Wallflower 2

Chapter 134

(Jade's P.O.V)
After my talk with Matt, I went up to my room and sat down on my bed. Taylor was downstairs with the boys so I was alone. Taylor is so sweet. I can't believe he went through all of that work just for me yesterday. It's really sweet, but I also still remember everything that has happened. It really gets me down sometimes like now. I began thinking about how Taylor went out with all those girls and it hurt me. He acted like he didn't care and I hated it.
As I began to think about all of those I grew sadder and sadder each minute. I started to cry and I bowed my head. I sat there with tears running down my face. My parents are dead, Nat's dead, Taylor hurt me badly, I have depression, anxiety, and I want to die. I hate being like this.
"Hey Jade, I'm going to StarBucks want to-oh my god what happened?" Jack G rushed towards me and shut my door.
"N-nothing. I'm okay." I wiped my tears quickly.
"No you're not. I'm here for you Jade. You can tell me what happened and you can trust me." Jack laid his hand on my thigh.
I took a deep breath, then spoke.
"Well, I'm just thinking about everything that's happened from my parents, to Nat, to Taylor. It's just hard to deal with these things. It's hard to deal with my issues and my thoughts. What all Taylor has done still haunts me. I hate it Jack." I started to cry again and he pulled me to him.
"Shhh. Let it out gorgeous let it out. I'm here for you. Everything will be okay. What Taylor has done is in the past. He really does love you. He talks about you sometimes and you make him happy. I know about the girl that killed herself because of him but he'll be ready soon I know it. You make a lot of people happy but you don't know it yet. You make me extremely happy." Jack comforted me.
I can't tell if I have feelings for Jack or not. I used to, but I'm not sure if I still do.
"It's just so hard. I never thought Taylor would do any of that. I know he apologized and stuff and I do love him but it's so hard because what he did permanently scarred me. I hate it so much. I feel like I should move on from him but I can't and I don't want to." I sobbed into Jack's chest.
Jack stroked my hair and pulled me on to his lap.
"Shhh. It's okay princess. You'll get through this. I've seen you get through tough situations before so I know you'll get through this. I won't let you go through this alone though. I'm always here for you if you ever need someone so don't be afraid to come to me if anything happens. I like you, a lot. I'd do anything for you." Jack said.
My mind says to kiss him and so does my body but Taylor would be crushed. What do I do? Take the chance and do it, or make Taylor upset. Would he be upset? Well, he's kissed plenty of girls so I can kiss Jack. I need to know if I have feelings for him. Fuck it. I'm going for it.
I turned my head and crashed my lips to his. I leaned over so I was on top of Jack and he was a little surprised at first, but then he realized what was happened and kissed me back. I straddled his waist and he pressed his thumbs against hips. Jack is a really good kisser too. Jack flipped us over so he was on top and asked for an entrance. Of course I let him it. I have to admit, Jack is freaking hot.
Anyway, we had a hot make out session for a good 10 minutes. He pulled away and smiled.
"I've been waiting for years for that to happen." He smiled.
"So have I believe it or not." I smiled back.
I felt something when we kissed. It was a pretty good amount of sparks but not as much as Taylor. 1 out of 100, me and Taylor's sparks are 100 but Jack's are probably a 86. That's still pretty big.
"Did you feel anything?" Jack asked.
"Yes. Did you?" I asked.
"Yes." He said.
I grabbed the back of Jack's head and pulled him back down to my lips. Our lips connected again and it felt great. Jack slipped his hand up my shirt and grabbed my thigh with his other hand. This is probably wrong, but Taylor did it to me. I heard the door open and shut again. Jack jumped off of me and I panicked.
"Oh my god what if that was Taylor. He's going to be so pissed." I said.
"Calm down. It's okay gorgeous. We can just go talk to him." Jack calmed me down.
I took a deep breath and walked out the door. I walked down stairs and asked where Taylor went. Nash said he walked out the door. I didn't even bother to put shoes on, I just walked out the door and looked around for him. I spotted him walking down the street so I ran to catch up with him.
"Taylor I'm sorry. He was comforting me and it just happened." I said.
Taylor stopped walking and turned to face me.
"It's fine. I just need to clear my head a little. I love you." Taylor replied.
He kissed my lips and walked off. I was stunned for a second. He's so calm. I turned and walked back to the house. I walked back to my room and Jack was sitting on my bed.
"Did you see him?" He asked.
"Y-yeah. I said I was sorry and that you were comforting me and it just happened and said its okay and that he needed to clear his head. Then he said he loved me and walked off. It was so weird. He was so calm." I said.
"He's done this. He'll get mad about something and take a walk to go clear his mind and then he won't come back for days." Jack said.
"Oh god. Do you think he'll come back later tonight?" I asked.
"Hard saying with him." Jack shrugged.
I sighed and sat on my bed.
"How about you just lay down and rest." Jack said.
I nodded and laid down on my bed. Jack opened my door but I stopped him.
"Wait, don't go." I said.
Jack shut the door and turned around.
"Come lay with me." I said.
Jack walked over to my bed and laid down. We didn't lay underneath the covers since it was daylight and hot out. I laid on my side and Jack laid his hand on my hip.
"Will you sing for me?" I asked.
I love the Jack's and Shawn's singing. They sing so good. Jack began singing No Faith in Brooklyn by Hoodie Allen. I smiled because he knows I love Hoodie Allen. I haven't met Hoodie but I hope I do sometime. Kian and the rest of the guys have met him since they're good friends with him but normally I'm busy when they meet up with him. Anyway, Jack was singing a variety of songs to me and soon my eyes got heavy and closed them.
"Sleep well gorgeous." Jack said and kissed my temple.
He wrapped his arms around my waist but still sang. The last thing I heard him singing was We're Going Home by Drake before I fell asleep.
**
I cold breeze blew over my body. I opened my eyes and heard muffled voices talking.
"She said she felt something when we kissed." Someone said.
"Well she feels stuff with me so leave her alone." A voice said.
Taylor and Gilinsky. Taylor came back from clearing his mind I guess. I closed my eyes so I could hear more.
"I get what happened with the girl but seriously Taylor, you haven't even asked Jade to be your girl friend and you guys have a promise ring together. You made out with other girls and invited them places and you knew Jade was in love with you. I don't know why she keeps coming back to you. You're a player." Jack spat.
"I saved her fucking life many times before. I just saved her life a few weeks ago too. Did you ever save her life? No you didn't." Taylor said back with just as much harshness.
"I didn't save her life but I also didn't tell her I love her and then go find a random slut and make out with her!" Jack yelled.
"Shut the fuck up! That was in the past!" Taylor yelled back.
"Just because it's in the past doesn't mean she won't forget it!" Jack stepped towards Taylor.
"Whatever. She loves me and you can't have her. Ever. She's mine." Taylor said.
"She's not your girlfriend. You made out with other girls. You took other girls home. You grinded on other girls. You didn't commit to her so she isn't yours. If I want her, I'll go after her and make her mine. I'd be able to treat her better than you ever could. I wouldn't cheat on her or make out with other girls. You knew that all of us guys have a crush on her. You knew that I liked her out of all of the guys. Even Jc has a crush on her. Any of us can go after her and honestly, I hope someone does because then you'll see what you're missing out on. I hope some guy steals her heart away and she takes off that promise ring. You fucked up Taylor. She may think she wants to be with her, but she should really say fuck you and forget about your sorry ass. I hope she finds someone who treats her right. Whether that's me or one of the boys, she'll find someone better. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go downstairs and have fun with the guys. Think about what all I've said because you'll regret what you've done to that poor girl even more." Jack walked out of the room and down the stairs.
Taylor stood there speechless. He sat down on the floor with his back against my bed.
"He's right." Taylor whispered.
"I don't deserve her at all." I opened my eyes and saw Taylor looking straight ahead at the wall.
"I'm a failure." Taylor whispered.
I got up from my bed but Taylor didn't move.
"You're not a failure Taylor." I sat down next him.
"I don't deserve you." Taylor said.
"That may be true, but I love you." I said.
"You should go be with someone else." Taylor said with no emotion.
"What?" I asked.
"Go be with someone else. I'm not loyal. I don't deserve you." Taylor said.
"Tay, don't say that. I love you-" He cut me off.
"I love you too but go be with someone else." Taylor said.
"I don't want to. I want to be with you. I only love you." I spoke, my voice breaking.
"Go away." Taylor said.
"What? No. Taylor don't do this to me." Tears filled my eyes.
"Go away Jade. You need to go be with someone else. Maybe in a few weeks we can try things again but for now I need you to go." Taylor stood up.
"Taylor please." I pleaded.
"Go away Jade Elizabeth. Know that I love you." I stood up as well.
Taylor pressed his lips to mine and held them there for a few minutes. He pulled away and spoke.
"I'm leaving now. I love you. I hope you find someone who will treat you right. Maybe we an try things again but for now we'll have to be friends." Taylor slowly backed out of my room.
"Bye." He said and left.
I stood there, motionless. I couldn't function. I only wanted to go see Kian. I grabbed my phone and shuffled down the stairs. Everyone was in the living room laughing except Taylor. He was sitting at the kitchen table texting.
"I-I'm going to the O2L house. I'll be back soon." I stuttered.
"Jade, you okay?" Matt asked and I nodded.
He stood up and walked over to me. He hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead.
"Be safe." He said and I nodded.
Jack stood up quickly and kissed my cheek and sat back down. I walked out of the house and walked down the street. It doesn't take long to get to the O2L house by foot. It's only about 10 to 15 minutes. I walked to the house and thought about what just happened. I love Taylor a lot. I never thought he'd do this.
When I arrived at the O2L house, everyone's cars were gone except Kian's. Perfect. I slowly walked up to the door and knocked. Kian answered and didn't look surprised to see me there.
"I heard what happened. Come here." Kian opened his arms.
I ran into his arms and bawled my eyes out. He shut the door and walked us over to the couch. I sobbed into his chest and he held me. He rubbed my back and stroked my hair.
"Shhh. It's okay baby girl. I'm here for you." Kian said.
I've missed hanging out with Kian. We were so close but then I got so caught up in guys that I forgot about my friends.
"I-I love him." I sobbed.
"I know you do babe I know you do." Kian pulled me on to his lap.
He held me and rocked my back and fourth like a child.
"Calm down Jade. It's going to be okay. I know you don't want to hear this but maybe you should give another guy a chance. Possibly Gilinsky. Or you can take a break from it all." Kian said.
"You're right." I wiped my tears.
I told Kian the rest of the story about how Gilinsky and I fell asleep together and everything.
"I'm sorry you got all caught up in this boy drama." Kian apologized.
"It's not your fault. Don't apologize." I said.
"Hey guys-" Kian and I looked to the door.
Sam was standing there with the rest of the boys and he looked angry.
"Sam, what's wrong?" Kian asked.
"It was Taylor wasn't it." Sam said as he took in my tear soaked face.
"Sam, please don't." I pleaded.
"He hurt my baby sister and I won't stand for it." Sam said through gritted teeth.
"Just go for a walk Sam and calm down." Connor said.
Sam slammed the door when he walked out.
"What happened Jade." Jc sat down next to me.
The rest of the boys came and sat down as well. I looked at Kian, asking him to tell them.
"Jade and Gilinsky kissed and Taylor saw and went out for a walk to calm himself and so Jade and Gilinsky decided to just fall asleep. When Jade woke up, Gilinsky and Taylor were arguing and Gilinsky told Taylor that one day Jade would find a guy who'd treat her better and then he left her room. Jade tried talking to Taylor and he just told her to go away and to find someone else." I began to cry again when Kian finished.
The boys all group hugged with Kian and I.
"I'm sorry that this happened Jade. Taylor can say things he doesn't mean at time but we all know he does love you a lot." Ricky said.
"Thanks guys. I love you guys." I said.
"We love you too." Trevor said.
They all kissed my face and then pulled away.
**
I left the house after a few hours. Sam didn't come back yet though. I felt my phone vibrate as I walked out of the O2L house.
Matty☺️💜😍- Im sorry about what happened with Taylor. Be safe baby girl. Love you😘💙
I slid my phone back into my pocket and continued walking. The sun is going to set soon so I can stop at the beach to watch it. I walked to the beach and sat on the sand. It's really beautiful here in California. It's warm and the sunsets are beautiful and breath taking. About 10 minutes later the sun started to go down and that beautiful sunset appeared. I love the sunsets here. The only sound was the waves hitting the rocks and birds singing. There was a few other people here on this beach but they were far away from me. It's nice to come out here and just take in all of the features. I grabbed my ear buds and my phone from my pocket and put my ear buds in. I played Big City Dreams by Never Shout Never since I love them. I sat on the beach for a good 45 minutes, then got up to go back home. It was dark now and the stars were out. As I got up and began walking I felt like someone was following me. I felt this before and someone actually was following me that time. That was the time Taylor beat the crap out of that guy for touching me. I began to jog and I coils hear footsteps behind me. I picked up my pace and ran. I turned around and saw a guy chasing me. He caught up to me and grabbed my wrist.
"Get the hell off me!" I yelled as I tried to get my wrist out of his grip but he wouldn't budge.
"I'm not letting you go no matter how much you plead." The guy smirked.
He pulled me close to him and I screamed. I'm scared to death right now. The guy grabbed my arm and pulled me and I squirmed.
"Shut up." He harshly said but I didn't stop screaming.
He turned around and showed his gun. Are you freaking serious?!
"Shut up or I'll shoot you." He said.
If the guy wants to steal me and use or abuse me then he won't kill me now so I screamed. He turned around again and smacked the handle of his gun to my forehead. I screamed once again and held my head. A liquid was coming from the where he hit me. Blood. My eyes widened. I had to do something. I kicked my leg and hit him between his legs. He fell to the ground and I took off running. My vision was blurry from when he hit me in the head. I reached my house and there was no cars in the driveway. I locked the door and saw a note on the kitchen table.
Be back soon. Went out to the club for a bit. None of us are drinking though so we'll get home safe. Taylor went home so don't worry about him. xx Andrea, Acacia, and the boys.
They seriously had to leave now?! I quickly locked all the doors and shut all the curtains. I also shut off all of the lights. I ran to the kitchen and grabbed the biggest knife I could find which was a knife probably used to cut watermelon and that's a huge knife. I heard banging on the door and I ran up to my room. I shut the door and locked it. I ran into my closet and shut the door. I grabbed my phone with my shaky hands and texted the first person I thought of.
J- Jack. I was at the beach and I was walking home and it was dark and some guy was following me and tried to take me. He hit me with his gun in the head and I'm bleeding. My vision is getting blurry. He's here outside. He followed me home! I'm scared😭😭
They're all at the club so I don't know if he'll get my message. I can text Kian! As I typed to Kian, the worst thing possible in this situation happened... My phone died! That's great! A few minutes later I heard glass break and I began crying. I silently prayed for Jack to get my message.
"Come out come out wherever you are." The guys eerie voice said.
His voice sent a chill up my spine. I heard footsteps coming up the stairs and I closed my eyes. The door knob jiggled and I held my breath.
"Jackpot." He said and kicked my door in.
I covered my mouth to keep from screaming. I could see him through the little slots in the door. He turned around and walked towards the door. I wasn't able to see that far from the closer but I heard the door shut. I breathed out and the closet door bursted open and he grabbed me. I held on to the door and he dragged me by my ankles, causing me to drop my knife. I screamed.
"Let me go!" I screamed.
"Not a chance." He smirked.
He threw me on my bed and pinned me down. He reached in his pocket and pulled out rope. Who the hell keeps rope in their pockets? Oh that's right, rapists and kidnappers. He tied my wrists to the bed posts and did the same to my ankles. I began to cry again and he started laughing.
"Aww. Look. Little baby is scared." He stuck his bottle lip out, then laughed again.
"Well, to bad no ones here to save you." He laughed.
He tore off my shirt and I squirmed around.
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Do you think Jack will get her message? Find out in the next chapter. Are you shocked from what happened in this chapter? I might try to double update to fill you guys in more :)
Love you all!