Sacrifice || ENHYPEN FF

𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 4

Song: Fine - Taeyeon

-Start of Chapter 4-

"You are NOT going! This are my words and you are NOT disobeying them!!" Yeonjun oppa roars distressed still looing at the invitation. 

UGHHHH!!! WHY CAN'T I GO?!?!?!?!

"But I am the new guest for this year!!!" I groan as I slump onto the chair.

"I do not care Y/N. I said you are not going so that means you are not going! Mark my words, if you dare step out of these castle walls you shall never see sunlight!" Soobin oppa says sternly. "You may leave Y/N"

I walk out and close the door behind just enough for me to be not seen and peek through the gap.

"Why do ENHYPEN want HER at the ball?" Huening oppa asks Yeonjun oppa confused.

"I don't know Huening. Why would they want their enemies' sister at their ball?" Yeonjun oppa look at the invitation one last time and throws the invitation across the room.

"I'm pretty sure it's some threat to see Y/N. Who would want that useless brat at the ball anyways. She doesn't know anything about a ball and is sure to cause some trouble." My heart drops at Soobin oppa's words. 

Useless brat.

"I can't let a murderer like her let loose. She should be grateful that we kept her in the palace. I don't another life at cost. Not when she killed two innocent lives. Oh how that day was. How could she... " Yeonjun oppa's voice breaks as Soobin oppa pats him on the back. "Soobin you don't know how traumatising that scene for me. The whole picture still haunts me in my sleep. How she lay lifeless on the ground. Blood everywhere. Her beautiful face pale, colour drained. How can one expect the child in her womb to be alive after that. How could Y/N do that to her own sister and mothe-"

As Soobin oppa's words hung in the air, my breath quickened, and the strength in my legs seemed to evaporate. Without allowing him to finish, an urgent instinct propelled me into a sprint, as if my very life depended on the speed of my escape... 

I dash through countless rooms, struggling to maintain a steady breath. I flinch as my foot presses against the sharp heels. Tears start to blur my visions. 

I didn't do it... No... Never...I didn't do it.

I cry out in pain as I trip and collapse to the ground, my knees bearing the brunt of the fall, skin tearing into painful cuts. The cold, unfeeling floor absorbs both the tears streaming down my face and the blood oozing from my wounded knees.

"Oh heavens! Lady Y/N what happened?! Let me help you up!" I hear a servants voice exclaim as she runs over to me. I try to get up on my own. I don't want to talk to anyone right now. 

Leave me alone!

"Oh no! My Lady! You have hurt your knees, they are bleeding. Let me treat it with some medici-" the servant insists, but I bolt away before she can finish.

Where is my bedroom?!!? I want to be alone!  Tears continuously fall. I hear another servant ask me if I'm okay.

No I'm not okay!! I got reminded of my cursed past! How could I be fucking okay?!?!?

I see my bedroom as I run into it still sobbing. I hear the from before servant starting to come into my room with eyes full of pity. Pity... The face I hate the most.

"My Lady please let me treat your wou-"

"LEAVE ME FUCKING ALONE!!" I slam the doors at her face and lock the door. I turn my back facing the door, panting from all the running. 

I lean onto the door sliding down onto the floor. I whimper quietly, my face hidden, hands wrapped around my knees. 

I didn't do it. How could I do that to my own mother. Why don't my brothers believe me?... Maybe I did do it, by mistake... I WAS FIVE FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!.. And never would that to my own family... never... NEVER!! EVEN IF I TURNED CRAZY I WOULD NEVER!! 

I try to quieten down my wails and I feel my heart aching...

Would things be different if Mum was here? 

Would we be a happy family? 

Would my brothers still love me? 

Would I be a great unnie?... 

It's all my fault... Mum would be here... My little sister would be here... 

My dad would be here. He wouldn't have looked at me with all that disgust. Wouldn't have passed away due to the pain of seeing his wife and unborn child die... 

My family would be here...

It's all my fault... I collapse on the cold floor as I close my eyes, yet tears pouring out of them. 

I wipe them but they still kept coming. I kept wiping them away until all that left is a broken heart and painful cries echoing through my bedroom. 

I keep my eyes close.

I want go to sleep and never wake up.

I feel myself passing out.

It's all my fault... I'm sorry baby sis... I'm a monster...

I am sorry Mum...

-End of Chapter 4-

~author's note~

Hey guys!! Peng hiaaa!!! q(≧▽≦q)

I hope you like this chapter (￣▽￣)"

It's a bit short and slow ik (˘･_･˘)

Pls don't blame me cuz as I said before this is my first time writing one so cut me some slack. ( ఠ ͟ʖ ఠ)

While writing this chapter, I listened to Fine by Taeyeon to get the emotion out of me.          ＞﹏＜

Hopefully you guys felt the same emotion I felt while listening to it and reading. (┬┬﹏┬┬)

Anyways stay tuned for ch 5 next Sunday!!

Oki luv ya'll baiii <3

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