(y/n)'s POV:
"I could say the same thing if I'm honest..." I replied to Kyojuro. Probably with an excuse he came out from the hospital room to come after me so he could talk to me. "Kyojuro..."
Averting my gaze from him I tried to think of a way to explain all those things that ran through my mind, now knowing that he wasn't lying to me about his mother. I tried to form an apology in my brain but to no avail. I didn't even know where to start.
I guess he knew that too, because he stayed silent and waited for me to collect my thoughts. His eyes pierced my skin. I knew very well that he was watching me while me on the other hand was unable to make eye contact.
"I-..." I trailed off immediately, still not sure about the sentences I formed in my head. I wasn't certain what was the right way I should phrase them.
Rubbing my temples I finally turned to him to look up at his face. It didn't help one bit, rather made things even more difficult. I sighed. "I'm sorry for your mom..." As a start, this might help to begin a conversation... "I didn't know..."
"You did, because I told you." He replied, causing me to feel guilt rising within me.
"I know... I just-... I just thought that... No... I doubted your words because I thought that you only made up these excuses after you got what you wanted from me. You always disappeared every single time we have been together." I explained.
He sighed. "I never lied to you."
"I felt used... because you never explained yourself and the reason why you left. Just left a sticky note for me with a few words and cash on the counter as if I was a hoe..." I didn't raise my voice, because first of all, we were in a hospital, second, I didn't feel the need for it. I simply wanted to let him know how I felt each time he betrayed me and left me alone after we slept together.
"I never meant it that way. I thought you know that. I didn't mean to make you feel like you were just a girl for me who I paid for. I would never..." He averted his gaze for a few seconds before continuing. He looked quite sad. "I left money for you so you didn't have to spend yours. You are a university student and we both know how expensive are your studies. I tried to be kind."
I looked at him in disbelief. We have been misunderstanding each other up until now.
"I'm sorry..." He said. "Really..."
Out of a sudden my phone buzzed. I took it out from my pocket and saw a new message on the screen by my brother. I wrote to him a few days ago and he didn't answer me. That is until now. The conversation between us wasn't too important, just a simple checking up. We did that frequently. I'm used to it that sometimes he doesn't answer me for days.
So I wrote back to him, then put my phone away.
"Just... go on if it's important." Kyojuro told me, rubbing the back of his neck. "I know how it goes."
I blinked several times, before actually replying. "It's not... It's just my brother. We check up on each other sometimes. He won't answer me again for a couple of days I guess. He always does that."
Kyojuro raised his brows in confusion. "Brother? You have a brother?" He asked.
"Yes. You know... I envy you." I smiled bitterly.
"Why?"
"Your mother spoke a few words about your family. A younger son, a husband, and you... You have a whole family. I only have my brother..." Staring at my shoes I unintentionally recalled my memories of the car accident, showing a sad face.
"I'm sorry." Kyojuro said to me after a couple of moments of silence. He noticed how my mood changed suddenly but he didn't question it. Perhaps he didn't want to open up my wounds.
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F#cking Professor Rengoku - AU Rengoku x Reader +18
FanfictionA story in which (y/n) had an unforgettable one night stand with a kind, such a gentleman, but hot guy she met at the bar. However soon it turns out that the hot, monster in bed kind of man from that certain night is her new English teacher at her u...