HER JOURNAL

MAY 04, 2025

At last, there is a day when you wake up without feeling heavy. Life's still life - ain't perfect and not completely merry. But this day is different from lately. This day is screaming "you're free." The burden you're carrying on your shoulders doesn't feel heavy. Perhaps, the storm in your mind finally calmed down. You're still the same person, flawed and imperfect. But you know deep within - a surreal feeling of hope and esteem - rushing into your blood keeping your heart beating.

The aesthetic of the morning seems like a dream. The warmth of the sun has touched your skin. The birds are singing and it gave you a sense of nostalgia - realizing the last time you payed attention to the wind, the birds, and the people around you was long ago. You've been too busy surviving. But today, you woke up from a deep sleep, thinking everything's mesmerizing.

This kind of day doesn't happen more often. Unless, you're still 5 years old. Because life back then was simple, not problematic. Phasing in every corner and you'll still find people to comfort you and make you feel safe and happy, there were hands for you to hold when you feel scared and gloomy, there were words of wisdom to fill your innocent heart and developing mind, there were friends you play with outdoors like recharging your energy.

Those were the days you sometimes long for. Not to always wrestle with Satan in hell just to survive another season. Just the child being loved fully - not worrying if you fall because people you trust will catch you. When you scrape your knees, you know they'll aid you. But growing up is realizing you need to stand up and be there for you. People you relied on can't always stay there with you forever.

You can't go back and you can't escape the present. Sometimes, all you could do is reminisce about the past and embrace the nostalgia. You're still a child and you still can take away your worries. This time, trust God for He heals, cheers, and He'll shower you with mercy.

Rain