.. and just like that, once again, God showed me how much He loves me. Until now I still can't believe that I'm one of the academic awardees for this academic year. I've been overthinking the whole semester, even fantasizing my own failure. I don't know, I've been breaking down every time I can't reach my expectations towards myself or every time I had a performance in school that I'm not satisfied. For others, I did great - but for me, it's not enough. Hence, I've been overthinking the whole time because for me, I'm doing mediocre and I'm not satisfied. Just a single mistake, makes me feel like I'm less worthy. I even lied to my parents that I'm not able to make it and get an academic award, I lied because I was so scared. I don't want to disappoint them. Funny 'coz I believed my own lie, I even cried for a month thinking that I'm not able to make it or get an academic award.
But God is so good. He saw my struggles when all I saw was a lacking performance. He saw my sleepless nights and breakdowns when all I saw was my wrong spelling on the answer sheet. He heard my cries and prayers when all I heard was whispers in my head telling me to give up. God was always there, wherever I go and whatever I do. Everything was made possible because He's there, He cares, He sees, He listens. Always. Thank you, Father God.
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