You Belong With Me

You Belong With Me [Special Chapter: Nadine]

Ever since I was born I have everything. No, actually, even before I was born I already have everything.

I'm Nadine Marie Villanueva.

Looks. Check. Body. Check. Brains. Uhm...not so much but I can definitely plot the best way to make your life miserable if ever you made me upset. Money. Double Check. Boyfriend. Yeah...

Akala ng ibang tao na masama ako. I know I can be pretty mean sometimes pero I'm not that bad. I have the saddest childhood ever. Parents are always missing in action and barbie was my only playmate. Pero nag-iba yung lahat nung nakilala ko si Henry. Nakipaglaro siya sa akin. I was really shy because he's a boy. Nakakahiya kaya. Dahil doon kaya isinama niya na rin yung pinsan niyang si  Paula para makalaro namin. Summer was the best time of the year.

They are my bestfriends.

Alam ko na noon pa na mahal ko si Henry. Not just because he is my only guy bestfriend and only guy friend sa buong mundo. He was my candle on a dark room. Hindi ko naman akalain na bigla na lang mamamatay yung sindi ng kandila.

Sa Manila ako nag-aral when I was in elementary pero eventually lumipat din ako bago ako grumaduate. I was bullied. Yeah. Nadine Marie Villanueva was bullied. Kaya masisisi niyo ba ako kung nambu-bully ako ngayon? Ayoko lang ma-bully ulit kaya ko yun ginagawa. 

Nasaan ang logic doon? 

What's logic anyway?

I don't even know why I'm telling this. Wala naman akong mapapala aside from telling the whole world what I was and why I'm like this right now.

Cyrus. He courted me. He did not even try... I think? Sa sobrang tagal na nung araw na yun eh nakalimutan ko na. He was the most popular guy in school. Nagulat din ako nung bigla niya akong tinanong if pwedeng maging kami. He was the first ever as in ever guy that wanted to be with me.

Thanks to studying in an all girls school.

I grabbed the oppurtunity kahit alam kong may masasaktan.

Si Sabine.

She is..well uhm was my friend. I was very sincere nung nakipagkaibigan ako sa kanya. She was really my first friend when I transferred in their school. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit bigla akong lumayo. Kung bakit bigla akong nagbago. I don't know.

Maybe because I was jealous.

Maybe...

Even before Cyrus and I became a couple eh naiinggit na ako kay Sabine. She has the perfect family. She was well-loved in our school. She was everybody's girl. She was very pretty even with glasses. I tried to wear glasses before pero they all laughed at me because I looked like a teacher daw. I never wore glasses after that. Bakit kapag si Sabine eh okay lang? Bakit si Sabine ang paborito ng teacher? 

Bakit kahit kami na ni Cyrus eh lagi pa rin si Sabine ang iniintindi niya?

I hate her.

I hate her so much.

Siguro doon nagsimulang magbago ang pagtrato ko sa kanya. Naiinis ako kapag nakikita ko yung mukhha niya. Naiinis ako kapag nakikita kong magkasama sila ni Cyrus. Naiinis ako.

Naiinis akong isipin na pangalawa lang ako.

Queen Bee? Yeah. Siguro nga. Pero kahit yung mga bata sa Kinder ay kilala si Sabine. masyado kasing mapapel at laging nagiging student teacher. Hindi ko naman kayang maging student teacher noh. I don't really hate kids pero I don't want to be alone with 30 of them. Kakaloka. Baka kung ano pang kalokohan ang gawin nila sa akin.

Ayoko na masyadong pag-usapan yung mga bagay tungkol kay Sabine dahil kumukunot lagi ang noo ko at sumasakit ang ulo ko.

Stress.