruin our friendship and I don't want that. Besides, I don't like Kian in that way anymore and he doesn't like me like that anymore.
Anyway, all of us rode off on our penny boards. The wind was blowing and it felt amazing. I glanced back a few times and saw Taylor trailing behind us all. He looked upset. I just have to give him time right now. Kian and I were starting to get shad of everybody but no one complained.
**
The sun began to set a few hours later. It's truly beautiful out.
"Can we do one last thing?" I asked.
"Sure. Anything." Sam said.
"Can we stop at the beach and hang out?" I asked.
Sam nodded and we all rode to the beach. The sound of the waves hitting the shore sounded beautiful. I sat down on the sand next to Kian and we watched the sunset. Everyone else watched it too. It was truly beautiful.
**
A few hours later we went back home. The Magcon and O2L guys still stayed at our house but Andrea, Acacia, and I don't mind. It was around 11 pm so I was pretty tired.
"Goodnight everyone. I'm getting tired." I kissed everyone on the cheek and gave them a hug except Taylor of course. I walked up to my room and I looked in the mirror. I sighed. I'm so fat. My thighs are touching and my stomach is huge. My hair is all messy and my makeup looks bad. I grabbed my thighs and sighed once more. I still have an eating problem. I eat everyday but I don't eat enough. I eat at least 1 or 2 meals a day. I looked away from the mirror and changed my clothes. I changed into a pair of sweats and a tank top.
"You know, you're not fat." I jumped at the voice.
"Kian, you scared me." I said.
"I'm sorry. I just, I can't see you look at yourself like that. Your thighs don't touch and your stomach is super flat. Your eating style is unhealthy. You barely eat. You'll die if you keep eating the way you do." Kian said.
"I see myself as a girl with touching thighs and a big stomach." I looked down.
"Well you're not. Look at these photos from just a few weeks ago Jade." Kian pointed to my wall of photos.
"Look how skinny you are. You're skinny and fit. You need to eat more. Please? Do it for me, the boys, and the girls?" Kian said sympathetically.
"I'll try." I sighed.
Kian hugged me tightly.
"Thank you Jade. You're suffering each day and I hate it. I love you." Kian calmly said.
"I love you too." I replied.
Kian kissed my forehead then left. I climbed into bed and closed my eyes. It's weird not having someone laying here with me but I feel fine. I don't feel like laying in bed right now. I want to just go lay under the stars. I got up and walked out on to my balcony. I laid on the lawn couch on my balcony and looked up at the stars. I fell asleep thinking of Taylor.
(Taylor's P.O.V)
I sat on the girls' couch and sighed. Everyone else is asleep and I just can't fall asleep. I miss Jade so much. She's my whole world and I let her go. I see how much Gilinsky likes her and I don't want to upset him by getting with Jade again. I love her. I really do. Sometimes it seems like I don't but I do. Maybe I can go upstairs and lay with her real quick. She's probably asleep by now. I got up without waking anybody and quietly walked to Jade's room. She wasn't in her room when I went up there. I looked out on to the balcony and saw her. I smiled, remembering how we used to look at the stars together. I walked out to the balcony and she was sound asleep. It's cooled off here in Cali so she was shaking. I bent down and stroked her cheek. She's so beautiful. I carefully picked her up bridal style and carried her inside. I took off my sweat shirt and carefully slipped it on her since she was shaking. I planted a gentle kiss on her forehead and smiled. My smile began to fade once I realized that she's no longer mine. God I miss her cuddles. She's a great cuddlier. I miss placing my head on her stomach and wrapping my arms around her waist at night. I miss everything about her. She's so caring and kind.
Jade began to stir and I knew it was time to go. She could wake up and see me, that'd be awkward and embarrassing. I kissed her forehead one last time before I left. I sighed while looking at her sleeping body from her doorway. I quietly shut the door and walked back downstairs. I laid down on the couch and went to sleep, thinking of Jade.
**
(Jade's P.O.V)
I woke up in my bed. I must've fell asleep outside and someone got me. I was wearing Taylor's hoodie he wore yesterday. Weird. I walked to my bathroom and brushed my teeth, then I walked downstairs.
"Good morning everybody." I said.
"Good morning Jade." Everyone replied.
I walked out to the kitchen and saw Taylor. He was shirtless.
"Oh. Hey." Taylor said.
"Hey." I replied.
Awkward.
"I uh, I brought you inside last night. I was going upstairs to the uh, bathroom and decided to check on you and you weren't in bed so I checked your balcony a-and saw you out there. You were shivering so I brought you inside and put my hoodie on you." Taylor scratched the back of his neck.
"Thanks Taylor. That's very sweet and thoughtful of you." I smiled.
"No problem." Taylor returned the smile.
I walked to the fridge and scanned through it. Taylor was staring at me the whole process but I decided not to say anything so he wouldn't get embarrassed. I grabbed a slice of watermelon and headed back out to the living room. I sat next to Kian and Matt. I was talking to Kian and took a bite of my watermelon. It tasted amazing. I looked over to Matt just as he bite a piece of my watermelon off.
"Matthew Lee Espinosa get your own damn watermelon!" I shouted.
Everyone bursted out into fits of laughter. I dropped my watermelon in Matt's lap on purpose and went to the kitchen. I grabbed a new slice of watermelon and ate that peacefully in the kitchen alone so no one could eat my watermelon.
"Hey pretty girl." I heard a voice.
I turned around and saw Gilinsky. I jumped up and hugged him.
"Where have you been?" I asked.
Jack hasn't been here for a few days so I was starting to worry.
"I just took some time to myself." He smiled.
I kissed his cheek and we walked back out to the living room. Taylor isn't here. He must've went back to the house. I miss him so much. It may not seem like it but I miss him. Through all of my smiles I'm broken. I need him.
At this point I didn't feel like being around people anymore. I got up and walked to my room. I shut the door and laid on my bed. I'm still depressed and not eating. I told Kian I'd eat but it's hard. I miss Taylor. I'm a walking depressed mess. All of this pain is hurting and there's only one way I've known to relive this. I stood up and walked to the bathroom. I opened the drawer on the sink and grabbed my blades. I haven't cut in a few weeks. Nows the time.
(Jack's P.O.V)
Jade got up and walked to her room. I can tell she's still depressed. She doesn't eat still. Taylor's depressed too and he doesn't really eat either. Both of them are in pain and they need each other. I need to get them back together.
"I'll be back. I'm going to see Taylor." I said.
"Why?" Nash asked.
"To get him and Jade back together. They're both depressed and I hate it." I said.
I walked out the door and got into my car. I sped to the house and got out. I walked inside and went to Taylor's room.
"Taylor. It's me, Jack." I said as I knocked on his door.
"Come in." He croaked.
As I walked in I saw his features. His eyes were droopy and he looked like he hadn't slept in days. That's because he hasn't.
"Listen, we need to talk about Jade." I said.
"Jade." Taylor whined.
Tears formed in his eyes just as the sound of her name.
"She's depressed Taylor. She still barely eats. I know she misses you. She also still loves you. You can't let a good and beautiful girl like her go to waste. She needs you. She smiles but everyone can tell she's sad. Her eyes will be watering and she'll still smile. You have to go to her. We were sitting on the couch with everyone and she got up and went to her room. She always does this and won't come down for days. You have to go over there Taylor." I said.
Taylor jumped up and got his shoes on as well as a beanie. He had pants on with no shirt.
"I'm going." He said.
He grabbed his phone and his keys and ran out the door to his car. Yes I have feelings for Jade but her and Taylor needs each other and I won't stop them from being together. I'm actually happy that they might be together. They'll finally be happy I hope.
(Taylor's P.O.V)
I sped to Jade's house and I managed to not get pulled over. When I arrived I jumped out of the car and ran inside.
"Is Jade in her room?" I asked quickly.
"Yeah." Sam responded.
I ran upstairs as fast as I could. I stopped outside her door and pressed my ear to it. Silence. I opened the door slowly and quietly. She wasn't in her room. I looked to the bathroom and saw her standing there with a blade going across her skin. Horror filled my whole body.
"Stop!" I yelled, causing her to jump.
She dropped the bloody blade to the ground and stood there. Horror filled her face.
"T-Taylor I-" She was lost for words.
"Why are you doing this?!" I yelled, tears streaming down my face.
"I-I'm sorry." She bursted into tears.
I turned on the water and grabbed a cloth. I wetted the cloth with the sink water and gently cleaned her arms up. During the process of me cleaning her arms, all you could heard was our sniffles. When I finished, she spoke up quietly.
"Thanks." She said.
"I don't want you to do that anymore. It hurts me and everyone else so much Jade." I said.
"I'm sorry Taylor." She faintly said.
"I came here to talk to you. I need you Jade. I haven't slept or ate in days. I know you haven't been good either. Jack told me you haven't been eating and you're still depressed. I need you back. I miss your lips, you're hugs, you're cuddles, everything. I can't function without you at all. I've felt so numb since I told you that we should be just friends. I can't be just friends. I-I love you Jade. You're my world. " I spoke.
"I love you too Tay." She smiled.
I brought her face to mine and kissed her. God I've missed her lips. I pulled away and hugged her.
"God I've missed you so much. Please forgive me for everything. I love you." I said.
"I forgive you Tay. I love you too." She replied.
I kissed her forehead and sighed in relief. I'm glad to have her back. I love her. We'll be together forever one day.
**
I finally updated. I haven't been feeling the best. My boy friend never kisses me or holds my hand anymore and I'm very upset. I try talking to him about it and all he'll say is he loves me and he's sorry. He won't change anything though. He knows about all of my problems too. Sorry for wasting your time on this.
On a positive note, I'm happy to see the amount of reads on my two books. I love it!
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